FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[SpiritGirl]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I would like to join this "challenge" (at least that's what it will be for me). I, too, am too new to offer advice, and sponging off the experience of others is what I've been trying to do. I had 2 AF days last week. Today will be Day 1 for me.

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Welcome 57Shelby and Spiritgirl, Hello all you firecrackers. Day 27 here, Definitely ODAT, weekends are still the hardest. Sitting outside waiting for the hot tub to drain so I can clean and refill it. Every six months, what a project but worth it. Anyway, I've had about 4 Odouls. My therapist says whatever works. My 30 days ends this Wed, the day after my sister goes to court for her 4th DUI. I really hope she stops this time. I called around and possibly got her in treatment income based. That is if she does'nt go to jail. Will be an interesting week. Hope all of you are well, talk to ya Monday.

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Wow Kat. Hang in there and let us know how everything works out.

1 Day AF or 100, we all have something to contribute. Just sharing your personal journey may help others. You may say something that makes another go, "Aha, I never thought of that>"

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:wave::yougo: Morning Firecrackers Hope everyone had a good weekend

Teardrop I am doing just fine at the moment moderating really well. With the sun shining I am getting into a really good spell of PMA (positive mental attitude). I am exercising well, losing a little weight - wish it was more but what the hell as long as AL has not got me in his grubby clutches :H So hopefully I can lift this cloak of depression that has had me in its grasp. Just to let you crackers know I will be AWOL from time to time over the next month so if I don't post at any time know that I am OK and will do so as soon as I can - got lots of family stuff looming so it will be difficult to get near a computer BUT I wanted you to know because I always worry when a cracker doesn't post in case they are having a bad time. Anyway for all you new crackers, if I am not around there are always plenty of other crackers on hand to help which has been continuously demonstrated since I started this thread - which is exactly how it should be - thanks everyone :l

:welcome: Shelby and Spiritgirl glad you have jumped aboard the Sweetpea express you are in a great place for loads of support

Lukalee June is going to be great for you with plenty of AF time PMA come on I know we can do it xx

KAT20 day 28 fantastic looking forward to celebrating your 30 days with plenty of AF wine sitting in that hot tub of yours - hmmm feel really envious I would love a tub but it is not very practical in a smallish garden in the UK

East how are you doing ? xx

Rustop have you got those kids of yours back to school yet? - nerve racking time when they are going through exams but a nice walk with the dogs will soon restore you

Cowgal. Wakeupmum, MadMummy and Evielou how are you all doing xx

FBY missing you

Suki, Finski and all you other crackers thinking of you all and sending strong vibes of support

Loads of love everyone Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: Dolphin glad to have you on board - very well done on your first week AF keep going with that positive attitude

Love Sweetpea :l xx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Big welcome to the newer members, Shelby, Spirit, Dolphin. There is lots of support here so check in with us every day and let us know how you are doing. Some of us have been here a while and have had good times and bad but the important thing is keep coming back. Otherwise its too easy to go back to old ways.

I'm afraid I did not get near the computer over week-end. Hogged by teenagers, hubby under feet, animals out of routine, you get the picture!! Weather was fab so got lots done in garden. Modded well over last few days of May and now want to get as much AF time as I can under my belt in June. Driving daughter to concert tonight so I know that for today I WILL BE AF and then its ODAT.

Teardrop, Lukalee, Sweetpea, East, Flutterby and everyone else big hello and have a great week.

Rustop

[Mad Mummy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HI Firecrackers

Starting to recover from half term - can now get near the PC! Had poo week last week (see my Drink Tracker - not a success) but hopeful for this week ODAT and all that!

Keep it all together you guys.

Sweetpea lovely to hear from you again - good luck with all that family stuff.

Check in later

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: Shelby spiritgirl and Dolphin, seats all reserved on Sweetpeas express.

I am sooooo happy today I heard from my son, after sending an invite to his Dads birthday party. It was an emotional weekend for me having to carefully vet my words on Texts, ( my kids preferred method of communication) and although he may still not attend (its later this month) It will be the first time I have seen him for 2 years! He is 26.
Of course there is a lot of grumbling from siblings and relatives about Prodical son etc.
I am not going to let them get to me.
I know from the texts his attitude has'nt changed much but at least its better than "he never wants to see us again" senario.

I have kept on the AF wine but quite frankly after the 69 days my routine is a lot different I do not look forward to any particular time of day for a daily routine.
Treated myself to some Dead sea skin potions, allowed myself time to use this morning as a treat and I feel great. I have to do once a week but will now look forward to it.
Som,ething in the past I would never have bothered with.

Good to see that so many want to make June AF me included so good luck everyone and take care of yourself because if you don't who will?

Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all firecrackers,
:welcome: 57shelby, spiritgirl, and doplin good to have yo part of the firecracker team.

Sweetpea..Good to read your posts im glad you getting a good spell of PMA it does help.
East...I hope when you do have this party there will be a good reunion. It good your not going to let them get to you.

went to the flower market with my brother yesterday had a good time, then we walked to bricklane had a burger ask if my brother wanted one, but he said could i buy him a can of beer do i look stupid, no way. There was a few people walking around with cans of beer in there hands but in a plastic bag drinking.Got home, and afterwards felt a bit low and tearful because i knew deep down i wanted a drink so i force myself and went out on a bike ride to clear my head.
50days AF for me.

Have a geat day To all firecrackers.x

love
Teardrop.x

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

evielou;335621 wrote: A few weeks ago I was Soooo not sure that I could make 30 days.Now I know that I not only can but I will.16 days and feeling better than i have in years.All thoughts of AL are gone,and I believe that it is for good this time.I am some how a different person and I can only say that it is a miricle.I am no longer going to try to fix the world.At this point in my life nothing is more important than that I feel GOOD!!!!Soberiety is the best feeling that I know and I intend to keep it.THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!!LOL EVIE

Evielou, Ditto

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good afternoon all, Lets get off to a strong, sober, healthy June. Sweetpea, I'm with you on the cloak of depression thing. Not sure where thats coming from. I've been on Paxil for over a year but I don't think its doing much. I see a psychiatrist Thurs and am really looking forward to some answers. My therapist made me a nice list of my symptoms including stopping AL use. This will be very helpful as I tend to forget questions when I get nervous. Teardrop, I am looking at buying a bicycle. Thought it could be a good distraction and exercise. Tough to find a simple one here. Everything had gears and speeds. I just want one speed, mine. The girls at work said I was not allowed to get one of those adult tricycles. Bummer. Eastender, I am on the AF wine as well and looking into buying by the case now. Thank you all for your support and I hope I can offer some back.

[57Shelby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello, all. No time or energy to remember all your names yet. But, thanks for all the welcoming support and nice words. I went to visit my mother over the weekend and it is very stressful situation. Remained AF, took MY bike with me and went for a ride to visit my best friend who is also working an AF program. She and her mother sat and listened to me vent about my frustrations about my Mom. That and the ride were great stress breakers! I never actually wanted a glass of wine until I was on my hour and a half drive home, I thought how nice it would be to end the crazy weekend with a nice glass. But, nope, didn't do it. I went to visit my Dad's grave while I was ther and had a chat with him (he was alcoholic, but got sober for a long, long time before he passed). I told him that I would get my act together and get better so that I could be there more for my Mom. I told him before he passed away, not to worry about her, that we would take care of her. I don't feel like I have been doing as much as I could, because I spend so much time in the bottle. She needs a lot of assistance, since her health is failing more and more. So, now I really made a promise I can't go back on.
Sorry, I didn't read all your posts and I am not commenting or offering support to you all today, but I just wanted to check in before I go to bed and say Yeah, I made it through 2 days!!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:wavin::heartsnflowers: Morning All

Another good day for me so feeling quite upbeat at the moment. Exercise regime going well but I am finding muscles I didn't know existed :scratchinhead: !!!!!!!!!!!!

East :fingers: your son will attend Mr East's Birthday party you so deserve things to get better and it is a definite step in the right direction that he is texting you - even if they are still showing no change of attitude but this could be because he doesn't know how everyone is going to react to his attendance.

Rustop hope you enjoyed the concert

Mad Mummy glad you have use of the computer again. Forget your bad week last week and concentrate on ODAT and go for it

Teardrop 51 days what an absolute star well done. Sorry you were feeling low but the constant struggle with AL does take its toll. AL has been so much a part of all our lives that when he is not there we feel as if something is missing BUT that is just his way of trying to mess with our heads SO HANG ON IN THERE YOU DID REALLY GREAT xx

Kat20 day 29 you are so close now xx Hope the visit on Thursday to the therapist gives you some of the answers you are looking for but these things take time. Being on MWO and reading and posting has given some of the answers that I have been looking for which is a blessing WHAT DID I DO BEFORE MWO.

57 Shelby you are now onto day 3 so you are doing really really well - take it an hour at a time and the days will mount up xxxxx I am so sorry about your mums failing health it is very very hard when someone you love is not well because you feel so helpless. But take strength from the visit to your Dad's grave and know he is looking down on you with tremendous love and support and an overwhelming relief that you are being there for your mum when she really needs you the most. But also remember to take time out for yourself and give yourself treats and things to look forward to xx

Dolphin how did you do yesterday?

Lukalee how are you, thinking of you xx

FBY missing your words of wisdom xx

Cowgal, Wakeupmum, Evielou, Spiritgirl and all you other crackers loads of love and support

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[patricia]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I'd love to join you

For at least 30 days . . . .

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: Patricia we would love to have you on board. The Crackers are a very supportive group so any help or advice you need just ask

:l Sweetpea xx