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[cuckoosnest83]

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Quick post all, but just wanted to say hi and wish everyone a good day. Fjones good luck on your meeting today. Amelia great job with the paintings/commissions and getting through it AF. You are doing such a great job. Very happy for you. Prose and Cindi you both sound good and ready to tackle the holidays. Dcline hope things are going well for you and your plan. Take care everyone and have a great day.

Love you all,
Cuckoo

[prose]

AF Anyone??

Hi everyone,
Fjones, you have a plan which i am slowly learning is sooooooo important!
I am glad to hear you are seeing a doctor, hopefully he/she will be able to help you out.
I know how you feel about counseling, I have recently just gone back after a 10 year break, thought I had everything figured out....
I resisted for the longest time but finally bit the bullet and am glad I did, we did make some progress at the last session so that was good,
Amelia, I want to ditto cuckoo's comments, you are doing great!
I would love to see your work,
better go, have an appt this am and don't want to be late,
love to everyone, P

[GodsGirl]

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I have been Af since November 30 and continue along with you thanks for the invite it is so nice not to be alone.

gg

[AMELIA]

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Welcome GodsGirl, Well done on the AF days!! Yes you are right, it is really comforting to know that we can come to this thread and share about a common problem (as well as everything else).
xx

[cuckoosnest83]

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Good morning, all. Welcome GodsGirl and congratulations on 22 days AF. Hope everyone is doing well. Fjones, was wondering how things went for you yesterday. Did you get to the drs. okay. Please let me know how you made out. Prose, Cindi, Dcline, Amelia, please take care and don't let the stress of the holidays wear you down. I love Christmas but I keep thinking I only have 4 more days to get through because it is stressful. Have a good day.

[fjones]

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Hi All,

I drank at the workds do and blew 10 days and bought more on the way home and got totally wasted. I am really ill today and even more depressed. Missed the doctors - so put my recovery back even further. I am a mess in my head and a mess emotionally and I feel very angry and self disgusted with myself. Its total madness this relationship with alcohol. I am so sick of it. Hope you are all doing okay.

[AMELIA]

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Fjones,
I am with you. I have been in similiar situations. I know you are experiencing difficulties at the moment, we all can sense that from your posts. You have managed a good string of days and you have it seems come up against your brick wall for this week.
We know you have had years of abstinence in the past......I KNOW you can draw on that experience, I am sure you can. Just start thinking about all those times that you were at your happiest and remember them as vividly as you can.........If you can take your mind back there you may find some more energy to get you through the hurdles that you presently face!!!
Thinking of you.

xxx

[AMELIA]

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Fjones, I am still thinking about you. I really am. You have had such long stretches of sobriety before. You KNOW you can do it again, cause you have done so already!!!!
You are an inspiration. Most of us have never been abstinent for that long....
You know how, cause you have done it for years and years before us.
You can do this. You will.
xxx

[dcline]

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Amelia, Cuckoo, Prose, et al... Thank you for your words of wisdom. I appreciate any tips and hints that anyone can offer. God knows I'm not to proud to accept help. I'm excited about what is ahead of me. It seems like Prose needs all of our support, love an prayer. Prose... relax and don't worry about your drinking for the next couple of days and start with me on December 26th. We can do it together...

Happy Holidays everyone,

Love, Debbie.

[fjones]

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Hi All,

Day 2 but fairly early in the day. Knotted stomach, anxiety to the point of nausea, loads of sweating last night and all the usual self disgust. shame, confusion, fear and loneliness that goes with this addiction. Will go to an aa meeting to-night - I need the face to face contact. Not everyone's cup of tea and I was pretty sick of it after 19 years but the people there are just like me - alcohol ruined them. God I am so tired and the PTSD is hell when I am coming off a bender.

At least I have managed to get out of my flat instead of sitting with the racing brain.

Hope you all have a happy day.

[AMELIA]

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Fjones, sorry to read you are having such a tough time honey. I really hope that you found some comfort at your meeting.
Debbie, I am glad that you are excited about going AF, that's always a good sign.

Day 20 for me?? I must admit, I am considering having some Champagne tomorrow.....I don't know yet whether I will for sure. What worries me most is that I may not get straight back on the wagon afterwards? That is the worry that may stop me having any at all.
What are you all doing re drinking over Christmas? It's a real toughy........

Cuckoo, Prose, Cindi and Wakeup, Fjones, Dcline and everyone else, whatever you are doing over the Christmas period, I hope your days run smoothly and happily.
Thank you - all of you for being such a wonderful support to me (and of course to each other), you have really helped me gain my AF days .
Wishing you the best for the festive season and may you all have a Happy New Year.
xxx

[prose]

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Hi everyone,
just a quick note as I am on my way out the door, just wanted to say thanks to everyone,(doesn't seem like enough of a word!) for everything,
fjones, I have been thinking about you and trying to send positive energy (don't laugh!) but I have to agree with Amelia, you have done this and can do it again!
Thank you for allowing us to be part of your journey.
I hope you make it to the Dr, as you said you may be premenopausal, (spelling), there may be some other stuff going on that they can help you with...
anyway, thanks again to everyone, I look forward to getting to know you all even better in 2008!
I am working on Mod for now, then hopefully more af after Christmas,
love you all, P

[lukalee]

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Fjones,
This is only my second day on this site, and although you had a bad day, I am inspired by you. I have to be honest, I am drinking right now because I was so cranky I could not handle it. I did just talk to my kids and ex and told them I have a drinking problem; I plan on stopping on January 1st, and I will be very bitchy!!! We can all do this!!!!!

[AMELIA]

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Welcome Lukalee!! Hats off to you for talking to your family about your drinking.....it is a really hard thing to do, but really important for us if we want long term sobriety. January 1st is a good date, as you will have all the 'festive' bits out of the way.
Looking forward to seeing your progress in the New Year.
Love to you too Prose and to everyone else.
Thinking of you all.
xx

[maggiemoo]

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Wakeupmom, Amelia...thank you for your warm wishes...Amelia, you wondered what the problem was with my son and daughter-in-law was. She is bi-polar and has periods of rage that I can't even discribe. I have never heard anything like it nor has my son. It happened again while I was there. I woke in the middle of the night by all the screaming...it went on and on. I knew my oldest granddaughter wouldn't be sleeping so I went up to her room, she immediately sat up and started crying and said she was so scared. I told her to come get in bed with me. the other two slept thru it somehow. I got her to sleep and finally went to sleep myself. My son who had been on call all week and was sleep deprived (he's a pediatrician) went to sleep but woke about 5 a.m. and went down to check on her and she was in the garage with the car running asleep. He was her target this time, I have been several times, her children are often. Once she called her oldest child a glutonous sinner. Sick or not....accept it and get help or I wish my son would leave her. She's actually bipolar with borderline personality disorder...very pretty, charismatic, teaches college Spanish...looks perfect on the outside....just don't come inside. I just feel so sorry for my son. As my youngest son said....because of the children, he is so totally screwed. Anyway.....that is why I dreaded my visit with my son and that is why I was the only one that would go.

Merry Christmas all of you. I'm truly not a depressed type although I sound like it but when your kids hurt, you do but I decided this trip that I will no longer let crazy make me crazy. I haven't quit drinking yet but by damn I will because too many people need me. So far, I'm what they call a "functioning alcoholic" but we all know what that leads to so I have to cut that off before I stop functioning. Hey....May you all have a great new year. I'm going to be in and out for a while. But I'll keep checking in. Take care!