FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[MeowNow]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

OK I keep putting this off, making all sorts of excuses. Too much emotional baggage. SO AF will start today. Dec 28. 2008. Day 1, it's not the days but the nights..... my husband is sick and wants wine, so I buy it for him and we both drink it. So I have to say no thanks. I cannot stop him, but I can stop myself. He is so physically weak, using a walker, can't go out of the house. New Doctor and insurance on Jan 5,so it's my year to be sober. might as well start now. I feel I am losing him, and it is very painful. So I will come back here. God please give strength.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
Hope Xmas went well for all of you and your respective goals.
Hello and :welcome:to Meownow, you sound so positive on your change I hope that day 1 was not too bad for you. You have a lot to cope with and the choice hard, but not drinking brings with it a clearer mind to deal with those nagging issues. I wish you every success in your new journey.
FJones, Family issues always rear their ugly head at christmas, You did so very well to do 9 days, as I have said before, better results than I have this month. Feel proud of yourself for that.
My daughter has had her problems with relationships for the last couple of years, I bought her a card which says"No man is worth your tears-- the one who is, won't make you cry" If you can let go of the old relationships you will make space for new ones.
Your brother obviously loves you, focus on that to ground yourself. Drink plenty of water and get the rest that your body is crying out for. I wish you well:l
Teardrop Hope that you had a great Xmas and your mood lifted as mine did, On xmas eve I ran round like looney tune to clean up and put up some decorations. (no time to do tree) Bought some Xmas scented candles that were lit continuously for the last few days,You know-- that was just enough. FOR ME. I felt a sort of calm come over me. I told myself after listening to the news on the terrible things going on the world that my worries were small in the big scheme of things! We just need to stop sometimes and think WHAT DO I WANT? Be a little selfish and give time to yourself Teardrop it did wonders for me!
Sweetpea and Rustop hope to hear from you soon with your news.
Have not been AF over Xmas but this year better than last. My Dad even said that I had been "good with drink for a couple of years now" when I heard him say that I smiled to myself, My thoughts on his statement was that the word describing my habit should be BETTER. thats what I want for the coming year BETTER still.I have a feeling that if I stick with it, time and effort has proved to me that it does get better.
I wish you all strength in your respective goals and a BETTER happy and healthy new year in 2009.

Love Eastxxxxxxxxx

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all checking in at end of Day 4 and feeling a tad better> still an emotional wreck over boyfriend but saw my counsellor and that helped get some perspective back . change in my functioning level is quite amazing when I havent been drinking. also feel less depressed. will post again tomorrow.

Thanks to sweetpea.teardrop,east,rustop, lukalee and meow for your non judgemental support>

way i feel right now is nauseous when i see booze. lets hope it stays that way.

Seems us girls on this post all have a lot to deal with but today i did gratitude list and it helps lift my mood - i am very lucky in many ways and have lots in my life - it is loss and grief i struggle with.

Anyway hope you all had a sober day and good things came your way.

.

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just wanted to wish all of you A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR and say :thanks: for being there for me all through 2008. It has been a tough year in many ways but thanks to you guys I have managed nearly 200 AF days and thats coming from drinking every day for nearly 20 years. Did not stay AF over the holidays but did not overindulge. That's my problem, because I can successfully moderate at times I fool myself into thinking I can keep drinking like that. However, sooner or later I have a massive slip. I dont want any of those in 2009 so I am beginning an AF stint starting today. Am driving tonight hence todays start!!

So Fjones and anyone else starting the year AF will be logging on regularly from tomorrow. WE CAN DO IT. Hope you all enjoyed your Christmas and wishing you all every happiness for 2009.


Rustop

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all checking in at end of Day 6> Craving this afternoon but resisted> Hope you all have a great time tonight and I wish you all a Happy New Year.

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi all checking in at end of day 7, had a good guy at some exhibitions in london but tired and will sleep early tonight, hope you are all doing okay.

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

My first post of 2009 and it is only fitting that it is on this thread. Well done Fjones, the first week is always the hardest, once you get on a roll there will be no stopping you. I know the boards are quite at the moment but well done you for checking in every day and letting us know how you are getting on. Thats what keeps the rest of us motivated.

Starting the New Year hangover free and ok I did gain a few pounds over the holidays but at least the bulk of it was lost last year so now all I need to do is cut back to get rid of those few pounds. All in all a good start.

Hope everyone else is doing ok. It will be next week before things get back to normal. I'm looking forward to getting back into a routine again.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL THE CRACKERS AND ALL WHO VISIT THIS THREAD

Want to say firstly thank you for all the support we get from MWO and for all the visitors on this thread - each and every one of you is important to us all and we all support each other so thank youi xxxxxxxx

I want to say that i don't post on numerous threads because I don't feel emotionaly capable of being there for too many folks at the same time :h:h BUT I LOVE U ALL XXXXX

So Happy New Year to All at MWO

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:l:h

[todsflove2]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thank you for creating this thread. I am right in there to be sober and to listen as much as possible. This is such a wonderful community and I am grateful to be a part of it.

:thanks:

:l

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi all blew 8.5 days by drinking lots of wine yesterday> i feel terrible with hangover, shakes, sweats, fear and depression> well start again I guess - there is no thought in my head about the pain after the drink>

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Fjones, just start again. That's all any of us can do. What's the alternative, keep drinking, day in, day out and feeling lousy. You have 8.5 days under your belt, add to that. Some people have a sticking point. I remember East's was day 4 or 5 and once you get past that you are on a roll. So keep trying.

Things not quite back to normal here as the girls are not back at school until Wednesday. Hubby's birthday (50th) next week-end. Doing something at home for him the following week-end so am going to be busy, busy. Hope you are all well and things are getting back to normal. Have a great week.

Rustop

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
This is my first post of 2009! Have not been AF since Xmas still just cannot get my head in the right gear.
FJones you did so well to get to 8.5 days at this time of year, be proud of that. You slipped but as Rustop said just pick yourself up and start again. I have lost count of the times I have begun day 1,always falling of the wagon at day 4. My task now is to get to day 2!
Hi to Todsflove2 and :welcome: you sound really focused, hope to see you again with your progress-.Just seen that your footnote states 350 AF days WOW that is FANTASTIC, you could teach all of us a great deal !
Sweetpea, good to hear from you. I think that you are right, it can sometimes in the struggle seem so very hard to offer support when you feel so fragile yourself. If I was to liken myself to a type of animal I would definately be in a herd , I suppose I feel safe with familiar people and surroundings. I also mainly post here, although read many other threads. I feel a little helpless to offer advise sometimes to questions that I do not know the answers to myself. I am scared that I would say something to upset the reader.
Rustop Had my hubbys 50th last summer it was great, did not drink either that night too busy as you say. Hope it goes well and you have a great time you have certainly earned it this year, you are an inspiration to me.
Teardrop Hope you are keeping well:l

Take care all Love Eastxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Good to hear from you East. As you say it is a matter of getting your head around it. Sometimes we need a kick in the but to get our asses in gear. In my case it has been medical. I took the bull by the horns last year and went and got cholesteral etc. checked. It was high and I got it down through diet. However my white cells were marginally low when I had it first tested and lower again the next time. From googling it could be vitamin deficiency due to alcohol!! Spleen/liver not working properly. Drinking the way I have for the past 20 years is bound to have an affect. Had blood tests again yesterday so wait and see. It is the incentive I need though to stay AF.

Hope everyone else doing ok. Sweetpea, Teardrop, let us know how you are both doing. Thinking of you and sending lots of cyber hugs. Everyone else big hello.

Rustop

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all Day 1 again - I had wine last night because the withdrawals sober again. I am hurting a lot and feeling very lonely.

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

end of day 1 and withdrawals easing also saw doctor and admitted I had drank so he has given me non addictive anti anxiety. Hope you all had a sober day.