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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning All

Hope everyone had a good weekend

Shelby hope you had a really good day at the races - sounds a really fun time. Hope there is an improvement this week on the work front - I am pleased that your coworker has called her a loose cannon because you now know it is NOT YOU that is the problem:l

Rustop soon going to be the end of the school holidays and back to your daily walk with your friend and the dogs xx Have you managed to get as many AF days in as you wanted?

o2m you star not touching the vodka xx

Erin great that you will be seeing your daughter you will have to arrange a lovely mum daughter thing that will surprise her xx

Teardrop sorry I didn't think of the money aspect regarding the gym but you could encourage him to go walking or lend him your bike ( Mind you that may not be practical as I don't know how much taller he is than you) but it is a thought:l You are right you must start thinking about yourself in all of this because you are worth it xx

East you will have to crack the whip and get your son to finish his room quickly so you don't have to cope with the mess while you are recouping. With the stress you are under it is ever likely you are not completely AF BUT you are not going overboard so don't worry too much. The spell in hospital will set you on the right track again and get you over the first difficult days:l

kriger hope your AF days are going well

To all the other crackers have a great day

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxx

[greeneyes]

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8 weeks today! Yea!

I hope everyone is doing well. I am finding myself terribly busy lately with all the stuff going on hubby-wise. I'm sure that's a good thing - keeps me out of trouble. Just enough time to pop in and say hi and cheer everyone on in reaching their goals. Sorry I can't catch up on everyone individually right now. Got to hop in the shower before the repairman comes then off to the hole.

[Carmac]

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G'Mornin' all -

Seems Sweetpea did a lovely job of catching up for us all so will make this short. Now that we didn't get the contract we had hoped, I'll be starting the earnest look for my next assignment. Ugh! Aways a pain but one always seems to come in to pay the bills.

Had a great motorcucle ride this weekend into Maryland and W. Virginia. The weather couldn't have been nicer. We are usually stuck with unbelievable humdity and high, high temps in August so a great relief and so unexpected. Hence, we take full advantage and leave our duties at home for lovely Monday!

I'm 11 days AF and moving right along, feeling well and continuing with my counselor which has helped immensely. She is most insightful and helps me to be.

So, happy Monday to all and I'll be getting off next stop to pop into "normal" land!

Cheers,
Erin

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

Just wanted to say a quick hello and let you all know I'm thinking of you. Not getting to post or read much lately as things are hectic. MIL is in hospital, went in for a hernia op, caught an infection and it does not look as if she will make it. She's 79 and it was the first time in hospital in 43 years since she had her last baby!! Feel very detached from it all, visiting and supporting my hubby but generally letting them get on with it. Lots of flapping about. I'm so glad I'm the other side of the country and dont have to get involved.

Take care everyone and will post again when I get a chance.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

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Morning Firecrackers

Got a very busy week ahead but hope to pop in most days. I am doing really well at the moment - long may it continue

Erin 11 days AF you superstar

Rustop so sorry about MIL but I think you are doing the right thing by not getting too involved

Greeneyes really great to hear from you

Loads of love to all the crackers. Sending loads of strong vibes of support and love

Sweetpea :l:l:h:h xxxxxxxxxxxx

[Eastender]

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Hi Everyone and :welcome: to the new faces,
Tried to get move on with sons room,have taken out old fireplace and damaged old victorian ceiling beneath!!! I also not only managed to step into a 5 litre can of white paint but spill the lot on floor!!!! Large Skip of rubble and rubbish has been taken today looks a lot tidier but hard work.
Good to have son back he has changed so much, for the good,has learn't about life the hard way as all three of them seem to have to do, GF still being very hurtful by email to him. Elder Daughter back from holiday so glad! where she was staying there were fires raging, I was very worried.
Had a bad day drinkwise on sunday when sister visited,she was much worse than me!
She had her only daughter split from partner of 5 years and was very emotional, Just when you think that nothing else can happen IT DOES!
Sorry to hear about your MIL Rustop,but I think you are right to remain distant,after all that has happened in the past.

Take care Eastx

[Carmac]

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Eastender -

Goodness! So glad you will remain a continent away when I consider my next household improvements!


Just a quick pop in hello...and wish all well. Very busy day here

Cheers, to all....Erin

[happydog]

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hi all firecrackers

wow Erin well done on 12day af. sound like your motorbike ride was good. how many mile is it?
Rustop....sorry to hear baout Mil in hosptal like you said it good that your on the other side.
Hi Greenie...good to see you and doing so well.
Sweetpea ....im so glad your doing well keep it up.
East...I do really feel for you right now...omg damage the victorian ceiling and paint every where. i hope things start to look better it seem like it been going on for a long time now.

You know i did drink yesterday wish i had a excuse but there is no excuse and the think is when i buy AL now i feel so guilty and very emotional does anyone else feels like this. never felt like this when i first started here. maybe i am changing and leaning about myself in the way i feel before i want that first drink...its just i can remember bringing this up a long time ago, and when i did want that first drink never seem to felt anything at all. (feeling thinikng nothing.) maybe i dont even realize it things for me, are coming to the surfaces. it funny its quite a scary feeling. sometimes i feel like im starting at the beginning again except this time i have more knowledge because coming here to mwo has help me more ways then one. thanks everyone for your support.

Take care ALL:l

Love
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

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Morning all

Just popping in to say hi and hope everyone is doing well

East you could start a trend of new designs in white footprint paper and flooring:H Glad your daughter is back safe:l xx

Erin don't work too hard:l Well done on your AF days xx

Teardrop your right as more time passes you become more aware of your actions - BUT the more aware you become of your actions the more control you have over them - So ODAT you want to stop drinking or moderate and there is no quick fix. You feel emotional because you are having that drink BUT remember the post you copied over about being in the right mind set - You need to get back into it - You have so much other stuff going on but you will get there :l xxxxxxxx

To all the other crackers have a brilliant day

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Carmac]

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Teardrop -

Thanka for the Kudos and I am happy to be working through Day 13 AF just fine, planning for many more but ODAT. As for your guilty feelings, indeed, I have felt that way for sometime and really would think about did I really want to or not when buying that bottle (or two) of wine. I didn't used to but I sure would now. I think it is indeed, becoming more aware we DON't want to let in to the temptation and want more control and feel guilty when we don't follow that instinct of doing what is better for us. We know too much AL is NOT good for us and having negative effects in our lives yet, many of us do it anyway.

Those feelings and my own self talk is now what is helping me alot because I am listening, at keast most of the time. It's not easy and I don't always win but right now I am listening and it is working for me. The help of those around me and my visits to AA have also been very useful. I am listening.

So, yes, we've also heard them and yes, perhaps it is helping you feel more of where you want to be.

Sorry for the rambling...thought this might help.

To all - have a great AF day. I am waiting for the painter's to arrive to get an idea of how much it might be to get my entire interior painted. (Argh) I have much to do here and hope to get it all accomplished this winter. First things first though....gotta get that new assignment so working on my CV updated and focus on that.

Will check in soon! Erin

[sweetpea]

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Morning All

Another busy day but not complete without popping in to say hi

o2m they will soon be back at school and maybe then you will have some you time - YOU DESERVE IT xx Well done on day 3 AF and smoke free - very difficult to do it both together so give yourself a huge pat on the back

Erin day 13 AF fantastic keep at it - no need to apologies for all your thoughts it is so helpful to everyone to have better understanding of this process we are going through:l Good luck with with updating the CV and getting another assignment

To all the crackers have a brilliant day - loads of good vibes and support to you all

Much love Sweetpea :l:h xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

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TODAY I WILL NOT DRINK!

Hi all firecrackers,

Erin dont be sorry there is good advice there. its funny i did not go to my group session yesterday but i should of because your right listening to others and myself speaking out does really help also i think because when i feel im not doing to well i seem to back off a bit and hide....thank you

1- 2many. thank you...you do sound very busy with your little ones. well done on 3day af and smoking as well i think your doing the right thing by giving up both it might seem hard now but when you look back you think sh*t i did it. I know there are others that have given up both well done to you.

Sweetpea...im going to get on that express train tonight even if it kills me, getting on my bike will help me clear my head plus the weather is looking good. my son wants me to take him at the weekend on a mini sakateboard tour (for his birthday) with friends up north somewhere i think leeds and other places so i will do this for him and not drink dont like driving with a hangover.

Have a great day everyone love to you ALL

Love
Teardrop.x

[57Shelby]

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Good Morning! Sorry I have been absent. I am feeling very down and weepy. Still a lot going on with work, family and life in general. Sad that I have been drinking, too. I think I need to haul out RJ's book and read it again. I just don't feel that determination to make the change like I did. My head is playing games with me and making me have an "I don't care" attitude.
I keep coming here and reading, I am just in a funk and stuck in a rut, not doing anything I am supposed to be doing. Not exercising, not eating right, not staying AF, not keeping in touch with my family. I am hiding and brooding and can't seem to shake it. I cry at the drop of a hat.
The good news is that my daughter in California is experiencing some problems in her relationship. (that isn't the good news, LOL) She called the other day and asked if she could come home. I told her absolutely YES!!!!! She is still trying to decide what to do. She needs to arrange for a transfer with her work (Starbucks) and make sure this is really what she wants to do. I think that is affecting me too. Knowing she is in hurting. Hoping that she will come here, and trying not to get my hopes up too high. She is planning on going to the UK for school next year and I would love nothing better than for her to be here with us before she goes. I miss her so much!
Boy, a big ole lightbulb just went over my head. I was going to say, I need someone to take care of. I want her to come home, so that I can baby her and help her in her time of need. There is someone right here, right now that I could take care of, baby and help in their time of need and I am not doing it!!! ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is it that we don't take care of ourselves as well as we do others?
Sorry I am not taking the time to acknowledge you all individually. You are all awesome and doing so well with your personal struggles. You inspire me all and I don't have anything to give back right now.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Shelby

[happydog]

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1 dayaf so far!

Hi all firecrackers,

Shelby sorrry your going through a bad time looks like things have build up for you going througha bad time with boss at work ect... that feeling dont care attitude ( in my books we call it the fu*k it attitude) it sounds like yo need your daughters company right now. i hope she does come home soon. you know it amazing what exercise can do to the brain how it makes us feel good and strong inside, maybe just try and do a little bit i know it hard because when i start drinking everything goes out the window all the good things. I know we go through a stage of drinking and it hard to get back on track it like training how way of thinking again shelby you can do this again i have faith in you.:l

Well got past my 1st day af not a good night my body was feeling really tired but my brain just would not let me go to sleep and when i did they were very short naps with wired dreams in between. feeling weak today but no hangover. could not go on my bike ride yesterday just felt to tired plus i had my pj's on before 6pm so i will have no temptations of going ot the front door (just know how my brain works.) mini tour been call of with my son but will be still af i think his thinking of next weekend. he may have someone else driving.

Hope all firecrackers are ok and well have a good friday everyone.

Take care all:l

Love
Teardrop.x

[happy2be]

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Reading all these posts is giving me strength to try AF today. I have been trying and cant seem to get past day 4 of AF. My brain keeps telling me I can have one glass of wine, but as soon as I have one I end up "guzzling" the bottle. I used to prefer red wine but now I am buying white because its easier to drink.

Today I am going for AF, I want to be free of this, will take all your help and strength to get there. I have no reasons to be doing this to myself or my family. I wish I could stop but wishing is not enough I need to do, so I will do ODAT and hopefully that will continue and add up to many.
I am going for a run now and will try to get whatever brain chemicals kick in to make me feel less bad.
Take care all and thanks for your inspiration!!