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[AMELIA]

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Diane 52, how are you getting on??

[diane52]

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Thanks for the good thoughts and suggestions. I did the clearing cd 1 and 2 this am. Took my supps. Don't have the topo till the 16th. Kind of nervous about that. I need to be sharp at work - how soon does loopiness wear off? Will my hair fall out? I bought and read the book MWO months ago and re read it all the way through yesterday. Today seems fine. Trying to take things slow and not demand too much today. Have been reading threads and finding such comfort here. I really don't feel so all alone. Amazed and moved by the courage to admit to our problems with drinking here. How frightening it has been. How hopeful I feel. And scared. But not so lonely here.
Read the why I hate drinking thread. Wow. The wine one as well.
Generous brave folks.
Thanks so much for writing me me and encouraging me. I look forward to that night's sleep you wrote of. It has been so many years since I have experienced that kind oif slumber. I just took a deep breath thinking of it....
Thanks again. I plan to be here alot. Need to be here alot.
Diane52

[planetjanet]

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Hello Everyone!

I am back again and will start my AF tomorrow (had a glass of wine this afternoon). I start my new job tomorrow and I am scared that I will blow it again. When I first joined MWO, it was in August and I had once again felt sickened for my ISMM. I really want this and need some support in staying AF for at least a month, gosh how hard can that be. I am glad that I found this site and know that you guys will be here to support me. I am so grateful that I have MWO to help me out. I was saddened to read a post of a woman who wanted to kill herself because of her drinking, gosh I know the feeling as far as feeing "helpless" but I am strong enough to know that I can overcome this, as we all do and oh gosh I hope that girl is still alive because it's HER that inspired me to not drink for good....but then I got home and my friend offered me a glass of wine to "ring in the new year" and like all excuses to drink, I did.....

Thanks for reading my post and I am asking for support....

[Cinders]

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Diane52 - :goodjob: on getting started. I can't answer the topa questions because I am unable to take it due to skin rash. Must be allergic. However, remember no matter how difficult, eventually sleep will come and when it does, it is REAL sleep.

PlanetJanet - :welcome: back and glad to see you here.

Amelia - Let's go girl!! You can do it. I've "seen" it with my own eyes. You have been able to stay AF for a couple long periods. We can do this, girl!!

Cuckoo - Greg rented 300. I left when the battle started. I just wasn't in the mood for blood and guts tonight. :H

However, it has been such a nice afternoon. Hubby got home early and puttered around and we just enjoyed each other's company. It is so nice not to be blitzed in the evenings when he is home. Yet another reason to stop this insanity.

As soon as I hear the movie go from battle back to normal, I will go back in the room. lol

Have a really nice evening, everyone.

Love,
Cindi

[Masquerade]

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day 2

Lord God -
Thank you for your help thus far.

Two down ... ODAT.

[AMELIA]

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Hi Diane,
I haven't really had any symptoms when taking Topamax (mind you everyone is different)....the only thing I would say is once you start taking it, just tirate up slowly. If you feel any strange symptoms, just stay at your dose for a week or so longer before going to a larger one.

Planetjanet - Nice to see you back. Wishing you a great start to your new job and your first days AF!! We will be here for you :h

Cindi - thanks for your message. Day 1 for me today. Really looking forward to waking tomorrow and not feeling crap.

Cuckoo, Prose, Fjones, Dcline, Maggiemoo, Wakeupmom , Masquerade, Lukalee and everyone else - Have a great day and may it be AF for you!!

xx

[bluequad]

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Started first hour of 2008, every minute feels better, would love to join in.

Gary

[Cinders]

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Amelia and all,

Hope today is a good one for everyone!!

Welcome Bluequad, glad to have you here.

Love,
Cindi

[diane52]

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HI everyone,
Amelia, Cindi, Cookoo I woke up this am having one
AF day under my belt. Thank you for your help. It was hard and not hard.
And from what I read the nest few days are going to be just as difficult in different ways. I'm off to take a walk without a hangover then back to listen to hyno one and hypno two. Great grate full.
I barely left this website yesterday. I'm going to stay close but must work some today. I'll be in touch.
Amelia, how's your day? Thinking of you.
Diane:thanks:

[AMELIA]

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Hey Bluequad - Welcome!!
Well done on starting on the first hour of 2008 (what a great time to choose!!), so you must be on day 4 now - way to go.
Day 1 for me - definately.
Hello to everyone else
xx

[AMELIA]

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Hey Diane, I am so happy that you have made it through the first day. The first one is a toughy too!! I am feeling Ok thank you.......I guess we have just been typing at the same time.
Onwards and upwards!
xx

[sweetpea]

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HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone on this thread sending you LOL and strong vibes of support

:l :h Sweetpea xx

[AMELIA]

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Love to you too Sweetpea and all the best for the New Year!! xx

[SoCal Betsy]

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I would also like to join in on your AF month's quest.

I feel terrible today but really need to get going and stop making excuses. Drinking is taking over my life.
:new:

[Will4272]

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AF - day four. Last night was the first good night's sleep I've had in a very long time. Still having a hard time getting to sleep, generally 2 hours less a night, but what I do get makes me feel a lot better during the day. I am noticing significant changes in how I perceive things around me - I am starting to take pleasure in things that I did not even notice when I was getting loaded every night after work. The way I react to others is changing too - what would've pissed me off last week I just shrug off now. I smile a lot more. I am eating better and feeling better. I am not ashamed of what I am doing anymore and that in turn drives all kinds of positive feelings.

Bottom line - being sober feels a hell of a lot better than being drunk once I am past the first 48 hours.