FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[greeneyes]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all. Just checking up on everyone. Those moods - they just get to you don't they? East that "one rule" is so darn hard to learn. Ever hear that saying "It seemed like a good idea at the time"? I simply don't have AL in the house. Well except for a beer in the fridge now that I think about it.

Everybody keep fighting the good fight!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning everyone

Not in such a rush this morning - got a lot of jobs done so don't feel under too much pressure today. The break did me good I am feeling much better but I still feel like I want to get a grip of moderating Al fine tuned - 98 % of the time I have no problem but it is the 2% that is the problem:nutso::argh::duhme: I suppose the 2% is going to be my life long battle if I want to moderate so I have got to weigh up HOW IF EVER I can control those bad moments. It has been nearly a year since I joined MWO and if I look back I can see there is an improvement and if I can build on that I shall be happy with myself. So onwards and upward AL is not going to get the better of me today ODAT

East I am so sorry you are having such a bad time. It is going to take a long time to get back on your feet. The tiredness is something that no one can prepare you for because it is so overwhelming. When you are tired everything else seems much more of an obstacle and your coping mechanisms are greatly diminished. Take heart things will improve. Be good to yourself and have plenty of rest and do as much as you can to help yourself relax:lxx

Teardrop if a mysterious benefactor is wanting to help your brother I think he should accept. He must have done something or said something that this person, despite all your brothers faults, really wants to help him OR it could even be someone that you or your sister knows that wants to help the family as a whole. It would take a great strain off you all if his debts are cleared. You could all then concentrate on making sure he doesn't make the same mistakes again and also help him with his fight against AL (his debt situation will obviously be a huge trigger for him and make him feel worthless) - Just my 2 pence worth obviously I don't know the full situation but if he thought he was helping all the family by excepting it may just be the added push he needs:l Day 14 AF you star keep going - WELL DONE xx

Rustop I agree the days I have been AF have been a great help to my bank balance - I want to loose a few pounds though before I buy any clothes - but it is a great incentive

Greeneyes well done on not having any AL in the house

Erin hope you are enjoying your trip away

To all the other crackers have a really good day - Let us know how you are getting on

Loads of love Sweetpea :groupluv: xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[lynn]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello everyone! That 2% is a whopper!!! I will be getting a "talk" this evening because I guess I messed up last evening. I can't tell you I don't remember. I just know I hate the "talk".


take care,
Lynn

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just a quick check in as having an extremely busy week, something on every day. Oldest daughter auditioned for a school musical so now there are practices at night as well as the school runs during the day. Feel I am never off the road!!

At least being busy stops me thinking about Al. Day 17 and looking forward to finishing the month.

Have a great day everyone.j

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone

Had a bit of a frustrating day yesterday wth the computer :upset::hateputer: but fingers crossed is now ok

Very busy today so just wanted to wish everyone all the best with their respective goals

Well done Rustop on 17 days af

East hope your are feeling a bit better todayxx

Love to everyone

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxx:l

[Carmac]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi, All -

Back from Myrtle Beach and now catching up on threads. Had a great time. Will write more later.....Erin

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hope everyone has a great weekend

Love Sweetpea :l xx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Another weekend, now 4 weeks away from op, not feeling too bad at the moment but not able to stay AF just yet. My first outing just for a couple of hours this evening, dreading it somehow. ... Do not feel too sociable... I do not know why.I have had lots of visitors and was fine,think its making the effort to dress up I guess.
Sweetpea you are doing great on the 2% thing, At the moment I am the reverse! Feels like 98% I am drinking! not so bad, but working my way up again.
Teardrop I did find the Lyrics of the song, quite depressing and sad. The song was by E-Rotic.On the question of Angels. I am a believer, I ask for their help all of the time, many things they help me with. I guess my drinking is something only I can choose not to do. Angels cannot take away your free will just guide you. I have been reading Angel Inspiraion and Spiritual Laws by Diana Cooper, very enlightening. There is something comforting in thinking that your white feathers are your angels letting you know that they are around. I was told once that I have two guadian Angels, I think thats pretty cool!
Glad you enjoyed your break Erin.
So proud of you all with your determination and all your AF days. I need the motivation tablet its somewhere in the cupboard must look for it this weekend and join you.
Greeneyes,the trouble with me is that since a child I have always thought that rules were there to be broken, frustrating for my parents at the time!
I am with you about the "talk" lynn, I think I know the words off by heart now.
Have agreat weekend


Eastxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone

Just lost a really long post :upset: thought I would have learned by now but I forgot to save it before I reviewed it. Still onwards and upwards I will just have to start again

Here goes

Hope everyone had a really good weekend - I am still doing ok but having to keep a watch on the :alf: to make sure he doesn't creep up on me while my defences are down

East hope you had a good outing - that first one seems like a marathon but you will be feeling so much better now that you have achieved it. Dont worry too much about the 2% - you will get back to that soon when you have got your strength back - After all you are still only 4 weeks post operative so take really good care of yourself:l xx

Rustop still acting as taxi :racer: to the kids still you have your you time with those lovely dogs - how are you doing?

Erin looking forward to hearing all about your holiday

Teardrop how are things going:l

Hope all the other crackers are doing well drop by and let us know how you are getting on

Bye for now everyone

Loads of love

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Sorry have not been able to post for the last few days. MIL's months mind mass was on at the week-end so we were away and now I have visitors staying so I'm not getting near the computer. However, doing ok'ish. Did break my AF spell over the week-end but intend to start over again once I get all this madness out of the way.

Hope everyone is doing ok, catch you all later.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi

Just popping in to say hi to everyone and hope you are all reaching your respective goals

:l Sweetpea xx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Where is everyone? Have not been able to get near the computer all week as I had visitors. Day 1 again for me, going to try and have another long AF spell in October. Did not manage to get the 30 in September but it was mainly AF.

How is everyone else doing? Look forward to hearing from you all.

Rustop

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Dont want to give up.

Hi All,

sorry not posted, just been drinking and feeling down, there sometimes a part of me that gives up. I hate that part of me that takes over me. i need to start AF today to scared to drink today i seem to get to a stage where i feel to ill to drink. right now im feeling shaky and weak and on edge need to calm down, so i will take a hot bath and go to bed.

Why do i do this to myself! (been here a year on wednesday )

Take Care all firecrackers love you all.:l

love

Teadrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I forgot i wanted to share this qoute with yous today, cant remember where i got it from but i keep on reading it over and over again!

NEVER SURRENDER AND GIVE UP.

IN THE DARKEST HOUR THIS IS ALWAYS HOPE.

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU CAN SUCCEED.

DONT SURRENDER INTO DESPAIR OR DARKNESS FIGHT ALL THE WAY AND

YOU CAN SUCCEED.

Love

Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone.
Not too successful a September for me either.
Was my birthday last Thursday :shocked: can't believe how fast they come round! went out to celebrate and did not drink my usual quota, but had the most horrendous migraine for a day. Keep blaming them I know but maybe the hormones!
I have been drinking each night since I stopped taking the painkillers and the amount has gradually crept up to a bottle again!
I am with you Rustop and Teardrop will try my best to get a AF October.
This time of year is always bad for me ,thats why, like you Teardrop, I joined a year ago.
I have felt a little lost and very teary these last few months, l think the summer we never had does not help. No sun or holiday:upset:
I hope that you are feeling better Teardrop, I have missed your posts,
A hot bath and bed is the right prescription and inviting ( probably the best thing when we feel exhausted.) Enjoy!
I will print out your words to remind me.
I had a horrible feeling that my talk of Angels may have scared you all off! I promise to keep my beliefs to myself if it scares anyone.
Our merry little band is something I think about everyday,Time to post is short, I have trouble keeping up with work , the house and the kids colourful lives!
Youngest daughter,( just in the last few minutes) text me to say that she is boarding plane with her BF for two week holiday. Her first by herself without us or tutors, little worried but will have to treat it as one of lifes learning curves. She past her exams and is now a fully qualified hairdresser!Quite an acheivement when you think of where she was a year ago.
When I look back over the last year on firecrackers I consider that the time spent here has been priceless and well spent. I have gained some lovely new friends, an enormous amount of AF days (compared to previous years) and most importantly a new found confidence in myself. I now know that with sheer effort and help from you guys I CAN get those af days. All I need to do is WANT IT.

I hope you have a great day

Eastxxxxxxx