FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hiya everyone.

sweetpea hope you are ok, thinking of you!
Eastender i like the sound of xmas crackers. I notice when i dont drink, i dont need to take paracetamol in the morning. Does feel good!
Yesterday my daughter made stir fry in school she is eleven, so last night she wanted to make us dinner and she did stir-fry chicken it was delicious.
i hope it stops raining B'cause i'm going to me stuck in the class with noisy kids, maybe i will take a paracetamol. I do like to be out in the play ground cant beat the good fresh Air!

Take it easy everyone.x
Love
Teardrop.x

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Eastender, Teardrop, and all yet to post....

We could also be considered firecrackers --which would be a cross between fireworkers and xmas crackers. As a matter of fact, this fits well with my mood last night. My fuse sizzled for a while and then I exploded with a lot of uncharacteristic f-wording for effect. My husband was not amused but I somehow felt better. Anyway, I know that I keep things inside for too long and it is not a good thing. Better to get stuff out in the open where you can see it, feel it, then get rid of it. This takes practice (at least for me) and in the meantime I guess there will be ups and downs :teeter: not to mention the drama queen mood swings. Hopefully my recovering biochemistry will even things out in a while. They say you will go through an "adjustment" period as the toxins are oozing out of your body. "Hey body" yelled the drama queen, --- ADJUST THIS!! (don't have the right smilie for this line but you get the picture).

I hope Sweetpea is on her way back up .... we miss you Sweetie! Does anyone know how long she was going to be away?

Let's all send her positive vibes.....

xox
Fby

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Teardrop,
Lunchtime now and that chicken stirfry is making me feel hungry!
Eleven and she can do that! I could not boil an egg at 18! Encourage her while she is keen my 17 year old has cottoned on now and disappears at cooking time!

Fby.. Sweetpea should be back next tuesday, so got to keep the carpets vacuumed and the washing up done around here, so its sparkling for her return.

My vibes with yours and anyone else who wants to add please!!! She always helped me with her chirpy and boy what a memory that woman has!

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Sweetpea, we are thinking of you and sending you good vibes. Its great when someone else cooks isnt it Teardrop. I have a 15 year old who does it sometimes but boy the mess is something else, I have to stay out of the kitchen.

Flutter, I think Firecrackers is a great name. Feel I'm crackers half the time anyways!!

Rustop

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Just downed a bottle of wine feel so damned annoyed with myself.
Emotions again ! will write tomorrow going to bed before I open another one!

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Eastender,
Sorry about you feeling annoyed with yourself. Know the feeling. Wanna do ODAT with me? We can start tomorrow if you are up for it.

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hiya flutteerby, Eastender, Rustop and all to come!

Flutterby: i'm like you keep a lot of thinks inside and then i explode not very health i must say. Love the poem.

Eastender: today is another day, hope all is well. Well yesterday i went tesco and the demon lady was giving out free shots of baileys could not help myself, ended up buying a bottle of wine. God i can be so easily lead.

Rustop: The kitchen look like a bomb hit it. Lots of washing and drying. Tonight i'v a xmas "do" to go to, i will be drinking but will try very hard not to drink like a fish.

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

P.s I forgot sending positive vibes as well for sweetpea.x

Take it easy everyone.x
Love
Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,
I feel so upset this morning, was crying and my first thought was to look at MWO.
It was so nice to see all your comments and particularly Fby poem.
I have a very explosive 17 year old at home that has just slammed the door.
This is my third child and only one at home. I thought I had it hard with the other two but this one takes the biscuit, I am always her punchbag. I sometimes do not know what to do with her. She certainly is one of my triggers! She loves to shock me ,although I don't think other than murder there is not anything left.
It is something I can't keep away from like pubs or parties! How can you distance yourself?
My bottle last night was to contain my anger, unlike Fby I am explosive when sober in anycase.No ,it is not better to let it out you get into deeper problems.
I was annoyed with myself that I let my anger break my AF day,( but I was also in danger of going further) so I went to bed.
I feel like s@@t today not because of the drink so much,(that was mild for me) but that I know I am stronger than this, but I just can't seem to cope with these hurtful emotions.
My mum says its Perimenapause, maybe it is I just don't know anymore.

Fby.Yes I will join you for ODAT
Teardrop . Thank you for your kind words, I try to avoid the wine section in Tesco it is deadly.

I really appreciate your words you guys, I do not know what I would do today if not for MWO.

Love East

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

sweetpa and friends

hope all is well with all.
Sweetpea, looking forward you your return, sure you vacation did you the world of good.

Haven't been here for a few days, don't have time to explain now, but will when I get home from work.

Am spending my next few minutes organizing sups. Haven't taken them for a few days and feel my self sliding down from my high moods after going into work wednesday, getting soooo much support from my boss and his boss, blew me away. Must say that support can make the world of difference.

Then a few triggers.....family members. Stopped ay my friend's house, because I knew she would offer me a drink or two. We just have the best time together, but the next morning when I talk with her, she's in a good mood, I'm in the bits, because I had a drink.

Thinking about you Eastender. I have to start walking up earlier to get on the computer and spend more time here.

Oh well, onward and upward.

Missed you all.

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all,
Here is the poem Desiderata in its entirety. I like to read it when I get anxious -- it helps to put things in perspective and will sometimes keep me from triggering.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

So.... it's ODAT Friday. Let's go out and make it a good one!
Eastender --Let's try trading triggers. Since I do not like going to pubs or parties very much you can give me that trigger so you won't have to worry about it. I will give you my daily commute (it's always a tense ride) then I can relax and not worry about it. :H :H
Will check in with you after work to see how our respective ODATs went.
xox
Fby

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Fby. Printed out your poem thank you, it will go alongside one that is hanging in my house that I have read frequently over the years, Thought I would share it;

Lifes Spirit

Let no man take your Spirit and mould it to his own,
Hold it closely to you, til it be fully grown,
Let no one commandeer it, lest he should crush its wings,
For its from the very heart of man
The bird of spirit springs,
Let no pain grind it slowly,into bitter dust,
For it shall bring you strength to fight
Through sick and wounding thrust.
Let no voice speak against it above the winds of life,
For the voice of spirit brings you
The prayer of peace, through strife,
And when you think you're nothing
And the light of life is low,
Its the flame from spirits candle
that shows the way to go,
So love your Spirit,love it well,
for it shall never fail
To bring you strength and hope and light
Upon lifes hard fought trail.

Lynn New

I am trying to look after my Spirit the "good guy" within me by being AF today!

check in later xx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Eastlander, that poem was absolutely amazing. It was printed out and handed out to all of my friends at work and put on my fridge at home.

I don 't know where you come up with all of these incredible, inspiring themes and where the incredible quotes come from. You should be an author. copywriter. Your words, your thoughts are amazing.
Flutterby, just read you're poem. I've had an 18 hour day. Will comment tomorow. Amazing how days can blend one into another.

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone....
Hope all is okay.
xox
Fby

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hiya Firecrakers are we now? hope every one Ok,

Suki . You sound so bright and breezy things at work better now? From what I gather from your threads you are getting support at work now that must be a great help to you.
Thanks for the compliment,I did not write the quotes ,wish I had ,they just inspire me and also others so it seems!
I am always looking for a reason for everything and these words seem to quieten my restless curiosity!

Fby... Sorry did not make the AF yesterday went to a family members Birthday party and I surrendered to the beast but only a couple of glasses.
Yesterday morning I felt so depressed and told hubby would not be going out. but did the clearing cd track one and two and felt great afterwards. My mood lightened it was amazing never thought it would work because I chuckled at the word. Hummock!
ODAT today for sure have another birthday dinner Sunday! OH boy December is soooooo hard!

Will check in later. XX