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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning All

:upset::upset: Feeling very low - family stuff. What is it when you are on such a high that you can be knocked down so low in one foul swoop. Life in general I suppose. When I think of my life and then think about what other people have to put up with makes me ashamed of myself sometimes. But everything is relative and everybody feels the same way when changes take place in their world. Where ever you are devastating changes to your personal situation has the same impact. Sorry to be so profound but I am sitting here wondering WHAT IS IT ALL ABOUT:confusedmonkey: Thank you crackers for being there for me I couldn't do it on my own. Just to say my sadness is not AL related but I must not let the :alf: get under my skin - I MUST BE STRONG AND WITH YOUR HELP I WILL BE :h

Teardrop I sooooooooooo hope you are feeling better today. You know how much you mean to us all so sending loads of cyber hugs YOU KNOW IT WAS ONLY A LITTLE SLIP so back onto the sweetpea express - I so need you there sitting by me WE CAN DO THIS xxxx

East 14 July but that is sooooo close BUT now you know you have got to have the operation the sooner the better is what I say:l

Kat 51 days keep going you star

Shelby thank you so much for being there for me xx

Mad Mummy keep going because as you said those headaches are so not worth it xx

Rustop I am so with you on this weather lark - WHAT IS IT ALL ABOUT!!!!! My washing has gone in and out of this house like a yo yo.

To all the other crackers hope you have a brilliant day

Loads of love

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

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Hi all firecrackers,

Thank you everyone i do see you as my big family all have been a get support.x.

Sweetpea.. sorry about the family stuff i know sometimes it can be hard but i will always be here even if i got to crawl out of my little hole! sending you strenght. today.:l
East... i be thinking of you on the 14july. like i said in a way im glad i had the slip because it makes me remember what AL really makes me feel, i know i cannot mod my eyes are twice as big as my belly.
Rustop... thank you just could not stop myself on the first day had to carry on till 4 days drinking.. i can learn from this which is a good think... Enjoy your trip.
Kat0... just got to bouncing back and think positive now! Tahnks.
Mad mummy ... sorry your snow under please put your feet up over the week end and have a nice cp of tea..

Everyone please have a good weekend, not mention im going to see bon jovi in concert 2morrow. looking forward to it.

Take Care

Love
Teardrop.x
2days af

[57Shelby]

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Good Morning All Crackers!!! TGIF!!!!!!! Man, that used to mean so much more!!! It used to mean, I am gonna get loaded tonight!

Now, I am just glad that I don't have to work tomorrow! I actually took the day off today as well. I have the luxury of doing that now and again. The dental office I work in doesn't have patient hours on Friday. I am going to do some work at home today, but I don't have to go to the office. YEAH!!!!!

Teardrop-Sounds like you are doin ok after your slip. You are strong and will be ok. The experience dampens the romantic memories of AL that creep back into our brains. He is a wily one. Hang in there. Sounds like you are already moving on. What a WAY to move on, BON JOVI!!!!!!!! I AM SO ENVIOUS!!!!! THAT IS SO COOL!!!!!!! Good for you.

East, I agree on the Surgery, the sooner the better, get it over with and then you can start healing and start planning that Christmas Holiday. Easy for me to say, I am not the one facing the surgery. I do have two friends who have gone through it for the same reason and they are glad they had it done. Life is better for them after it. How is your husband?

Mad-Hope you have time to really relax this weekend. Find some young person to wait on you hand and foot. LOL

Kat- Hi there! Have a great weekend

Sweetpea, sorry to hear of your family trouble. Hang in there. The Sweetpea Express will keep us all rolling down the road.

Have a great day everyone. Hello to all, that follow.

Shelby

[Eastender]

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Hi Firecrackers,
I am so goner miss you guys when in hospital! Even if I don't post I always try to read up when I can, Have to try internet via mobile will have plenty of time to work it out!

Sweetpea So sad that you feel low,coming on here somehow helps to gives me a boost and I do get a laugh most days, just reading posts of the many characters here! Will be thinking of you hon:l

Teardrop, You made me smile I feel sure that you were a eastender too,
My nans favorite saying "Eyes bigger than your belly" Always said it to me when I was young ,now my belly is bigger than my eyes by a long shot! Bless her she is still around, visited her son (one of 10 children)in Australia for three weeks last month, fitter than me at 90!. Enjoy your Bon Jovi concert u lucky girl!

Shelby,Enjoy your day off,I will hang on to those words from your freinds, the thought of surgery scares the daylight out of me! Thank you for asking about my other half, he is still in a lot of pain, eating tablets like sweets, and unhappy that my letter for hospital came first! What a pair we make! not one good body between us at the moment!

Have a great day everyone

Eastx

[happydog]

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HI FIRECRACKERS

SHELBY..Thank you...must be good to work at home in your own time and not travel...MY sisterinlaw had three tickets lift. she was going to sell them on e-bay but i stop her and i want those. My son and daughter are coming with me, hubby didn't want to go, but who care im going to enjoy myself.
EAST... your right! i was born in the eastend, and moved out to Essex but not the posh part. So im not a Essex girl. lol.

Sweetpea hope your feeling better today try and keep strong.

It was my birthday yesterday and felt really proud that i didn't drink AL. Thats the first since going back when i was 18years old. WOW cant believe it! got me thinking thought you would of though i would of had my slip yesterday and not last friday which lead to 4days drinking. i said in another thread I alway thought in my mind that i will plan my next drink, but it not the cases. Knowing that i have fight of my urge many times and some are stringer then other days. I realize that it is the thinking i have to control. Well i think hope im not you all. Anyway its not God that works in mystery ways it the AL THAT WORKS IN MYSTERY WAY.lol

Have a good weekend everyone.

love
Teardrop.x

[jessie]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Teardrop, I'm in. This last binge was much to bad

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

:welcome: Jessie good to have you on board. East, will be thinking of you on the 14th, thats the day we are due back from holidays. Sweetpea, sending you lots of cyber hugs and support to get you through the trying family stuff. Stepping back from it really helps, I always got sucked in because I felt guilty if I did not try to help. All sorts happening with the outlaws but after the way they treated me when my cousin died, I have completely switched off. My daughter even got a bday present 5 weeks late from an aunt who was trying to get me back onside!! All to no avail and you know it feels good, not selfish, just plain good.

Teardrop, happy birthday and good to see you back on board. Will be joining you on a long AF stint when I get back. East, you will have to join us too, all those drugs. Something good to come out of it.

Mad Mummy, Shelby, Lukalee and everyone else big hello.

Rustop

[Eastender]

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Hi everyone,

What is it when you reach 50? Does everything fall apart? I now have a mammogram booked for this Monday, it was arranged for the 14th , but I can only have one end looked at at a time!!!!

Teardrop I knew it!!! a fellow eastendian, dying breed these days, don't recognise it now especially with all the olympic stadium works.
Belated birthday wishes for yesterday. You are right there is no planning like we think, Al just creeps up on us. I had a bottle of wine last night wanted more but stopped myself. I feel so disorientated and had a big argument with daughter. She hardly comes home now and when she does, any problems she has are always down to me!

Rustop You have a lovely time and yes I will be on the train with you all,no choice on that methinks!

:welcome: Jessie lovely group of people here, helped me no end. Good luck!

Sweetpea, Hope you are feeling brighter today,weather somewhat improved here.

Eastx

[sweetpea]

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Hi Everyone

Just popping in to say I am fine but having a very hectic weekend

Belated happy birthday Teardrop :l:h xx

:welcome: Jessie

East, Rustop, Shelby, Lukalee, Mad Mummy and all the other Crackers love you loads

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[KAT20]

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Happy Sunday everyone, East, you crack me up, "only one end looked at at a time." Had my first mamogram a year ago, not looking forward to the colonoscopy when it comes time. Sweetpea, I'm alittle behind in reading and posting here. I hope your blues have passed. Family is one of my biggest triggers. My therapist has me reading a book called "Codependent no more." It starts written towards the perspective of a partner dealing with an alcoholic spouse. But what it comes down to is me taking on and feeling responsible for everyone elses emotions and solutions. I just started so I can't coment more one it. The characteristics they describe I thought all women felt. I've noticed on this site we are mostly women age 35 and up. Thats because I believe we are all codenpendent to a point, we feel responsible for everyone. Home, work, friends. Just a thought and something I'm working one which definetly is a trigger. I had mentioned awhile back my sister who is going on her 4th DUI and took out a telephone pole and firehydrate Easter Sunday. Her court date is Tues and she might go to jail. I did get her to see my therapist so hopefully she has some strenght and perspective on her side. She said she is ready for what ever happens. I would much prefer she goes to a rehab facilty but we don't know if the judge will decide that. A healthy fear for all of us as my therapist said. As we know alcoholism does'nt get better but progressively gets worse. I am in the medical/dental field and would have so much to lose, besides my personal life. One a lighter note, happy Sunday again and hello to all you firecrackers be strong and healthy.

[57Shelby]

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Happy Sunday all!!!!

Busy weekend here!
Kat-I have read many of Melody Beattie's books and I have learned a lot of valuable lessons. It truly does shine a new light on those issues of feeling responsible for others. I think you will enjoy the book. It was my favorite. Please share with us as you read. It will be interesting.

Things are still going well, here. Hoping everyone has a great day and wonderful week.!!!!

Shelby

[sweetpea]

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:wavin: Morning Crackers

Wow had a really busy weekend but it kept my mind off :alf:. Feeling a little more upbeat thanks for all your good wishes:l

Rustop have a really lovely holiday - hope you have really great weather - The train will be waiting for your return - Thank you so much for my cyber hug xx

East I have only just learned how to use my mobile :H:H let alone how to access the INTERNET. My kids think I am getting really good if i manage to send them a text!!!! How come they can write so quickly - it takes me ages and if I do the predicted stuff I get into all sorts of mess. So if you manage to do it give us some lessons then when I am away from a computer I can always at least put a one word post on the thread - unheard of I know HA HA. Hope the mammogram goes well ( I do hate that squashed feeling when they do it). Well done on stopping at the one bottle when you were feeling like more:l BUT you have got so much going on at the moment xx

Teardrop how are you?Hope your weekend went well and that AL didn't get his grip into you

Shelby great to hear that the weekend went well - an extra day off always sets you up for a better weekend. Dentists are one of my biggest fears - it is the sound of the drill that does it Hmmmmmmmmm OK I will fess up - What I am really trying to say is I think I am a big baby when it comes to sitting in that chair!!!!!!! Are you a dentist or receptionist - Bet you have some well funny/interesting stories to tell. The problem is I think has to do with my age - not saying I am ancient or anything HA HA. Things as so much more refined
and the equipment so much better than when I first started visiting a dentist all those years ago!!!

Jessie how are you doing?

Kat thank you so much my blues have improved over the weekend and I am feeling more positive today. The book "Codependent no more." sounds really interesting - keep us posted on how it is going

Lukalee, Mad Mummy, FBY and all you other crackers have a great day

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[jessie]

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Thanks to all who asked how I was doing...day 3 AF, head feeling fuzzy, distict feeling of thirst and keeping water with lemon close to me - but still very motivated!
Love to all you great people.
Jessie

[happydog]

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Hi all firecrackers

Sweetpea...glad your feeling more up beat. no AL for me over the weekend, been a girl i have.
Kat... my therapist talk a lot about thoughts feeling emotion and The thinking side. sound like a good book.
East.... you did really well stopping at one bottle. well done!
Shelby... sound like your really ding well keep the good work up.
Jessie...glad your in, we can only learn from our binge how bad we feel and for me how AL just makes me feel so low it seems to take a while to get back up feeling good again inside.

Enjoy seeing Bon Jovi in concert on saturday my daughter really got into it as well but son not so much. the atmosphere was amazing was on a high. Feel like im getting back on track again. starting taking st john warts.

Take Care ALL

Love
Teardrop.x
5days af

[57Shelby]

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Good Morning!
It is hard to believe it is the last day of the month already!

Teardrop***So glad you enjoyed the concert!! Talk about agine well!!!!! He is one great specimen. Glad you are doing well!

East***Great job stopping at one bottle! Wonder if Bon Jovi has any age related problems?? Why do our bodies start revolting? Once you get your parts fixed, things will be better. You'll see.

Kat-How are you doing? Hope the book is giving you comfort. I hope things go well for your sister, and the book can help you get through it.

Jessie-Welcome!!!! I didn't mean to ignore you! I popped in and out so fast I didn't give you a proper welcome. I have seen you on other threads. You will find this to be a great group of ladies. They have welcomed me with open arms and helped me a tremendous amount in the last month. Keep coming back. I'm glad you're here. I am looking forward to getting to know you better.

Sweetpea***I am the practice Mgr. You would get over all of your dental anxieties if you came to my office. We would pamper you. You would not hear the drill, you would not feel the injection, and you would leave with a smile on your face saying that was the best dental experience I ever had! It just might be the most expensive after you pay for airfare and a hotel!!! LOL No, wait, you could stay with me!!!! LOL
Sweetpea, I, too am texting challenged. While visiting my daughter in CA last year we had a tiff while riding in the car. She texted me from the back end of the Durango we were riding in. By the time I tried to answer her, we were at her apartment to drop her off. I just looked at my husband and said. "Wait here a minute, I have to tell her what I was just trying to text to her." LOL All I was trying to say was "you changed the plans and didn't tell me" My 50 year old fingers aren't made for those tiny keypads.

On that note, have a wonderful Monday everyone! Hello to any I missed & all who come after me!!!

If I make it through today, it will be 30 AF!!!!!!!!!!! Yee Haw!!!

Shelby