I started drinking 10 years ago at the age of 18 never thinking it would be this big of a problem today. Nothing I do is ever done in moderation including my drinking. If I start drinking Jack/coke I wont stop. I don't know if this is good or not but I only drink beer now. I tell myself it's safer. Beer is my alone and depressed drink (12 pack a night on a workday and way too much on weekends. The last three years have been the hardest. I realized I have a problem and need help.
The past three years have been nothing but hangovers, detox, therapy and fixing everything I fucked up in my life. Nothing is seeming to work. Out of 10 years, I have been sober maybe 9 months from multipal attemps and I don't think I fix anything.
I hope this book and forum help or I will die alone:upset: I am commited to get better but it is scary as always and seems to hurt more each time.
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