My drinking pattern goes something like this...I drink the wine, collapse into bed and feel hungover the next morning. I decide that I will not EVER do that again. I stay determined until about midafternoon, when I start thinking, "oh well, one more night won't hurt. Tonight I'll only have a glass or two." Then I go by the store ( I always find I need something there anyway), buy the wine and go home and drink the whole bottle again. The next day the whole thing starts all over.
I function at work but have trouble concentrating. At the moment I'm a nursing supervisor and don't need to be in a position to make a lot of mistakes.
I've just ordered the book and the vitamin supplements this morning. I can't wait to get started and have decided that tonight I will not drink anything at all. I'm going to stick to it!
I went one night last week without it and it felt good, but of course the next night I rewarded myself with more wine! How stupid! I haven't gone more than one night without wine or beer in the past two years. I hate having something control my life like this, but at the same time I love the wine. I wish I could get to the place where I could very occasionally enjoy a glass or two with a meal and let it go at that.
This has gotten long but it feels really good to be telling someone about it! Thanks for listening!
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