FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea

You are the best, my life has sucked. Since discovering MWO and especially your thread and challenge to be af for 30 days I finally have regained some self esteem. I know I've slipped often, but every experience is a learning experience. You are right, I NEED to get on this thread/site every day for the support that it offers.

As soon as my mom's estate settles, it's going to be all about me, and that's ok. My lawyer told me that if I moved to Connecticut I could divorce my family!

Sweetpea, THANK YOU!

[evergreen]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello all,

Have been away from the computer for a few days with work and mommy busyness!!! I have missed not checking in to see how everyone is doing!!

Suki - compelling entry!! Wow!! What you have been through. I firmly believe that we are right where we are supposed to be. That we are meant to learn something about ourselves and this awful habit before we kick it to the curb!! One thing that I have learned is when I am AF I feel happier, yes, but I also feel SO much more EMPOWERED. I don't know that I ever used that word before this journey (in my mind it is hugely overused) but there is no better word. When we conquer this compulsion to drink, the guilt and self doubt evaporates and we are better able to stand up for ourselves. My husband once commented, "What has gotten into you?" I was disagreeing with him about something. Not that I am a meek person, but I certainly doubt myself alot more when I drink.

Teardrop - hope you feel better!!

Rustop - your cousin is lucky to have you!!

Sweetpea - I am with you on the holiday plan. Part of what has gotten me 15 (yes, I said 15 days is the thought that I will moderate over the holidays. I want to truly moderate and NOT go back to where I was!!! I need a plan!!!!

All others, hope you are well, strong EMPOWERED!!!

Evergreen

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Evergreen I shall start work on it right away. I will get a couple of options together and see what folk think

Sweetpea

[evergreen]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Did not mean to put it all on you!!! I will also start to brainstorm on some ideas!!

Evergreen

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi suki41 - looks like you have been through a lot, you should not feel guilt. this is your time now concentrate on you alone, look after yourself which will make you a strong person. my heart goes out to you.
Sweetpea - thanks for the tip about the cranberry juice.
Evergreen - hope your plan goes well. i would like to go moderate, but need to do the 30days first.
I know i feel really safe on this thread makes me feel happy being with such caring and wonderful people.
All the best.xxxx
Teardrop.x

[wonderworld]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Suki -
Just had to reply to your post! I have the sibling from hell problem too. The selfishness is just so unbelievable. And I have always been the one to turn to in rough times too....why? Because I'm the one who shows up! Caring for my Dad, then my Step Dad and now my Mom. My sister doesn't seem to know or care that anyone might need her help. yuk.
I agree - it's OUR TIME!!! You deserve all the joy and happiness this life has to offer - go for it!!! That's my plan too. Thanks for the reminder....
wonder xx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Just a quick post to say have a great weekend and stay strong

Evergreen I Know you were not trying to put it all on me I just get carried away when I get ideas in my head

Suki how are you :h been thinking about you have heart and stay strong the good times are just around the corner

Teardrop hope you are feeling better today

Wonderworld - Hi sorry you have had to go through such a bad time as well. It is your time now so go for it and find that joy and happiness

:wavin: :l sweetpea

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[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone,
Hope you are all doing well,
Yes i do agree with sweet pea - its your time as well go forit wonderworld, all the best.
Sweetpea feeling a lot better thankyou.x
15 Day AF( and that does feel great)
Have a good staurday AF
Love Teardrop.x

[Victory]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Toxic Families

Hi Suki411, thank you for sharing and Yay?.. I thought I was the only one who had toxic family from ?Hell? until I read your posting. Thank God. No point in posting my details from Hell. But can say, these bastards could only feel good if they knew I felt bad. My mum died 2 years ago from Alzheimer?s and I found that my alcoholic/ gambling sister had already [due to power of attorney] stolen all her money and half her property. Am the youngest of 5 and have half a law degree, inheritance would have seen me through my course. Have bank receipts to prove the above statement. Can press charges but won?t because, but for the grace of God it could have been me.!!! Although I have not stolen and like to claim that I am an honest woman!!!! Must face the fact that alcoholics lie. So what is the difference between me and my sister who is also and alcoholic? How can I judge her when I am also a serial liar? Can say at least I didn?t steal, but reality says lucky me that I am not a gambler just a drunk instead. Is that really lucky??? That is why I have nothing, twisted family took all
We can do it and I plan success by being sober I cannot challenge my sister in Court. Academically I have worked so hard?. all for nothing. We can do this and get sober, when we do we will see and know.
Kind regards
Victory
:blah:

[wakupmom]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi teardrop!
Thought i would catch you here on this thread as i don't always post much,but read with great interest whenever i can.Just wanted to congratulate you on your achievments-Fantastic Girl.Sorry to hear you have been at a low ebb.The same thing happended to me last month and i can so sympathise with the coldsores(yuk)I however was so peed off with feeling so low when i had been so healthy i gave in for a while.Now work that one out.
Anyway keep up the good work,sending love and hugs xx
A big Hello to everyone else,A great thread with lots of support,so nice that you are all looking out for eachother.xx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi wokupmom and everyone,
Thank you for poping in and for your kind words.. I can understand i flet like throwing in the towel but someone up there telling me not to.
Y'day went to tesco to get advent calendars for the kids, i know it early days, but if i leave it to late dont want to be seaching high and low. Anyway treated myself to one this year(way not) 7.99 not cheap, But only the best for mum belgrian chocolates cant wait to the
1st dec.
I hope everyone is doing well!!!
As the saying goes you can choose your friends but you cant choose your family.

Have a good sunday everyone with love.xxxx
Teardrop.

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi there fireworkers,
I'm back... did you miss me? Please say yes because I have (this should not come as a surprise to anyone) self esteem issues :-) . I have to admit I did miss my MWO friends and the associated daily fix I get from checking in with you all. All things considered, I had a great few days out in the boonies doing something I enjoy (research). This took my mind off "things" for a while which was good in some ways but had some drawbacks.
The good news was that I had renewed energy for my work which has been suffering from my "functioning" dysfunctional state for the last year. Sometimes I wonder if it is better to hit bottom quickly with a wake up thud than prolong the agony for so long?? This is really a rhetorical question because hitting bottom is so relative.
The bad news is that the old me kicked in, and before I could say HELP FIREWORKERS, I was feeding the beast (whine, whine, wine). The take home message from this trip was not to beat up on myself but to keep working a program that will give me the tools to override the denial routine. I will get out of this do loop .... I will get out of this do loop.... I will reformat myself with a do-it right loop.
So.. I'm still grateful for 7 days AF this month and will be stringing some more together as we get into the holidays. Luckily, I have vacation plans that will keep me in a positive environment.
My heart goes out to all who have family issues. Family stuff is BIG. I would humbly submit that forgiveness is the key to letting go of family inflicted pain. There are volumes written about this so no need to go on. I can only say from experience that it lightens your load and gives you more energy to work on yourself.
And one more thing... I like to down my supplements with Red Bull (sugar free). It works for me! I will eventually switch to something healthier but don't see the harm in it right now.
Sending you all positive vibes....
xox
Fby

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone hope you are all having a good weekend.

My progress so far is steady. I still miss the golden nectar very much but am not thinking about it all the time. MWO is helping to keep me focused and I wouldn't be at day 14 without your help thanks everyone

Teardrop why not treat yourself you deserve it. Hope you are on the mend. By the way I have just thought about your cold sores. Have you tried Zorivax cream. I always keep some in my handbag and at the first sign of the tingling sensation I apply it every 3 to 4 hours. It certainly keeps them from getting too bad or big.

Victory sorry you also have the family from hell, but you know that whatever else, you have integrity. Your sister is damn lucky you do not challenege her in court. We are all striving to remain sober and beat the :alf: on our backs. Just a thought though and I may be well out of line here as I don't know your full story, if you have evidence to support any claim againt your sister I would keep it until you are feeling really well and strong as you may have a change of heart. I am not sure why you call yourself a serial liar but I know what you mean when you say that we all lie. But avoidance, white lies etc to cover up your drinking problems is soooooooooooo different to lying with the purpose to steal money, especially from family which I think is the lowest. You have worked really hard in life and you will reap the benefits even if it is just peace of mind to know you have always done your best. Be strong and be kind to yourself you deserve it.

Wakupmum nice to have your support for the thread :thanks:

Everyone else keep strong, keep posting especially if you have had any slips ODAT we all there for you

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Flutterby

We must have both been posting at the same time. So glad you are back and that you had a good time away and have come back with renewed energy. I am also very pleased that you are feeling strong even after your slip. Positive attitude is a fantastic tool to beating the beast and getting out of the loop. Well done

Take care, stay strong

:h sweetpea xx

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks Sweetpea,
You take care too & have a wonderful Sunday.
Off to church,
Fby