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[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HI ALL FIRECRACKERS..

Evergreen...you make me laugh about your dog i love lab dogs they are very clever dogs. i have a king charles cavalier and she always takes me for the walk in the morning everyone i go past always comments on it. but she just love barking at the sky i wonder what the hell is she barking at until i realise one day it was the birds. she goes mad if they fly past but if there was loads of them on the floor she would be scared.
Sweetpea...where is your long post i hope your not writing a book.
East... good to see you pop in. keep them af days going.
Rustop... i like the sound of the colour in your daughters room nice strong colours.

I'm in a rush today my daughter come back to get a lift to school because there is a bus strike so i had to go with my pj's on but on the way i notice the light come on, no petrol so i was praying to myself please dont breakdown well im here and my prayers got anwsered. so need to put petrol in the car first before i go anywhere and im overdrawn but hubby get paid today. you know what sometimes i dont care after listening to the news about uk taxpayers they have lost a lot of money in the iceland banks, so that means our council tax are going up again dont you just love this shite country. The main think is im not drinking.

All firecrackers keep strong and remember to say that tiny little word to yourself over the weekend.....NO!... i will not drink.

Love

Teardrop.x
If i dont log in over the weekend,(another busy weekend) i speak to you all on monday so take good care of yourself's.

[sweetpea]

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:upset: Feeling very low and need loads of :l:h from the crackers

:boxer::sofa: I also need to keep away from :alf: when I am feeling like this

Working on some positive mental attitude to get me back on the express

Sweetpea xx

[happydog]

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Sweetpea.... just seen this im so sorry your feeling very low in yourself try and not drink Al it only makes it worst in the long run, sending you lot of :l:l:land :h your way.
try and think positive you can do this i know you can it will pass, i have every faith in you. go for a nice long walk i know the weather is really good try and keep yourself busy in doing anything you can. let us know how your doing, i will pm you later, need to go out again on another mission work.

Take care
Love
Teardrop.x

[rustop61]

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Sweetpea, have not got near the computer in a few days. Just wanted to send you lots of cyber hugs, hope you are feeling a bit better today. Teardrop gave good advice, exercise really does help, a brisk walk blows a lot of the cobwebs away. I also find that having a project like the painting keeps me busy and makes staying AF so much easier. Take care of yourself and catch up with you during the week.

All other firecrackers big hello. Away tomorrow, will catch up on all your news on Monday.

Rustop

[evergreen]

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Sweetpea,

Sending you sunshine and a big hug!!! Rustop and teardrop are right - movement help. Beware though I think that rustop is trying to get you to come finish her painting . . . you know Huckleberry Finn and all that. Just kidding! You have lots of people from all over the world sending you positive vibes. Nothing is ever made better by drinking. Everything is always made worse by drinking.

Teardrop, my turn to LOL!! I can't tell you how many times my girls have missed the bus and I have scooted them up to school in my pjs. It is not far but I was always sure I would have a accident or get pulled for speeding or something!! I think everywhere we are feeling the economic squeeze. It is interesting to hear you reference it because things are pretty stressed here in the states as well. Not much to do about it . . . . except perhaps save money by not drinking!

Rustop hope you had a good trip away!!

Stay bright Firecrackers!!!!

[sweetpea]

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:l A big thank you to all you wonderful crackers for your support and also for my pm messages

Just to report I am feeling a lot better and hope to be firing on all cylinders soon

This down period has thankfully not lasted too long which goes to show that all the support on this site fighting against als evil ways also extends to other things like coping with depression - depression and drinking seem to go hand in hand but thankfully I have not let either get a grip on me thanks to all the understanding and support I have found here

Many thanks to you all:l:h

Take care everyone

Loads of love Sweetpeaxxxxxxxxxxxxx:l:h

[happydog]

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Not feeling to good!

Sweetpea i agree depression and drinking goes hand in hand....

one of my friend die of cancer on friday night only find out he had cancer three weeks ago.
when i found out on saturday i was in shock needed to have that drink to calm me down wish i never had that drink, all it did was block out my feelings and my emotions, when really i should of let nature take it course.
Feeling like i have not got one ounce of energy in me. god a hate what AL DOES TO ME when im drinking it like im in a world of my own need to burst that bubble of mine and start to live in the real world. i will master this one day and it will all fall into place.
I will try no i will get on that wagon today i need to i dont want to make myself ill.

Take care all firecrackers

Love
Teardrop.x

[evergreen]

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Sweetpea,

Sending you a hug!!:l Absolutely alcohol is depressant. We think that is calms us or even energizes us but in the end it brings us down. I hope that you do something wonderful for yourself as you have been wonderful to the firecrackers!! :h This thread is amazing and has helped so many!! Take care of you!!

Teardrop, I am so sorry to hear about your friend!! My condolences. In such sad times, we do turn to that old crutch, al to comfort us. He is a false friend!! Each of these slips though gives us another experience to arm ourselves with. . . . another clue as we find our way out of this mire!!! Sending you a hug as well!!:l Reaching out to pull you back up!

EG

[Guest]

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AF November

Count me in too.....Nov 5th is THE DAY!! What a great idea to do this as a group who can offer each other support. WE CAN DO IT! :crazymonkey:

[dlw]

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I'm In. I am af 5 days now. Now that my body is getting back to normal, and I am sleeping better- it seems easier each day.

[Eastender]

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Hi Firecrackers,
:welcome: to gaia and d/w.
Sorry to hear that both Sweetpea and Teardrop not been feeling so good. My condolences to you Teardrop for loss of your friend. Loss is a huge one to deal with.
I have been dancing with the devil too, for many reasons, most of them seem silly, in retrospect, but at the time( when it seemed that there was no escape or resolution) AL seemed to be the only way to not suffer those emotions, I drowned them into silence.
Evergreen you are so right , AL does not solve any of the problems, they are still there together with the pounding headache the next day. Why do I do it is my unanswerable question.
I have been AF for many days this past year, that spurs me on. Maybe I am getting stronger?,some days I feel not. Today and yesterday I have be AF but tonight, tomorrow the next 10 minutes? I have to take it moment by moment.
How is it possible that we can change so quick, in a second sometimes! I feel somewhat weary of the fight of late and extremely emotional. Perhaps that is where the secret lies.
I cannot fight myself some days.
Sorry to babble on but feel a bit lost at the moment.........needed to vent.

Take care everyone

Eastxxxxx

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

So sorry to hear about your friend Teardrop. Know it's a shock when it happens so fast but if it is any consolation I think it is better for the person themselves to go quick. My cousin lasted 22 months and there was so much pain and suffering during that time. It was watching her in pain that helped me to let go.

There seems to be some devil in all of us that drives us back to Al when things are not going that good. But we are learning to do without and as you said East all of us have so many more AF days since joining this site than ever before. So we will plod along supporting each other on the Sweetpea express. Welcome to the new members, vent, boast, tell us what's happening, thats what gets the rest of us through. Have been too busy to even think of Al the last few days. Two bedrooms 90% complete but not finished and lots and lots more to do!!

Rustop

[evergreen]

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Good luck with the painting Rustop - I bet the rooms will be gorgeous. At my house one projects starts the next. No sooner do I finish one then I look around the corner and it needs to be painted as well.

Eastender, I have been a member here for going on a year and a half. When I am struggling and "dancing with the devil" (love that phrase) I stay away. I don't read or post. So I commend you. The devil must be a tad afraid of this site. Coming back here means healing. It means backup troops!

EG

[Carmac]

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Hi, all -

Back from visiting my parents and now checking up on the Express.

First Teardrop, I am so sorry to hear of your friend. Unfortunately, I am awaiting the news from a friend, age 50, who is about to leave us. I saw him Thursday before I left and he shared the cancer was travelling to his brain. Amazingly, this is a man, who did what I do...international development, but did it in the former Russian Republics where they only understood later the radation scare. Tom will leave an 8 year old son. That is what is scary. We have started a fund for his son to ensure he can do college or whatever.

That said though......Sweetpea! We are here from you!

Cheere, Erin

[happydog]

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Thanks everyone.:l
Carmac... it is so sad when they leave kids behind.... my friend his daughter is best friends with my girl she is the only child i said she welcome to come round my house every day after school there is nothing worst then going home to a empty house waiting for mummy to come home.

Welcome to dlw well done 5days af keep going.
Welcome to gaia. it funny i can remember saying that last year but i felt so bad i think i started on the nov 1st. Yes we can do it ...think strong and stay positive.

Take care all firecrackers

Love
Teardrop.x