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[debruce]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea, thank you for asking and I am going ok. Doing AF days most of the time, just falling a little short on the Weekends. Not too badly though. If I was moderating I would say I was doing good, but I want to be AF so not as good. Still I am getting there and learning as I go along.
I read your posts everyday,sometimes twice a day. I am always here, but not always writing.
Hope everyone else is doing ok.
xxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:h DeBruce I am so glad you are doing fine because you know we are all rooting for one another to :bat the :alf: out of our lives

Take care have a good day

:l Sweetpea xx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea, you are so wonderful to remember and name everyone. You are a treasure.

I am going into work later today, in order to make some phone calls for my mom's estate, so will practice your technique, several times I'm sure. :thanks: :thanks:

I'm also going to take your advice to teardrop to heart.

after helping my mom take care of my grandmom with a stroke, my beloved dad with alzheimers and then my mom, the word "me" was not part of my vocabulary. It's been difficult the last two months since selling her house. I don't know what to do, so I drink. I did 7 days af, and felt unbelievably fabulous. I want to be there again.

I don't know if I mentioned this in previous posts, but after my mom died, I found a letter from one of my grandmom's cousins who had passed away, who gave names and addresses of other of her relatives. So, I contacted them and of the three, found Norma, my grandmother's first cousin, she is 97, lives alone, reads 5 newspapers a day, loves to read racy novels and knows more about sports than most men and looks and acts just like my grandmother.

What a find. Remembers seeing my grandmom at her sister's funeral, Mimi was wearing fishnet stockings, very scandelous!

I know I'm rambling but need to right now, I also need to start journaling in order to read what sets me off and what makes me strong.

Sweetpea, you are the best. Thank you so much for your support.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
Suki. I am so glad you found grandmas ring, Like Sweetpea I think she is your guardian angel and this is her sign to you that you are on the right track (things happen at the right time ) and maybe if you found it earlier it would not have seemed the symbol it is now.
Another quote;

"Aerodynamically the bumble bee should'nt be able to fly,but the bumble bee does'nt know it, so it goes on flying anyway" Mary Kay Ash

Sweetpea, Great I am still in ! l need to be Af till saturday though! Maths says had me lot of units! Next Sunday another birthday dinner! Might drive then though,(ust worry about today thats how got through last time)

Teardrop, Thanks for the support I appreciate it!

Debruce; Just to say Hi and know what you mean about weekends! I prefer Af takes the pressure of all the other decisions How much when what....... you know what I mean

Will check in later going out now, Have a great day everyone....Soooooo chuffed about the ring.....

[Eastender]

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Suki.
Must have been posting same time,
Your relative sounds a real Character bet she is a great laugh. I think she will be good for you having all that colourful experience in her 97 years. Stay close to her she may inspire you with the rest of the family. Keep posting I think of you a lot during my day, even spoke to Mr East about your ring.
Being AF will help you with all this serious stuff paperwork.....

[Cinders]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Suki - Like Eastender, I am "chuffed" (love that word!!) about the ring!! So glad you found it!!

Eastender - Your story about the dinner is so much like mine. When I first came to MWO, I wanted so badly to mod. BIG TIME!! I tried and tried and tried. In my case, though, the drinking got worse and worse instead of better and better.

I did figure out, though, that trying to mod is way too much effort for me. It is much easier just to go AF. My brain just starts going into overdrive thinking about, how much can I have, what will be too much, what if I want more, should I wait until the meal, how fast should I drink the wine, what day is it and how many have I had this week? OMG, when can I just enjoy myself??

Fortunately or unfortunately, I did finally figure out that in my case (okay, okay, I really knew it but didn't want to admit it) I am a true, hardcore alcoholic. Not one capable of mods anyway. But my playing around with mods taught me that I am lazy by nature and mods was just plain old too much work!! I need to keep with the KISS principle in all things.

Hope all have a great day!!
Cindi

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thank you Eastlander and Cindi.

I know that I can't do mod.

here is my horoscope from the great guy at the Toronto Star....

Virgo (Aug. 23 ? Sept. 22)
Monday, December 3, 2007
Turn the volume down on the worry gauge. Put aside certain negative details you are too keenly aware of. Even with the current state of tension and stress, it is clearly obvious that there is plenty of potential to bring forth something of great worth.

day 1 again. As 97 year old Norma would say, Cheerio, dearies!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Cindi

Not got to the stage where I know if I can Mod or not I suppose that everyone is different but I really want to give it a go

You worked so hard to get where you are now:yougo: :jumpin: keep at it and well done. We love hearing from you and getting your support

:h Sweetpea :l xx

[flutterby]

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Good morning everyone,
The good news is that I was really active this weekend :banana: It's the beginning of the end of my exercise strike. As those pent up endorphins kicked in, I was reminded of just how positive exercise can be. The bad news is that I might have overdone it just a tad.... I have bicycle (seat) butt not to mention a few joints that could use some oil. :-)

Anyway-- it was a beautiful weekend, all things considered. We are blessed to be over hurricane season (yeah!!!) without incident -- hurricanes happen to be a big bad trigger for me -- go figure.

Speaking of blessings...
Suki, given that God keeps score, you probably rate MVP status at this point. I suspect this year will be good for YOU and I'm sure your relatives are right there cheering you along.

Cindi- Moderation is not for everyone, myself included. For those of us who must follow the AF path, I sure that there is a pot of gold at the end. BTW-- the path loops back around sometimes but --as long as you stay on it, it generally goes in the right direction.

Hugs to Eastender, RU, Teardrop, and Debruce and...

Special hugs to our fearless leader Sweetpea. Doesn't her (pseudo) name just ooze fearlessness!:-)

Have a great Monday everyone.
Your pal,
Fby

[MissCheryl]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hey there everyone,

Been checking in once or twice and day and reading everyone's posts, just haven't had a moment to post myself... Still haven't got back on track since messing up during my weekend away 3 weeks ago.

At first I was telling myself, so what... so you drink wine. No big deal. Why stress over this so much. Just enjoy the dang wine if you want it. I was still feeling pretty good physically from my 10 AF days. I think I had "detoxed" myself. I was sleeping well, exercising, eating well and had lost a few pounds. I was productive at work and getting things done at home. I did miss the wine and it was a struggle but I certainly liked how I was feeling.

But, I am back now to feeling crappy. And, I don't like it. So, I am going to try to start over again today. Part of me thinks I shouldn't bother right now since it's December - alot of holiday parties, my sisters graduation party, my birthday, and we're travelling for Christmas, and then New Years. But, there will always be some reason or event to use as an excuse, right...

I've read over the December plan and it sounds really good. I just don't know if I can stick to it. I don't know if I can moderate at all. I obviously haven't been successful at it so far. I'm suspecting I may be one that is going to have to be AF... but how challenging during such a festive month!!

I'm feeling a little uncertain and not very confident in what I can do. The only thing I'm sure of is I want to get out of this cycle that I've put myself back in to... and I know there's no way I can make that happen if I keep drinking the wine.

So, here's to getting through Day 1 today.... I'll be checking in as much as I can.

Glad everyone here is doing well!
MissCheryl

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
Back after Xmas Shopping ,oooooohh how I could do with a drink.............
Anyway trying to change that thought by posting.

Db2f, You are dead right on that effort thing, I get tired just thinking about drinking now my mind goes into overdrive.

SuKi- Cheerio deariee was your elderly relative English?

Sweetpea- You are doing great, close to your target well done! I found I did not give much thought to what I would do last time. I Feel the same way about trying Mods as you although before MWO I had tried so many times calling it "cutting down".
I intend to experiment with your plan over the holidays and if I am not able to control the intake , it will be AF for more than January. The decision for me will be then.
I find (as db2f says) so complicated and stressful!

Fby- Ta for the Hug, Try a rubber ring to sit on ease your butt. I am so envious! I have never ridden a bike well enough to consider for exercise -plus London too full of articulated lorries and polution.

Miss Cheryl. Feel the same as you do miss my wine too but enjoy the wellbeing.
If we can do this in the worst month for socializing the rest of the year will be a doddle(cockney slang for easy)

Love you guys x

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Fby A special hug back it makes me feel so appreciated when I get lovely comments like that - thanks sooooo much xx

Cheryl lovely to hear from you. That beasts :alf: needs kicking into oblivion for the misery he causes everyone. The 10 days AF was really, really good so you know that you can achieve some AF time. WHAT YOU NEED TO DO NOW IS TRY AND BUILD ON IT. BUT Trying to set ourself targets at this time of year is very, very tricky because everywhere you look there is BOOZE, BOOZE, BOOZE, which is HELL, HELL ,HELL!! The Christmas plan is very flexible and if we can stick to it as much as possible that would be good. ALSO set our mind to trying for an AF January. It is a starting point whatever. We are all going to be on this rather :teeter: during December so it is even more important that we are there for one another. As I have only just achieved my first AF period I don't know just how I am going to be. It might be me :upset: next and in need of TLC I really just don't know. That beast has been lurking around for a few days now which has required some very serious talking to. But so far so good. Anybody got a shotgun handy!! So good luck with the Day one Remember ODAT

Suki keep practicing the technique. Has it helped?

Eastender forget the maths you should be able to get some AF time in before next Sunday XX

Anyway bye for now everyone take care

LOL Sweetpea :l xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Eastender we must have been posting at the same time. Getting Christmas shopping out of the way is always a relief. Yep the first thing I wanted to do before I found MWO when I had been shopping was to have a drink - In fact it was all I thought about as I was :racer: driving home. So well done on the posting instead of reaching for the drink. Being so close to my 30 day AF target has kept me very focused but I am still looking forward to that first drink :nutso: :bang I must be mad after so long off it!!!

:l Sweetpea xx

[Eastender]

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Sweetpea. Thanks, I seemed to loose my focus after the 30 days and that chilled bottle of my favorite stuff became a problem, I knew that if I was to drink at home I would not control myself. Funny enough that same bottle is still in the chiller now 4 weeks old! How mad is that!

[MissCheryl]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all....:hithere:

Checking in again... I really do not feel so great today. I hate to say this but the only thing that I think will make me feel better is to have some wine. I'm really shaky and wondering if maybe I shouldn't just stop abruptly... Hopefully, my mind isn't just making excuses for me, but I'm going to go ahead and have SOME. And I really am going to try to make it just SOME. We'll see.... And tomorrow hopefully I'll feel a little less cruddy and can have a completely AF day and get started.... ray:

Also, today I went to the Vitamin store... picked up Milk Thistle and L-Glut powder. The whole time I'm talking to the people there I'm thinking "They know exactly why I'm getting this..." Kept talking about using L-Glut after workouts, and Milk Thistle for "cleansing", but I couldn't help but wonder if they're thinking "Yeah, right... you drink too much. We know why you're really getting this stuff". But, I just don't care. I just want/need to do whatever I can and whatever I have to so that alcohol isn't running my life anymore. Also thinking about ordering Kudzu. But, I'm also on Topa and titrating up on that - I see my doc again on Wednesday. Maybe I need to settle into that and these other supps first...? Getting a little overwhelmed trying to remember which meds/supps do what....

For those of you who take L-Glut and/or Topa... when and how much do you take? I've read a few posts where folks take it right before their "witching hour", when they usually start their drinking. Maybe as they're leaving work for example. Topa for migraines is taken in the am and pm, but some have said they take it just once a day at "drinking time". Same with L-Glut and Kudzu for that matter. Would really like to hear what works best for you.... as I am confused.

Okay, off to try to get some things done around here.... Hope I'm not making a mistake allowing myself wine tonight. Sad to say, but it has helped this shaky feeling already. I just will be sure to stop before I overdo and then make myself be shaky all over again tomorrow.... damn, what a viscious, crappy cycle.... Grrrrrr.

Thanks for listening... yet again.... :l
MissC