FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Feeling a bit down today, Sons GF has managed to get to meet son after work agreed to change and wants to try again! For the ????? time. I cannot believe that he met her and agreed to consider after all the hurtful things she said by email and text last week!
Had Electrician rewiring sons room for all the extra gadgets he has brought home, so not had much chance with electric off to get online. Plus all the mess to clear up, extra washing cooking etc.
Had physio yesterday at hospital and was told not to "do too much" so to avoid being totally exhausted for op next friday. If only the therpist could see the state of the house just now:upset:. Thinking about asking for an extra week in hospital!!!!!
happy to be I can totally understand the 4 day thing, always has been my barrier, just keep going one day at time and try not to focus on which day it is, its just another day after all, I got through that way on previous attempts.
Well done to all of you for keeping AF, particularly with all the stresses that many of us have been faced with recently. You all bring me strength and somewhere to hide other than inside a bottle, even writng to you just now has altered my mood. So proud of you all.:h:h



Eastxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

sorry one too many,thanks for asking after son,:lbut as in my previous post, things not so good. 26 years old 6 ft 5, but still in my heart he is my baby. His pain, like his two sisters is MY PAIN TOO! It breaks my heart to see any of them unhappy. Enjoy being up to your "titties" in kids, one day you will look back on these years with fondness, as their problems get bigger as they do!

Shelby Have been thinking on your question about why do we take care of others, not ourselves. Will need some more time to come up with an answer. I do know that a lot of people here,including me, are of that personality. Will come back on that one I think........

Teardrop, Sweetpea, Erin, Lukalee, Flutterby :l and anyone that I have missed have a great weekend.

Take care
Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi ya all firecrackers

Happy2be..:welcome: aboard.
Know what you mean have one glass once that bottle is open it has to be finish. in my house we can never have any bottles of drink they just seem to go. You can do this, I do running or cycling when im AF. when you get to that 4th day keep busy with lots if running......Let us know how you doing.
East....sorry your feeling down omg you are going through it. dont blame you if you did ask for that extra week....i will be thinking of you on the 20th :l (that day is my son b'day) try and find sometime out for yourself before going into hospital.
Rusty.... hope thinks are ok thinking of you to.:l

Today im 2days af but going into 3rd today last night dont laff but bought a measuring jug of water to bed with me fill it up twice must of needed it but everytime i wake up i wanted to go to the toilet

sweetpea Erin flutterby lukalee shelby 1-2many, Have a gr8 weekend everyone.

Love:h

Teardrop.x

[AMELIA]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello to all Firecrackers!!
Just popping in to see how you are all doing.
Teardrop, great to see you are having some AF days again...I am with you on that one.
To everyone else....sending you strength to meet your goals be them AF or mods.
Lots of love
xx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Having a manic weekend - not had time to read posts or to post

Sending loads of strong vibes of support to everyone

Will post on Monday

Loads of love sweetpea :l:h xxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks Amelia, it great to see you have af days as well under your belt.

Love
Teardrop.x

[57Shelby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi to all!!! It is good to see all of you doing fairly well with your goals. I hit a brick wall on Friday. I stayed home from work and did a lot of soul searching. Trying to figure out what it is that I need in my life to make the positive changes that I need and want to make. I decided the best place to start is with an exercise program. A formal one! I just came back from joining a gym and going through my initial assessment with a personal trainer. I bought 4 sessions with her and may end up buying more if my budget will allow it. I have a strong history in working out and may only need the four sessions to jumpstart my motivation and get it seated deep in my soul. I plan to stop at the gym on my way home from work to help fill that witching hour. I joined a gym with many locations that I can use, one near my work and one closer to my home. My husband joined too, and there is another one close to his work that he can stop at on his way home. It felt good to meet the trainer and have my assessment. I am out of shape, but not as bad as I thought, although I may not be able to walk tomorrow!!!. It will help to have someone help me set realistic goals and help me stay focused.
I thought long and hard about the troubles I have been having at work and I AM responsible for a lot of it, because I have been so unhappy with myself and it comes out in my personality at work without even realizing it. My goal right now is to work on myself while at the same job (it is safe there and no big change to deal with on top of all the other things I am trying to accomplish) I also have this deep seated need to prove to my employer that I am not the ogre that he thinks I am. I can't really afford to take a cut in pay right now, which would surely be the case if I changed jobs.

Anyway..... Enough about me. I just wanted to give a positive report on myself for a change instead of one full of anger, resentment and depression, and frustration.

Thank you all for sticking by me during this funk. I am heading out for a nice bike ride for some cardio, then off to the grocery store to stock up on healthy food.

You all have a great Sunday!
Shelby

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just a quick check in. Things have been hectic here, MIL is dying so a lot going on. Trying to get in as many AF days as I can but its hit and miss. However, am not going to worry about it as I plan to really get into the programme come September. Like you Shelby have been doing a lot of soul searching. Am planning to do a course in September on the psychology of happiness. It's an interest course for 7 weeks with a local university. Not getting too many long walks but will get back to that when the girls are back in school.

Hope everyone is doing ok, will log on when I get a chance. Take care.

Rustop

[Carmac]

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Shelby, Rustop -

Both your posts are so uplifting...seeing you take positive steps and "control" for yourselves. Thanks for sharing that! So sorry to hear about MIL though.

I chilled over the weekend. Went on the bike for a very long ride with friends, had an informal barbecue and geared up for the bike job hunt which began in earnest today! Once I start it's all encompassing. Best news though, all AF so today is Day 18 for me. Yeah, me!

Enjoy your week!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers

So sorry I have not been around much this last couple of days but I have had a houseful of people and have not been able to get to the computer for more than a couple of seconds without someone wondering into the room to see where i am or what i am doing - lovely caring lot but not conducive to trying to post in private :H

WOW A lot seems to have been going on

:welcome: Happy2be - you are so right once a bottle is open in this house it just vanishes - So well done on taking the first step and hope your AF time is going well

East I am so sorry that son seems to be being tempted back into a relationship with GF - I think old habits die hard. I don't think you can do much about it without alienating yourself from him again. At the moment though you have GOT TO THINK ABOUT YOURSELF - remember you are going into hospital on Friday (as if you could forget but you know what I mean) - You need to keep your strength up and that includes not becoming too stressed:l I presume he cannot afford to do much about getting back together at the moment because of the financial aspect - maybe one thing you could put into his brain without making it too obvious is that if GF is really serious about loving him etc etc that SHE GETS A JOB to prove how much she cares and help him improve their finances Hmmmm

Teardrop well done on day 2 AF - get that cycle out and bring it on the express - you can have a good ride when we stop for more fuel - or try and race the express from time to time:H

Amelia great to hear from you - hope everything is going well for you. How is the painting going xx

Shelby so sorry you have been going through a bad time - Why don't you make your daughter coming home an incentive to some AF time (remember what she said when you went to visit her) Very well done on starting your exercise programme - I am now going to the gym twice a week which has been a huge benefit - I am not completely AF at the moment but I have got back some control in my life and am working hard to keep things that way. With regard to the work situation - as the saying goes it takes 2 to tango - So well done on really trying to make things better. Your boss will see the effort you are making so hopefully your colleague who has been causing trouble will make the effort as well. Will be thinking of you:l

Rustop I am so sorry about MIL - I know things have been uneasy between you but even so it is still such a hard time for you and your family - I am thinking about you and sending loads of love:l A course on the psychology of happiness sounds very interesting - keep us posted


Erin day 18 well done my friend - how is the job hunting going xx

o2m how goes it

To all the other Crackers have a brilliant day and good luck with you reaching all your respective goals

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Good luck East, will be thinking of you on Friday. Sweetpea, enjoy the visitors and thanks for thinking of all of us. Things should quiten down come September. Am looking forward to getting into a routine. MIL could live a week or it could be 3, so family taking it one day at a time. I know this is not very christian of me to say but she was a major contributor of stress in my life and a part of me feels relieved that its all coming to an end. (I could only share that with my MWO friends so thanks for being there).

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:l Rustop

Understand exactly where you are coming from having been in a similar situation myself - so you are not being unchristian because MIL has done nothing over the years to reap any good feelings from you - You are now doing your very best by being there for Mr Rustop and your kids - even after everything you have had to put up with YOU are a star so never forget that :l

Thinking of you

Love Sweetpea xxxxx:l

[Carmac]

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Rustop -

Understand totally your thoughts and am glad you feel comfortable in sharing with us. Sharing is good and a great stress reliever.

Hoping all are doing well or at least much better. Life is hectic here with getting the youngest off to University, and middle into a "real" job now that her college days and her fun summer is over. Add my looking for my next position and the days are full!

Luckily I am purposefully taking time out of my days for quiet reading and a bit of sunshine. I find those moments of respite quite sustaining. Add those to my daily trip to visit with each of you and I am in a good place.

Take Care all and I'm looking forward to tooting that train whistle once I hit my 30 days!

Erin

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone!!! I haven't been on much; I have been so busy being back at work. Not doing that great being AF, but not doing so bad either. Had a great 1st date on Saturday, so that made me really happy about things. Super tired lately, but that will get better in the next couple of weeks.
Good luck East; I hope everything goes well!!!!

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just a quick hello. MIL still hanging in there. We got a call last night saying this was probably it but when I rang hospital this am, she had a comfortable night but very weak. Hubby going down today so I'll do it tomorrow.

Hope everyone is doing ok, catch up with you all later.

Rustop