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[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi mohmars and welcome. I think what is next depends on you and what you want. Is the failing health and falling out with wife due to drinking and if so do you want to quit or moderate. You need to decide what it is you want and then I think the people are here to help you in whatever way they can. Please keep posting. You may also want to check out the forum "need help ASAP".

Cuckoo

[AMELIA]

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Cindi, well done on avoiding your watering holes. Yep, the 'thoughts' can creep up on you at any time.

Mohmars, welcome. Hope you work things out with your wife.

Day 1 for me today (really gotta do this month AF)

Cuckoo, Prose, Wakeupmom and everyone else, hope you are all doing well.

xx

[wakupmom]

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Yes Good on you Cindi,that was some mean test and you passed!!xx
A warm Welcome,from me too Mohmars.I wish you well.and hope you find strenghth and support in our community,always here for you xx
Cuckoo.You have been amazing,long may it last for you Hon.I am going to the Dominican this time,never been there before,allthough have been to most of the other Islands.xx
Prose,Hope you are OK girl and that exercise programme is working well for you.Please let us know how your doing. xx
Amelia, "Me Ol Friut"Am pleased your work is going good,and your desire for a a/f December are off to a good start.xx
Well as for me a bit of a lost cause today.Kids went away unexpectantly.Their dad came home and off they went leaving me without a plan(Bad),so against my hopes for starting the month without,i find myself looking at long unfulfilled hours ahead of me.Needless to say i have my wine for company duh!!
Have a great weekend my friends,much love xx

[cuckoosnest83]

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wakupmom, thank you dear. It hasn't been easy but it hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be either. I don't know if it is the topamax althought am trying now to go without that. Holidays will be very difficult for me so I will be on here often.

I work with a woman from the Dominican and it is my understanding that its people are lovely. Very gracious and sharing. I hope you have a wonderful time.

My ex shared custody of his children from his first marriage and I hate to say it but it sucked. Similarly to you the plans were often changed unexpectedly. So when he planned on getting them there would be a phone call on Friday afternoon saying things had changed. Very hard to deal with but hang in there. We're here for you. Hope you have a good weekend despite the unforseen turn of events.
Cuckoo

[wakupmom]

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Thankyou Cuckoo,
I know you are very recently separated,i hope you are doing alright on the emotional side.Remember everday is a huge bonus,tomorrow is another day.Much Love xx

[AMELIA]

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Hi wakeupmom - yep lonely house is not good for me either. Last two days have been like that for me. I should have been doing my VAT returns, but no.......it was wine time.
Felt deathly last night and swore black and blue that this would be day 1 again (but no).
Sigh. Have you seen the pic of our meet yet??? All those heads turned away from the camera and Beatle diving for cover behind you...
Cuckoo, yes I am fully with Wakeupmom. You have been doing amazingly well with your AF days. Have you been counting up days or are you just NOT drinking full stop??? Are you taking all the supps? I have just ordered Alan Carrs book The Easy way to Control Alcohol. Let's hope it helps.

Prose, Cindi, Mohmars, Bessie, Beth and everyone else - Hello and have a great weekend.
xx

[wakupmom]

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Thankyou Amelia,maybe i am not such a freak,after all.I just so hate wasting my days,but at the same time feel powerless to do anything about it.I suppose it comes down to the mind set again.Sending you and me strenghth.We can do this!! xx

[wakupmom]

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love to everyone else-stay strong xx

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi Amelia and Wakupmom, I have been keeping track on drink tracker. I went 27 days af in November. I think for me I was just ready to do it. I felt I was killing myself because I was a hardcore drinker of Tanqueray gin. I was afraid to go to the drs because of what the test results would be so I think after trying to go AF in October I just made the decision if I didn't do it in November I would never do it. I had been trying off and on numerous times before finding this site. This site was just the impetus I needed. Tonight I'm having a bit of a craving so I will go get in my pajamas again. I just hope the cravings don't start occurring around 1:00 in the afternoon so I'm in my pjs in the middle of the day. Thanks for your kudos and each of you share in the credit because I couldn't have done it without the people on this site and especially the people on this thread.
Love you all.

Cuckoo

[AMELIA]

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Wow Cuckoo!!! You are doing amazingly well. 27 days is awesome. Good on you.
xxxxxx

[Cinders]

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Amelia, Cuckoo, Wakup, Prose and all Other Afers,

Good Sunday Morning from Alabama. :h

I see Cuckoo is doing awesome!! :goodjob:

Amelia and Wakeup, this struggle is hard. :l

Prayers for both of you that you find the strength and the need to get where you both want to be.

I made it yet one more day and am grateful. It is so hard and yet so easy. How funny, huh? Some minutes it is such an internal struggle, I almost tear up because my brain says "never again OMG?" but then I just close my eyes and do my deep breaths, or take a walk or something to distract and it does go away. I am right behind Cuckoo at 21 days and going. Whew.

Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, I cannot consider moderation. My past few months have clearly shown that I am one of those who simply cannot drink a couple. It is none or oblivion in my case and my poor liver, kidneys and brain just can't take it anymore. Not to mention my last episode really scared me into realizing I could have done something horrible and ended up driving really really drunk. Just can't do it.

In my case, it would be completely irresponsible to pick up a drink again.

Oh well, enough about me. I guess I just have to keep reminding myself why I can never drink again. Sorry.

Anyway. I do hope all find the inner strength and healing they need to reach their goals.

I also hope that you guys find healing in your personal lives. I know you have been going through some really rough times and as the holidays approach, this is even harder to deal with.

Just know there are people out here who care, especially me. You guys are awesome and have been a great source of inspiration and solace.

Love,
Cindi

[AMELIA]

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Hey Cindi, you sound really strong. 21 days is wonderful - 7 more days or so and you will be at the end of month one!!

You have been such an incredible inspiration and support on this site. You are right too, it is soo hard yet so easy. I know that it is FAR easier to have an AF day when the day before it was AF too. I just read in Allen Carrs book that a recovering alcoholic said to him
"I am only one drink away from being drunk" - Yep that is truely how it does feel when you know that moderation is not possible and abstinence has to be the way.I think I am like you one of those people who will not be able to moderate. If I have even one drink - off I go until I go to bed.

You are awesome Cindi and are doing so well. I know I am gonna watch your AF days just get more and more.:goodjob:

[wakupmom]

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Just thought i would check in quickly before heading of to work.
Hope you all had a good sunday.I kept busy yesterday,and was socailable.Resulting in a a/f day yippee !!
Cindi,Thankyou so much for your post.I too think you are awsome.Just think that everyday is a day further away from the booze.Time to make you stronger mentaly,physically,emotionaly.I wish you lots of love xx
Hi Amelia,i too think that moderation is not an option for me.Its getting there.I know that in my heart of hearts,even with all the support and encouragment on this site its down to me.Anyway sending you a big hug,and hope your feeling ok today xx
Cuckoo,Go girl.xx
Prose, hope you are doing fine xx
Untill next time

[AMELIA]

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Hi Wakeupmom - nice to hear from you honey. Glad to read that you are doing OK. Yep, I am with you on the moderation thing. Hope you had a good weekend - well done on your AF day yesterday!!!!

xx

[Tahlula]

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Hello Amelia xx