FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:l Wonderworld

You can get through this. We are all here to support you through this rough patch.

Fby is right, try and get a little exercise it might help loosen up all that pent up emotion and stress. Is there a chance you might be able to do a relaxation tape or have you got a copy of the hypno tapes you could listen to. Although not a quick fix it may help you if you focus on something else for a few minutes

Carry on posting because you will get lots of good supportives vibes comining your way

Day 1 will turn into day 2. Keep focused you can do it

Lots of love and hugs

:h Sweetpea :h xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Good to catch up on everyones news. Suki you are like a lot of us, we take care of everyone else and really suck at taking care of ourselves. I used to be amazed at how selfish one of my neighbours is, she always puts herself first. Hand the 8 year old money rather than go to the bother of organizing a party etc. But you know what, because she's not stressed out bet she does not sink a bottle of wine a night!! I am learning as I get older to be more assertive and put myself first at times, it takes practice though.

Wonder, hang in there. Maybe print out some of your posts and then when you are feeling that a glass of wine would be a good idea, read them. We all know how you feel today, its good to remind us though because the longer we are AF the easier it is to forget that awful morning after feeling.

Rustop

[wonderworld]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thank you sweetpea, rustop and flutterby - Your support is just awesome. Really makes a difference. And funny, I was just thinking that a good long walk outside would feel really good. So off I go... will check in later...

And yeah, rustop - that forgetting how bad it is is so strange. As if we didn't know? Blah!!!!

luv to all,
wonder xx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Flutterby

You sounded like you were Happy this morning and I was Grumpy as I was off to work we go. Hi ho hi ho! Had a rotten day, but you know what, it made me so mad that I said that I'd be damned if I slipped up tonight because the people at work aren't supportive and my boss accused me about lying about drinking. Told him that I was AF6 and he laughed, said I was lying. Not only is he my boss but a good friend and confident. Some friend, if he can't believe me or support me.

From the first time that I posted on mwo, the support, advice, guidance has been something I'v never experienced before. Sweetpea, Rustop, Flutterby, Eastender, Londoner and everyone else, you are the best. I feel better physically and about myself than I have in ages. It's quite a shock. It was rough at the beginning, but each day, not that it gets easier, but I feel stronger and feel more in control, because I have all of you behind me.

Wonder, I had/have a lot on my plate and kept slipping and slipping, day 1 another day 1, etc. I did not ever think that I could get to day 7. It does get easier. The supplements really have helped me, and I also listen at night to a cd by Belleruth Naperstak. She has a lot of them on guided imagery, but the one I listen to is for Trauma. Let me know if you want info on her.

Lately, after reading of some of Cowgal's post about her listening to music, it reminded me that I used to always listen to music. I've been cranking up my iTunes at work, good earphones, so I don't have to listen to the c#@p around. Wonder, keep reading and posting, it really helps.

love to you all......:h :h

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Keep up the good work everyone

Morning all

My love, support and good wishes to everyone whether you are just viewing or posting

In a bit of a rush this morning but wanted to write a post before I went out. Will write again later today

Suki day 7 is fantastic. Having and giving support is a two way street. Your support is always appreciated and valued. You know the truth so don't let that boss of yours, Friend or not, get the better of you. Onward and upward to day 8 is what I say

Wonderworld hope you enjoyed the walk will catch up with you later today to see how you are progressing

Flybe your post put me in a real cheerful mood - thanks - it is what we all need on a dismal winter day

Rushtop I bet your neighbor is not stressed by doing too much but I bet that secretly she might down a bottle a day because no one is her friend. To have Friends you have got to be a friend and that means taking time and effort to do little things for one another. You certainly have been a friend to all of us by your actions which is greatly appreciated

Anyway must dash. Will look in later

:flower: :huggy :lol3: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone,
Suki Feeling tired : yes it is a bit if everything. Its amazing how the body can go through so much but soon as you stop everything catches up. Your body is drain from all the things you have been through and done. Take it easy listen to what your body is telling you to do if you need the sleep it is good. It is a way the body is healing and in time will get strong.
WW: I will be thinking of you to day take it easy as well!
To everyone BIG hugs, love you lots.
In a big rush now i think i'm going to be late!!!!!!!!
Love teardrop.xxxxx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks Teardrop, was starting to get concerned.

The only difference is that now I get up much earlier in the morning to make breakfast/prepare lunch. No more grabbing a bagel, butter, cream cheese at work.

Funny thing, I used to get up, grab my laptop, check my emails from work. Not know, I check out MRO first. Makes me feel so much better. Did check work's email after signing in here, my boss asked me to join some sort of linked network as one of his "friends". Will have to think about it, have enough friends here.

Hope all have a great day
xxxxx Suki xxxxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
Also in a rush but always check in to read if not post to see how you all are.
Day 30 today for me and Rustop (I believe) Do not feel as elated as I thought I would, rather apprehensive...
Guess there are a lot of other decisions to make now I am at my goal that seems to scare me more somehow. Lot to think about.....

Suki411, You are doing so well! and I can see your strength growing daily.
Stick on the music and ignore the boss, he is too negative anyway.

Teardrop. Sorry to hear December has such sad memories for you. I am sure the folks you lost would wish you health and happiness and support you all the way to help you find it. will be thinking of you today.

Fby. Tried to sing the whole tune from memory today (HI HO) and I did, also made me smile thanks.

Sweetpea. Refreshing to read your daily posts you always have the right things to say and cheer me up. Have a great day.

WW. I Think at whatever day we are AF ,it is always day 1,and one day at a time is the only way to cope. Don't be so hard on yourself.

Sorry so brief will try to catch up later.

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:wave: :goodluck: :groupluv: :bananacomputer:
Good morning fireworkers,
I'm brain dead this morning so will let the smilies fill in for me until I can get my act together today....
They are saying, "Hi everyone, good luck today, hugs to all, and there's an energetic banana on my computer"

xox
Fby

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Well done Eastender. You know I had forgotten until I was reminded on another thread. The past few days have been hectic. I too am not too elated, kind of been there, done that. Last time I had hoped for 60 and then 90 and then slipped so hence my attitude of taking it ODAT. The world has certainly become a better place thanks to MWO and all of you so a heartfelt thank you.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:clapclap: CONGRATULATIONS to Eastender and Rustop for reaching 30 days AF - What an inspiration to us all - Well Done - xx

Fby your banana makes me feel tired just looking at his energetic dance which reminds me that I must start thinking about doing some more exercise myself. I've been a bit of a couch potato recently which is really bad news because I have been hitting on the chocolate a bit too much as well - must get a grip and do some exercise each day even if it is just a walk. The smilies have cheered me up loads - thanks

Eastender and Rustop as you say time to make a decision on where to go from here. The December plan is where I intend to go next but whatever you decide to do we are all behind you with our love and support :l

Wonderworld how are you? Keep posting so we all know how you are -xx

Suki I am with you on the first thing I do when I get up is log onto MWO also the first thing I do when I get home. The only time I don't is when other people are in the house. It is funny I do not object to them seeing what I am looking at it, I just feel that, although they are very supportive, they don't actually really, really understand where I have been at and what I have really felt like. Only people who have been in the same dark hole can actually relate to how we feel. Obviously they feel really bad that they were not able to help when we were at our worst. If they could have done, we wouldn't have got there in the first place if you understand what I mean - God that was a bit of a ramble but I am sure you know what I mean!!

Teardrop we all seem to be dashing about today. I have just got back from having lunch with some girlfriends - I felt really sleepy on my way back to the extent that I had to open the car window to get some cold air to keep me awake. I wonder if the body is winding down from constantly being on a high with alcohol in the blood stream!! Anyway got back safely and have enjoyed my day out WITHOUT A DROP TO DRINK so it can be an enjoyable life AF BUT the thought of never having another drink is oh soooooooooo hard to even contemplate at the moment. But I will follow the December plan and commit NOW to 30 days AF in January and see how I get on ODAT

Hugs and love to you all. Keep Focused and Keep posting my dear friends

:h Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello Sweetpea & all,

Pea-- I know what you mean about feeling so sleepy... like your body is in slow motion. It's all about the metabolic stuff we have to deal with in order to reprogram our biochemistry. There was a recent MWO thread with a link to a comprehensive detox and recovery program: Alcoholism, The Cause and The Cure... AKA the 101 Program. Anyone looked into this? I downloaded the e-book and am making my way through it slowly. It confirms what we all know (processed food is poisoning us, addicts have "special" biochemical needs, sugar and caffeine are no-nos, you are what you eat:licked:, get off your butt and get some exercise,:banana: etc....) and offers long-term nutritional guidelines for not only detox and recovery, but what the author says is a metabolic "cure" for addictive behavior. She does not buy into the hardline AA concept of alcoholism as a disease over which one is powerless. Anyway... I will do more research and give you feedback if anyone is interested.

:cheering High-fives to our 30 AF dayers (Eastender & Rustop) :goodjob:
And for that matter, to the ODATs as well!! We all deserve a hug for coming here and sharing. It sure beats the alternative.

Goodnight & sweet dreams,
xox
Fby

[MissCheryl]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Not doing well AT ALL!!

Hi everyone...

You might not even remember me, it's been so long since I posted. But, I have been checking in and reading everyone's updates.... started a reply a few times but just couldn't finish....

Although I got off to (what I thought was) a fairly good start at "30 Days AF", I am SOOOOOOO back to "square-one" that I need my own new name for "square-one". In fact, I'm typing this message as I finish off a 2nd bottle of Chardonnay - and stressing on whether I need to run to the store to get my "backup" supply - How pathetic is that....?

I could, and probably should, type forever... but for now, I just wanted to check in and say "hi"... and that I am still here. And, I DO still sooooooo want to gain control over this @#&!$% drinking crap!!!!

I am so happy to hear of all of your success stories.... so many of you so close to those 30 DAYS!!! Awesome!! I really thought I was going to be able to do it. Apparently, I am worse off than I originally thought. :-( Didn't take much of a challenge/temptation to make me completely slip and fall... literally. Anyway....

I am (hesitantly) looking to December.... Althought it's a BITCH of a month. It's my birthday month (21st), Christmas/holiday parties and New Year's Eve/Day.... all kinds of reasons to celebrate so why not DRINK!!

Anyway.... it is very late and I will have to check back later. Again, just wanted to sign in and say "hi". I need everyone here, more than ever. I am really trying to find that "something within" that will help me get back on track, on to the RIGHT track.

I know coming here to MWO is something I definitely need to do. So I will do that. As often as I can. Really tired right now, so I will sign off... but hope to hear from you all soon.

:l Cheryl

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Cheryl

Of cause we remember you I send a post at least every 10 days to everyone that had ever posted on this thread to wish them well and ask how they are getting on. It is really lovely to hear from you again and next time you have a slip keep posting because that is the time that you need us more than ever and need loads and loads of support -xx

There are a few of us that have managed the 30 days, some are working up to it and others have had slips but have got straight back to it to :bat the :alf: right back to where he belongs

YES you were doing so well and NO you are not back to square one But Yes you have slipped back into old ways. Write down how many AF days you have done over the past 6/12 months and give yourself a big pat on the back for every one achieved. After all you did at least 10 on this last challenge to my knowledge THAT IS A THIRD OF THE TIME - so well done for that. You know you can do it when you set your mind to it. If it was that easy none of us would be here would we. WE all need the support regardless of what stage we have reached because the beast is always lurking to try and sweet talk his way back into our lives. How much TOPA are you on at the moment? You may need a higher dose before it kick starts into action.

December is really really tricky and is going to be a nightmare for all of us. I've done a December action plan which is on page 1 of the thread which a lot of us are going to follow, the main thing is to try and take it very easy over Christmas and make a commitment now to 30 AF in January. On a personal note I am going to use this time to see if I can Mod or whether I need a much longer AF period in my life. I get really worried at just the thought of it but I think most of us are in the same boat. So as Rustop says ODAT. Set yourself achievable goals - DO NOT SET YOURSELF GOALS YOU KNOW YOU CANNOT ACHIEVE BECAUSE YOU ARE SETTING YOURSELF UP TO FAIL WHICH IS DEMORALIZING AND WILL MAKE YOU DRINK EVEN MORE

Main thing is keep posting. Lots of love and support is winging its way to you as I type

Flutterby Hi feedback on that book would be greatly appreciated so let us know what we can easily do to help ourselves fight the beast. Even though I was sooooooooooo tired last night I didn't sleep very well and have woke up felling quite jaded this morning. My get up and go has got up and gone. But I will not resort to having a quick fix of alcohol - the beast can take a hike he is not conning me that easily!!! I will have a look at the thread and see what it says. The trouble with some of these detox books sites etc they make it soooooooooo hard to follow the plan that you tend to give up as soon as you have started. I hope this one may be different so let us know.

MWO does offer an achievable plan which is why I love it so much

Hello and good morning to everyone else

Will look in later again today

:groupluv: Sweetpea XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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************************* DAY 25 AF

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hey Cheryl. Not square 1, but day 1.

I was one week AF until last night. So, I'm day one again. But, I had felt SO FABULOUS physically, mentally, emotionally the last couple of days. Today, the headache, being grumpy, and feeling the depression trying to creep in, but I'm shutting the door on that one.

Didn't take the supplements yesterday or eat my quinoa yesterday. Stopped at my friend's house last night and actually asked for a drink, she didn't offer me one. Was about to go home, when her ex-boyfriend showed up. I call him the fat bastard. She's such a strong person, has been raising three fabulous kids, running her husband's business since he died 5 years ago last saturday. But she dumped him, because he was so verbally abusive, heavy drinker, so controlling. She didn't want to be alone with him, so I stayed and drank.

Walked home, 3 blocks way. Got within 50 feet of my house and saw a few guys standing around and one guy lying on the ground screaming. Having had several drinks, went over to him and talked to him, got him up on his feet and started walking, talking to him until the police came.

NOT SMART, also don't remember what we talked about. BUT, I'm learning so much about myself. I can't drink right now. I don't even want to, but beating myself up doesn't help.

Cheryl, I'll start day 1 with you today. It does get easier, especially with all of the fabulous friends here.

Oops,late for work, only happens when I drink.

Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to work I go. Hope I can be Happy today and not Grumpy (thanks Flutterby!)

Welcome back, Cheryl.