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[amashed]

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Thank you for your note! I could hardly believe it when this morning I realised that the idea of 2 weekends AF would be the first time in 18 years, weird. I WILL do it!

[Flip]

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I would suggest that you get yourself a counsellor ASAP. The next phase is more about your head than your addiction.

I also kept a journal for the first 6 months or so, now I don't, but I still write things down in an email to my counsellor when they come up.

[Finding My Self]

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Amashed! Don't you dare "Sod off"!!!!!! We love reading about your travels down this road we're on! And I like reading your 'typical rambles'...

I wish you so much good, strength etc for this weekend. YOU CAN DO IT!

Love FMF xx

[amashed]

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Flip,

While I appreciate your idea of a counsellor, I don?t think that?s the direction that?s best for me. The biggest change that I needed to make was to admit my problem to myself and my girlfriend (I don?t really have any family) and while she doesn?t understand the problems associated with alcohol I am finding solace from you all here (your answer to my dreams question for example was tremendously helpful).

I know I?ve mentioned my pride before and this is a hard time still (and will be for a long while) but I am starting to get there. Thank you.

[Flip]

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No worries Amashed! We each have our own way of getting through this, and no matter what you chose to do, it's the right path for you.

(I have no pride lol)

[amashed]

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OK well, my first proper Saturday AF, Friday night instead of starting at home with some beers and then going to the pub I stayed in! Watched some TV, got an early night and now I have a new experience ? this is what Saturday morning is like not hungover!?!?! Its odd I can tell you!

I feel OK, I?m not thinking about when I can have my first beer (and get away with it) to feel better and generally pleased with myself!

I?ve have to say I?d like a beer, BUT I know better so its just not going to happen. There?s none in the house anyway so there?s no chance. I?ll add an update tomorrow but I think that I can do this weekend and if I can do this first one then I think I have a good chance!

[roxane]

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it may feel odd, but it also feels great doesnt it.

well done.

roxane

[Phoenix74]

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Hi Amashed

Well done on doing what you did last night :goodjob:

You've got to feel proud of yourself for your achievement.
In a way, it means all the more to ourselves (well, to me anyway) when we do it, cos it's not like we can go announce to the world/friends/family "hey everyone I didn't have a few beers" like we can say ' hey I got an ace new job' or 'hey I scored a new contract at work' or 'hey I got a promotion' and enjoy it when they say: "That's Great! Well Done!"

Congrats Amashed, that was a big thing. Bet you feel super fit and fliying this morn. Enjoy your Saturday

[amashed]

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Morning,
Well day 10 AF and more importantly got through yesterday, which probably now means that this is the best I have managed in over 15 years. I feel pretty good today and will do something with the other half today (for the last 4 years I never, ever went out on a Sunday ? I just sat on the sofa and felt terrible) so this is a big day for me.

One of the strange things is I was thinking yesterday what would I order if I went into a pub? Its been so long that I haven?t had a beer as an automatic option that I?m not sure what to order now. I?ve had to avoid my local as they pour me a pint as soon as they see me (not a good thing anymore), just means another thing I need to change.
Going to change my mood to pleased, because I am! Thank you all!

[tawnyfrog]

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Hey amashed,

What a lovely, positive post. Good stuff.

:happy::happy:

[missCDJ]

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amashed, thats brilliant, well done on your sober weekend! i normally drink beer in the pub too-is the alcohol free lager any good? maybe ordering it would be saying 'i;m an ex alcoholic' but who cares..

I've been af this weekend apart from sat night when i shared a bottle of wine and a meal with a friend. didn't carry on drinking like i normally would though so am still pretty pleased with myself, and so should you be too!:goodjob:

[magic]

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Hey amashed!!!!

WOW !!!!!

Well done!

m. xx

[paula]

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Well done Amashed, keep up the good work.
Love Paula. xx

[bloggy]

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Well done Amashed!!

A friend of mine (who had to go detox in a locked room for 12 days and eventually quit the booze- she has now been alcohol free for 10 years and has her own bar) told me one of the things she was told at rehab was not to drink AF beer. Apparently the very small amount of alcohol present in most brands can re-ignite the desire to drink, as can the feeling of sitting with a glass that looks just like the old stuff.

She has noticed through having her own bar that this seems to be correct. Clients who come off the drink soon go back on when they begin to drink the AF stuff.

It doesn't even taste good, and must be loaded with chemicals.

I personally just avoid the pub when I am not drinking, or at least for the first few months.

[missCDJ]

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Thanks marbella, AF beer doesn't sound like a good option! Can't say I miss the pub really, am going to stick to my safety zone for now!! Sparkling apple juice, anyone?