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[time2change]

Although you didn't know it you all have been helping me for the last few months. I posted once before about how positive I was that I was getting a handle on my drinking and then I continued to drink daily. I felt like a failure so I didn't post anymore, but continued to read and be inspired.
My story is a long one, but I startied drinking almost daily at age 38 after my husband and I separated. I was put on anti dressants and that was the beginning of continued drinking. Although my husband dcame back I continued to drink. It is a truly disfunctional relationship. Me drinking and him doing drugs, but always luing and making me think I'm crazy. Until he was arrested for possesion and proving I'm not so crazy.
Beleive it or not we have two great kids. I guess it was the years before I drank that I was soing a good job with them. One just left for college this year the other is still living here in this situation. I know that I have to change this and do something about the marriage, but i have been drowning myseld in beer so I did not have to deal with this.
///////////////////////THIS IS DAY 6 AF THANKS TO ALL OF YOU.
I am feeling really strong and thank you all. I have not sleep weel, but last nioght was a little better. I have the supps and tapes although I have using supps only this week.
Thank you all for letting me dshare and I hope to be here often to support and receive support.

[Lucy Van Pelt]

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good going!! Keep it up! It only gets better, and quickly, I may add. I am only a couple of weeks AF, and much better than I was at 6 days. The sleep will begin to get better, and that will help you a lot. Come on in, the water's fine! Keep posting, and even come on chat...I found that the relationships I have formed here are at least as important in helping me as all the "stuff".

So, you go girl!! Nice to "meet" you.

Beth

[rustop61]

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Hi and :welcome:

I too started and stopped many times. However, since finding this site I keep coming back to it and if not posting then reading, reading and then when I was ready starting again. Nearly have my first 30 AF Days completed, did not think I could do it and wouldnt have but for the support I received here. Take good care of yourself and join in.

Rustop

[magic]

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Welcome Time!!!!!!!!

Congratulations too!!!!! Hard work but so, so worth it!

I am so glad you posted, so glad you are here with us, talking to us now.

Others who are just reading may be inspired from reading your post.

If you find that your antidepressants are not doing the "trick" go back and tell your doctor, there are a whole bunch of others to try, it's a matter of finding the right one, or a combination of drugs. Once you get your brain chemistry in order the world just might look a whole lot different to you and problems easier to deal with. Just a thought.

I have not tried the CD's but others just love them for sleep. I hope they help you too.

magic xx

[lushy]

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Welcome Time, and congrats on the AF days. I find the CDs help a lot with sleeping so hope they work well for you. Hope to hear more from you. The support here really does help.

[AMELIA]

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Time to Change, 6 days AF is a huge step in the right direction. Well done. Just keep on coming here and remember take one day at a time and your weeks will add up in no time at all.
x

[newjoe]

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Hi, I find stories like yous inspirational. I just found this web site yesterday and I'm looikng forward to my 1st night without drinking myself to sleep. I just wanted to thank you for posting your story.
Keep up the good work and wish me luck.
Joe...

[time2change]

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Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I just reread my post and apologize for my spelling ant typos. I'm using the laptop and am not used to typing on it.
I find it hard to believe that I could be of any help to anyone, but two weeks ago i would never had beleived i would have 6 days AF.
I am really worried about tomorrow. I will be home alone all day and have had those sneaky feelings of rewarding myself with a drink. I'll log in here instead. Thank you all for your replies. Joe I will be thinking of you and hoping you can do this to. If I can I know you can if you really want to.
Patti

[OverIt2007]

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BIG HUG sent to you.....Hope you are doing well right now!

[magic]

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Good Luck Joe!

Time2...chocolate makes a great reward.

m. xx

[vino_grrl]

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one question, time2 change: my alcohol issues also started when i went on an anti depressant (zoloft). looking back, i realize that i started drinking a lot more because somehow, on zoloft, i never seemed to 'feel' the alcohol i was drinking. so i needed more. and more. then, when i quit the antidepressant, the alcohol addiction/high tolerance was still -- alas --- there. does that sound familiar to you? i'm just curious as to whether this might be a common experience for others ....

[time2change]

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Vino
I tried to post a reply, but I do not see it. I drank in my teens and twenties when I went out partying with freinds. After getting married at 26 I drank one or two occasionally. My husband drank all the time, but I was not interested. When I started the antidressant(celexa) my husband and I separated and I was having trouble sleeping. I started drinking a few light beers before going to bed in order to help me sleep. By the time I stopped the antidressants I was drinking nightly and alone. My husband was home by them so I was sneaking to drink. That was almost 7 years ago, Although my marriage is again failing I don't know if it is the alcohol that is effecting it. i guess there is only one way to find out. Unfortunately, my husband will not be stopping and that will be a real struggle. I am just so happy to have the first 7 days over with.