FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Rustop... your so right being in that right frame of mind.
East... i feel really proud of myself yesterday it felt good not to have a drink and to be there for my daughter to comfort her at this sad time.
sweetpea.. like rustop said reading other peoples post inspired me to. i found if i cant get on the p.c or could not be on there long enough i would printout poeples post and read it in my own time it does help . stay strong my little sweetpea we can do this together.:l

lukalee ,Evergreen Fjones, patrica and everyone else big hello let think positive and stay strong love you all

Take care

Love
Teardrop.x

[keepwalking]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:new: I have just read the book from cover to cover in one sitting and have been on the net and ordered everything i need to get started. I have assessed my self honestly and think i am probably at the very early stages. I can have 2/3 days without wine every week but do not enjoy them the same as the days on which i have my fix of white wine! I get miserable on those days and i do not 'want to want' it so much. I can identify with a lot in the book and want to take action now before i ever get to opening a 2nd bottle. I know i am close to that as this week i have had a bottle to myself every night and it never feels like enough!I have ordered the tabs and the cd.s but i want to join with you all on this 30 days starting on the 5th Nov, can i start before all my stuff arrives which could be end of november? My goal is to be like Brenda in the book, a moderate drinker who can set out a bottle of wine for her and her husband and be able to wait until the meal is ready before i touch it and actually for the first time ever be able to say - "no more for me im fine." I also want to stop thinking about cold white wine every day and see it as 'butter' not sure if thats possible but really motivated to give it a try with some help!!

[Guitarista]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hiya Keep, and welcome. 30 day's af is a good thing to do. If you haven't done it before, good luck, and you'll learn a lot about yourself. I wish you all the best in your quest for moderation, but be aware that while many of us are in a similar situation, we are made up differently. Moderation doesn't work for me, which suck's, 'cause for me, it's all or nothing. It's all a learning experience, and that realisation took me a while of on/off drinking to find out, hence for me, the battle in my mind between modding and af has thankfully ceased. I'm only af for 6 day's so far, but i'm finally free. Safe travel's my friend, stay around. this site and the ppl here are friendly, and awsome. G.

[keepwalking]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Many Thanks G for your honesty! Well done you, keep me posted on progress! KW

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I'm the same; all or nothing. I drink well beyond the buzz. And I know that is has it has always been, and it will be like that forever.

[keepwalking]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Please dont say that Lukalee, there has to be hope that it will NOT be that way forever, I am new but I know one thing and that is ' you are what you think'. Please try some positive self talk just for to-day, you are so worth it!

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I'm just saying that I can't ever mod. Not possible, that is the truth.

[keepwalking]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

oh gotya! Well done on at least knowing that, I have no idea yet how i will manage, im hoping denial is not an option!

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all firecrackers,

:welcome: aboard keepwalking....yep for me one bottle of wine never seem to be enough,dam i drink so fast and wonder where the hell the first bottle went to, then the second one open up and so on. to do 30days af does help a lot they do say to do 40 i think and i can understand. i did 30days af but carried on 60+ because i felt scare to drink because i knew deep down if i had that one drink will always lead to another and another. i cant moderate. You will get lots of support and help here keep reading and posting.

I think i need to buy more sweet for trick or treat there's bound to be more kids tonight as well. i shall make sure i buy enough so there some left over for me.

Everyone have a great weekend.

Take care

Love
Teardrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

iam sorry ive lost it big time i dont give a shit ok !!!!!!! anyway i just dont fuckin care no more ....so sorry love u all.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
Teardrop my friend,:l I hope you feel better today.Let us know how you are. I know what you mean, it's that moment when we lose touch of ourselves, maybe our soul goes for a nap and thats when we start to party! Strange though, when we are slaughtered our "soul" wakes and beats up to a pulp! Thats why we feel so bad in the morning.
I went to see Lee Evans at Wembly last night did not touch a drop! I laughed so much, but this time without Al,it made me realise I CAN enjoy myself without Als company!
:welcome: to Keepwalking, I did venture over the one bottle to two and is a lot harder to cut down. I was drinking 1-2 bottles a night last year no nights off! With the Sweetpea express I have completed 30 and 60 odd days this passed year,and had many AF days that I did not count. I do know that Modding does not work for me, but I now have to work on the realisation of total abstinence,(although scary)a long way off. I think maybe thats my next step, that I am struggling so much with at the moment. Al is not giving me up without a fight,and yes I think we all tire at fighting all the time.
RJ's book gives us a small seed from which we have to grow and there are many seasons and changes that we go through,some good,some bad.But it forces us to learn and that must be good.
Guitarista well done on your 6 days AF, trouble getting to day 3 at the moment, I know I will get there.
Lukalee so good to hear from you, we seem to follow the same route seasonally too I have noticed. I have grabbed your hand so come on girl!
Sweetpea Thinking of you:l Teardrop's idea of printing out sounds a great idea to me. Take care.

Deep breath and today i will stay AF day 2 (again!)

Eastxxxxx

[Cloudy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi sweetpea, im new here, and the support and warmth are already a healer! I'm in too - 5 days today and wanna keep counting.

[Mad Mummy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Crackers
Teardrop - Really feel for you, have been there and will doubtless be there again if I know me. Just be proud that you managed to stay Af for so long earlier this year and you can do it again. Remember we all care and never judge.
East - good to hear from you again totally relate to the more than 1 bottle a night thing - bet Lee Evans was brilliant and it does make you feel good to be sober at the end of it doesn't it? I don't think I can face the thought of total abstinence either and maybe it's the thought rather than the reality of living it that's the problem - it's all in my head???

Welcome Cloudy - 5 days is wonderful - well done you!

Luv to all to come
Bx

[kittyhawk]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I just had to come here and leave a message and then leave for work. I drank again last night and I have no excuses - all I know is that the only reason I drink is to "feel good" to get a buzz. I want to abstain so badly and my daughter is rightly disillustioned and upset with me - I am so lucky to have found this sight to come too. I have ordered the CDs and am taking the protein and vitamins. I can't wait . I'll come tonight to chat.

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Teardrop, thinking of you, let us know you are ok. Welcome Kittyhawk and good luck. Hi to everyone else. Did not get to log on at all over the week-end and am ashamed to admit went back to my old ways. Hubby was away and even though I knew not a good idea to drink wine, of course I did and opened a second bottle. Woke up on the couch at 2 am. I have not done anything like that in the longest time and everything had been going really well so I cant even say what the trigger was. Like you Mad Mummy I am still struggling with the idea of never having Al in my life but maybe its the thought.

Need to get some decent AF time under my belt. Today I WILL NOT DRINK.

Rustop