FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Hope everyone is doing ok. I am so busy these days I dont really get near the computer. One of the advantages though is that I am so exhausted at night I just want to go to bed, no desire to sit up drinking!! One decorating job seems to lead to another and the whole place looks like a bomb hit it.

Catch you all later.

Rustop

[Guitarista]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi guy's. First day a/f after a 3 mth slip up. Would love to join in on nov. 5. Now for the first hellish sleep!.. take care all, G

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Guitarita :welcome: to the firecracker team. Have a good sleep.

Take care alll:l

Love
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all you lovely crackers and many thanks for all your wonderful support

NOV 5 is definitely the day for me BUT the sooner the better. Been reminded of a couple of conversations I had yesterday that I frankly can't remember- Hmm ALARM BELLS GOT TO GET A GRIP

Sad Sad Sad but you all know how I am feeling THOUGHT I WAS IN CONTROL BUT HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
So it is definitely back on the AF Sweetpea Express for me
By the way have folk here most of November so may not be able to post every day - bit difficult when the computer is in the main living area - so will post as and when i can

BUT

That does not mean I am not with you all in mind and body and will eagerly log on as and when I can xxxxxxxxxxxxx

welcome: Guitarista, gaia and d/w you have found some wonderful folk on this thread - hang on in there because we all support each other big time

Teardrop thank you so much for your pms and wonderful support:l I am so very sorry that you have lost a dear friend who went so quickly BUT it will be the best for them to have the relief of losing the pain BUT SO VERY HARD FOR YOU TO DEAL WITH :h


East, Rust, Evergreen and Erin:l Thank you my ever faithful supportive pals xxxxx

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello Firecrackers!! Welcome newbies!!! It seems like the veterans of the Sweetpea Express have been having some troubles. I hope everyone is starting to feel better: East, Teardrop, Sweetpea. We can all do this and hang on together. It's never fun to go through deaths, depression and all of the other BS thrown our way, but we can hang on to each other and make it through anything.
Big hugs to everyone!!!

[kiwi]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all. I'm new here. Joined today. I'm on day 5 abs at present, aiming for 30 and then hopefully 30 after that.
Its all a bit tricky...
Kiwi

[dlw]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Im in. today is day 6 for me.
Taking my supps, and my book arrived today
I am ready to call last thursday the last day I had a drink!

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Welcome newbies, great to see some new faces and well done so far. It's not easy as we can all testify but dont be discouraged and keep, keep on trying. The alternative for me is to go back drinking every day like before MWO. THAT IS NOT an option. I used to get caught up in the 30, 60 day thing and then become really discouraged when I messed up. Now I strive for AF and if I dont make it, tomorrow is another day. I have kept a record, small calendar for last year and this year and I mark off the AF days. It really gives me encouragement when I compare the two, there is no comparison between this year and last. It keeps me motivated.

Rustop

[Guitarista]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good stuff Rus... follow your bliss bro'.. Greg.

[evergreen]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

One of my best friends lost her husband this year . . . he left 2 daughters 20 and 17. It is hard at any age. The 17 year old still will just start crying uncontrollably at the drop of the hat. It is heartbreaking.

Welcome Guitarista!!!

Rustop - you will have to post pictures of your stunning decorating . . maybe before and after!!

Teardrop and Sweetpea - sending hugs!

EG

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: Kiwi and dlw great to have you on board and very well done on your af days

Lukalee thanks for your words of encouragementxx

Rustop I think I will do the same thing over the next year so that I can see the improvements I am making

evergreen thanks for the hugs

Hope everyone else is doing well. I am having a better day today I have done my exercises and feel a lot better for getting out there and doing something positive with my day

Love to everyone

Sweetpea xx:l:h

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi all firecrackers

Rustop...i love your post wish i keep a calendar well i started then stop. yes it must be gooe to look back and see how much you have come forward.

You know i dont like what drink is doing to me. i can never mod. talking to a friend yesterday who told me about this site and she is mod ,just at weeekends she drinks WHY cant i do THAT! for me one leads to many many more. i know i will never be a normal drinker. when i drink i feel so ashame of myself.. i hate to say this but im finding it hard for me it only takes that one glass and im away. even my belly it look like it getting big..skinny legs and big belly and i know it the drink that doing it becase i dont over eat. it funny just thinking about church does anyone remember when they first tasted the red wine at the altar even then i love the tasted never sip always gobble it down. never thought i would have a problem. wish i could have a new thinking brain.
Sorry for my post not very positive.

keep on saying to my self monday is the day i stop, i wonder how true that wil be have to stop kidding myself.

Take care all.:h

Love
teardrop.x

[maasai]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hie firecrackers,
missed posting here, welcome kiwi and dlw, love reading and going through your post all of you guys, they always keep me focused and going, its 15month AF for me and it has been hard, since the death of my parent, i have never visited there graves and its almost 12yrs ago now, its agaist our culture to visit the graves but i really feel i want to, am planning to lay a cemented small foundation on both graves and i think this will keep me at rest, i dont know what sort of emmotion will come then but next month on 10th am doing it.
am glad am sober and if visiting them will relax me more and add me more energy am soo ready to, just feel i want to feel them. am not sure if am lonely, or just emmotional honestly i dont know.
love you all

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

No Teardrop you are not kidding yourself. You WILL get there. For a lot of us it is the same. I can mod in a social situation but once I drink on my own its all downhill, I dont know when to stop. Have tried all the usual, wont drink alone etc. etc. Now I aim for AF and if I dont make it, tomorrow is another day, keep, keep trying. I am trying to loose a stone in weight by xmas and that's helping me keep away from Al, all those empty calories!!

Good to hear from you Massari, in some cultures going to the grave is a great source of comfort. Do what feels right for you. Well done on 10 months AF. Everyone else big hello and have agreat week-end.

Rustop

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi All not been here for a while. Still drinking and its getting worse - blackouts every time I drink. I get short periods of time in between and then crash. I am withdrawing right now and its very painful and I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself. My boyfriend has had enough of it and my work is suffering and I have a massive amount of fear. I am a real mess and freel totally unable to manage my life at the moment. Depressed, sad, lonely and so tired.