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[diane52]

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Hi all,
Prose I'm so happy for you! Inspiration!
Amelia so good to hear from you and how exciting about your house!
Starting day one again as per the plan. I don't have any evening plans with anyone for the next three weeks (cept my family!). So I feel ready to go and not sabotage myself. Wish me good luck. I just got notice that my topa is on the way from India via the US postoffice. Very odd somehow. I take celexa and zyrtec(sp? too lazy to get up and check). Does anyone else take these meds and taken topa too? Little bit nervous. But excited too. Have lost 4 pounds cutting back on the wine. Nice bonus. Now to get that AF time. I stopped the tapes for a few days - got to get back to it. Still haven't made it to the gym. Back at work and struggling with that discipline - I know the gym will help - just need to start the habit again.
OK.
Onto my day!
Wishing everyone here a good day and peace in their, our, hearts.
Diane52

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hello all,

Amelia, congratulations on finding a new home and especially one that is gorgeous. With your artistic talent I would love to see it after you have been in it and decorated the place. I'm sure you put your own special touch to it.

Prose, congrats on day 4 and glad you are feeling so good. I'm feeling good too although tired. I think I'm tired though because of my early days and my body hasn't quite adjusted.

Wakup, sorry you had to dart out again after just getting home. Didn't give you much time to sort things out after the holiday but I'm glad you're back now. Very happy to hear you only consumed small quantities of alcohol. I'm sure it added to the enjoyment of your holiday. I am in the AF frame of mind and in fact I'm trying to just not drink and not even think of it as AF anymore. Right now I am an extremely happy bunny XXOO

Diane, it sounds like you definitely have a plan in place and now sounds like a good time to get some AF time under your belt. You have made a great start at being AF and moderating. Good luck

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Love all,
Cuckoo

[AMELIA]

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Hello All!!
Thanks for your well wishes about my new pad!
We will be moving at the beginning of Feb (all going well).
It is my birthday tomorrow (I am getting to that age that I prefer it wasn't happening:H ) and then the day after I am doing the first sitting for a painting.....it is a portrait of my boyfriends father. A fun lunch will follow no doubt, so I am going to go AF on Monday morning. I wanted to be AF for this particular year of my life, for once I feel fulfillment not far away.

I have so many changes coming in the next few months. A different city....(a gorgeous, beautiful, historic, quiet, calm one - instead of London), a different job (painting full time hopefully - my dream) and a new place to live....the apartment is AMAZING with so much space you could swing an elephant.

I do know though, that for me to achieve my dreams this year, that alcohol and my relationship with it will NOT move me forward, but keep me stuck. Not good. I deserve better treatment from myself!!

MONDAY!

Sending love to each and every one of you. Best wishes for the coming year. :h

[diane52]

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Hi all,
So good to hear fromyou Amelia on your house, PAINTING for a living, that is the best. You must be pretty da#% good! My hopes will be with you Monday.
Cuckoo thanks for responding to the plan. It goes well - I'm on day 3 and will be at a religious retreat for the weekend so I just may make it to day five. I'll be AWOL a few days here but not in my heart.
I do have high hopes. But ODAT. The last time I got ahead of myself. No this time. I'm right here where I need to be.
Wishing you all well.
Diane52

[AMELIA]

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Hey Diane, your plan sounds great,...plus being on Day 3 and the weight loss - you sound like you are doing really well.
Enjoy yourself at the retreat,...looking forward to hearing how you got on.
Your posts are really positive. Wishing you well too!
x

[prose]

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HI everyone,
haven't had time to read posts so i hope everyone is well! I will be away until tues, so will check in then ,
all the best,P

[AMELIA]

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Prose, have a great time.
Will be sending you AF vibes.
x

[cuckoosnest83]

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Good morning all. Just wanted to check in and say hi. Haven't been posting much but have been reading. Last night worked at the animal shelter. Really enjoy the animals just wish I could spend more time with them and less with chores. Hope all is going well for everyone. I'm still AF and to be honest today I feel really good. As people with more time under their belt have told me it does get easier as time goes by. I'm hardly thinking about it now. Last night I had a thought for about 3 minutes and I kept telling myself why are you craving gin, it isn't water, it isn't food, it isn't anything that is necessary to sustain life, why do you think you need it and I said to myself " I don't" (don't worry I'm not engaging in lengthy conversations with myself) and that was it, the urge went away.

Amelia, you sound like everything in your life is falling perfectly into place. The new apartment, the painting full time, a different city, etc. I wish you success, happiness, health, and peace as you start this new part of your journey.

Prose, look forward to hearing from you when you get back.

Wakup and Cindi hope you both are doing well and know I love you and am thinking of you.

Diane, good for you on 4 lbs down, 3 days AF and a weekend retreat which definitely might make it 5 days AF. Can't wait to hear how it went. Hope the weekend was great.

Love to all,
Cuckoo

[wakupmom]

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Happy Birthday Amelia!!Hope its a good one and all your dreams come true xx

Cuckoo,so nice that you find comfort with those animals.Great to hear about your A/F xx

Prose,Engoy your time away xx

Diane,Your doing really well.Keep going,am pleased for you xx

Cindi,I hope you are OK xx

I am going out for dinner this eve,as the kids are both on sleepovers.Feeling a little flat at the moment.Must book another holiday!
Hope you all have a lovely weekend xx

[NewLife2008]

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I'm new, but I'll do thirty days. I did three weeks in November and I felt great.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Welcome newlife2008. I did 30 days in november/december and felt great too.

Amelia, I am so sorry. Happy Birthday. What an idiot I can be sometimes. I hope you have a great celebration.

[AMELIA]

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Hello All,
I haven't made my Monday Afness. Lots of things stressful happening. No excuse I know, but not easy either.
Had my first portrait sitting yesterday. Was nervous but turned out ok.

Cuckoo, it sounds like you are doing really well with your AFness. You are questioning your cravings and dealing with the things that come up??
Plus your work with the animals at the shelter,...sounds incredibly fulfilling
You really do sound like you are on the right track.xxx

Wakeup,
My goodness, who wouldn't feel flat after coming back from the gorgeous holiday that you have just come back from. You are such a sweetie. Your posts are so loving and heartfelt,...glad to have you back!!!xxx

Newlife 2008. Welcome!!!
xxx

Prose, hope everything is still going well for youxxx.

Diane, thinking of you and your last messages. You sound very strong!!! Thankyou for your well wishes and keep on shedding those pounds!! xxx

xxxLove to you all and a big hello to all that I haven't mentionedxxx:h

[diane52]

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I didn't make it either. I know better. No excuses. I made it 4 3/4's days AF and for no good reason drank. Your courage gives me courage to be honest. So hard. Thanks.
The retreat was wonderful. Very nourishing. Peaceful.
So glad the painting went well Amelia. How exciting. I'd be nervous, too. Good for you for doing it anyway!
Wishing all well. Gotta get dinner on.
Diane

[NewLife2008]

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Tonight my son, who I've been struggling with for the past year told me he wanted to live with his dad. Last November when I quit drinking for three weeks, it was because of him. Not because of him, for him. I grew up in an alcoholic household. Both parents drank, but my mom gave it up early on because it made her depressed. She and my dad had fought about his drinking since they had gotten married. My brother became a drug addict, my mother died before I had my kids, my father died ten years later of lung disease, my brother was found dead and alone, shortly afterward, we think it was a heart attack from the use of drugs and alcohol all these years. My marriage was really based on a relationship of alcohol and having a drinking partner. When I woke up to the reality of it all, after being scared to death my children and I were in danger of being harmed, I asked him to leave. After two years, I sit here, not being able to sit in peace, but with the shock that my son, who reminds me so deparately of my brother, wants to go live with his dad, after everything we went through and now because I disciplined him for getting detention for a second time, he wants to leave. I didn't hit him, but restricted him for a month and he cant' use the computer or his Xbox. His brother did this to me two years ago when they're father and I separated, telling me twice within six months he wanted to live with his dad. Both times I took him into his therapist and they talked, he came home the last time and never said another word about leaving until his younger brother said they had been talking about moving in with their dad. I then find out, their dad has been telling them if they want to come and live with him, they can. After sorting this out, drinking a bottle of wine, and taking a half hour to write this note, I see what I have to do. I need to call my attorney, tell him what has happened with not only the boys, but the girls too (my oldest and youngest girls told me he has been tempting them to come live with him), and have him take him directly to court. This is the second time this has happened.

I know this is long, but I need some help and feedback. I tried so hard to resist the temptation, but this constant upheaval is wearing me down.

I really wanted to make if for a month and move on and I'm slowly developing the skills to cope with issues likes this. I know I can go on, but these fits of starts and stops are draining.

Amelia, keep up the good work. All of you. You're all great.

[cuckoosnest83]

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Newlife, I read your post but I'm headed into work and don't have time to respond in the thoughtful manner it deserves. I think you are doing the right thing going to your attorney. I have no real experience since I don't have children. I know you are in a very difficult position because my ex (the father) was in a similar position. Will post more when I get home today. Please take care of yourself.

Cuckoo