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[Cinders]

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Hello everyone!! Good Friday morning to all.

I made it through Thursday barely. I got to the hotel, ate my dinner I picked up on the way so I wouldn't have to go near the hotel bar (no willpower, if I go there, I will drink) and then fell asleep around 6:00!! I woke up at 2:30 this morning. sigh.

I got plenty of sleep, I know, and after days and days of not sleeping, it was a blessing. However, waking up at 2:30 means today is going to be a looooonnnngg day. Been there, done that.

However, despite AF brain fog and what goes with it, I am hanging in there.

Amelia - I started to reply to your post about bf and money. It got to be pages long and I realized I should not do that. It is the "mum" in me. Suffice it to say, one thing I have learned in life and relationships, you cannot control the other people in you life, you can only control your response to their actions. I would recommend that you calmly let him know your concerns. Period. What he chooses to do, you cannot control. You can only control how you react to it. (This is tough, because it means we have to give up any semblance of control but in the end it is the truth.) I really hope things work out for him. It sounds like he is in a "I don't know what to do" place and that is difficult, too.

I am stuck in Columbus, OH until morning but that is okay. I will bring another dinner home and bypass the bar. Whoo Hooo. I am doing this guys!!!

Love and :l ,
Cindi

[wakupmom]

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Good for you Cindi,
It can not be easy,but you are doing it!!I know the sleep deprivation is really hard,but it gets betterwith time-so keep going girl xx
Thankyou cuckoo,Heres to a A/F weekend to you xx
Propse,Hope you are ok just post what ever xx
Amelia,Hope you are ok too xx

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi all, well I didn't make it through Friday. It is amazing the excuses you can provide yourself as to why you need that drink. I had everything planned for Friday, I was going to the gym, come home and cook myself a nice dinner and then go out by the garden and read and I had this site to come to as a backup. Well, when I got home from work on Friday I was expecting by package with the book, cds, and supplement and it wasn't here. I let my dogs out, got dressed, and went to the gym but on the way home I stopped at the liquor store. My rationale was that if I wasn't meant to drink on Friday my package should have been here. I find it extremely funny (sad) that the thing that might help pull me out of this abyss is the thing I use as an excuse to drink. We really are experts at self-delusion. Well, I have a better evening planned for tonight. I'm headed to my niece's (a non-drinker) for dinner and a movie and will be home late. So I'm going to keep trying until I lick this thing. I hope you all had a successful Friday and wish you strength for this evening.

[cuckoosnest83]

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db2, prose, amelia, deilight, wakeupmom, how did you make out? I hope you were able to resist the temptaion. The weekends are the hardest for me. Take care and I'll be back on tonight.

[wakupmom]

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Hi cuckoo, glad u r ok, not so good here can not stop crying.Hate to be such a down in the mouth,just do not understand whats wrong with me xx
Hope everyone else is ok-miss you guys,please touch base soon xx

[prose]

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Hello everyone,
My internet server has been having issues again, whenever I checked yesterday afternoon I had no service, not sure what is up with that but will have to call if it keeps up....
anyway, wakeupmom, am worried about you- do you have someone close you can talk to? I know there is nothing worse than that hopeless feeling, and when you are in the middle of it the last thing you want to do is see or talk to anyone, but if you can force yourself to do it it will be helpful,
please check in here often, if my stupid computer works I will check in often today too,
cuckoosnest, I know exactly what you mean about finding reasons that make drinking such a rational thing to do!
but don't forget your other af days and it sounds like you have a plan for tonight,
I am doing ok, just one slip this week so 8 af days out of 9, which is a record for me!
hello to everyone else here too, Amelia how are you this weekend? I think you have the coolest job!
Hi Cindi, are you home yet or still on the road?
and hello to Deilight, what day are you on?
better run but hope to check in soon if the internet gods are willing,
love P

[wakupmom]

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So good to hear from you Prose,
Was wondering where you were.Am ok just going through another stage of seperation..will be back to my old self soon xx

[prose]

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hello wakeupmom!
so glad to see you!
I know you said your kids are gone, when will they be back? is there something fun you can do for yourself? I know how hard that is, my kids are always getting after me because I have-such a hard time doing "nothing" ie something that i don't deem "productive". What kinds of things do you like to do? Is the weather good where you are?
anyway I will keep checking in with you as long as my internet cooperates,
P

[cuckoosnest83]

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Prose, thanks for the support. Wakeupmom, I think the tears can be cathartic. I know the first night I found this site I was reading the posts with tears streaming down my eyes because I felt like I had found home. With the kids gone, it might be good to take a nice hot bubble bath and just let the tears flow. I won't be home this evening but will check in when I get home to see how you are doing. Please take care and remember everything is time-limited.

Amelia, hope everything is well with you.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Oh, forgot to congratulate you on your record Prose. Keep up the good work.

[AMELIA]

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Hello All, I haven't had a chance to read all the posts, but will do so tomorrow.
Wakeupmom, you sound really sad. What's going on for you?? PMS or something else......
Please give us some idea. I don't normally cry without knowing what is going on for me, but I know everyone is different.
Think it through, what has been going on for you the last couple of days?? Are you extra tired at the moment??

To everyone else, thanks for your messages with reference to me and my slip.
Will check in tomorrow.
Hoping you are all doing well
xx

[prose]

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Me again,

Hope your day went better wakeupmom, mine got away on me and I didn't check in as often as I had planned, I think the idea of a bubble bath and letting the tears flow is a good one, sometimes they just need out!
I hope you are feeling better, Hi to everyone else, have to run again but glad to see the other posts, will try to check in later tonight, if not then tomorrow am, all the best to everyone, P

[Cinders]

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Amelia, Deilight, Wakupmom, Prose and all the others on this thread,

I am back at home with hubby. We are babysitting tonight so I have my beautiful little granddaughter with us. She and PawPaw are watching "Jaws" for the umpteenth time. He is begging her to watch something else. :H

I, however, am reading the posts and watching the D'Backs play Chicago. Have to root for the D'Backs because my brother is from Phoenix and whenever I go there on a gig, we go to a game together.

(For those who don't know, this is baseball playoffs.)

Wakeup, I am so sorry you are feeling so blue. If it keeps up, you just might want to go to see a doc or counselor. Don't let undiagnosed depression, bipolar be an underlying cause of your issues. I think Deilight can tell you how much better she is feeling since addressing her depression. I've had to in the past and know how hard it is to get out of that space once you are there.

Prose, glad to see you here and working so hard. You just jumped on in and started working on it. Good for you!! (It isn't easy but we will get there.)

Good night all,
Cindi

[prose]

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Hello everyone,
where are you all? Hopefully off doing something fun. I have had not a great weekend, slipped on sat and sun but not to the point of going overboard, but still don't like how I feel the next day, mostly disappointed in myself, yada yada yada, same old thing. but today is a new day and I am going for one of those stars!
hope you are all ok, P

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi Prose, I'm here. I too slipped over the weekend but I vow to do this. I received the supplements and book today so I plan on getting started tomorrow. It really is a minute by minute battle. I'm glad you didn't go overboard. The way I look at it is that we need to concentrate on our successes and accept our mistakes but not focus on them. Glad to see the post.