FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning firecrackers!
I just wrote a long post and then hit a key that blew me back to the main page and poof-- everything was gone. ARRGH!!! Maybe it was MOWs way of telling me to KISS.
Anyway, my point was that I think we are all doing a good job of making progress ODAT.

We are seeking improvement-- not perfection.
:thumbs: Each day we stop beating ourselves up is a good day.
:thumbs:Each day we reach out through MOW or others for support and understanding is a good day.
:thumbs:Each day we keep working our recovery program is a good day.

This will lead to a string of AF days and, at our own pace, we will realize that maintaining an AF lifestyle becomes more natural. The fear of those dreaded trigger events will be replaced with a healthier way of relating to holidays, socializing, and celebrating in general. This I know from experience. Up until a couple of years ago I had 10 AF years. Then I let a super stressful situation get to me and guess who raised its ugly head? This time around I have the tools and support for alternative ways to deal with stress. No more fooling around -- you MUST work a program that integrates mind and body healing so you have the strength to recover and the wisdom to make decisions that support a healthy AF lifestyle.

That's all for now... I want to get this posted before I blow it away again!
:h xxx
Have a wonderful day.
Fby

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HERE-HERE Fby.
I go along with all what you said, I am finding it a little easier not to beat myself up ,that in turn keeps me in tow, so I don't need to reach out for my crutch (drink) an ever decreasing circle that speeds up once you are caught in its grips.
Yes very well put!!!
Love Eastx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Flutterby and Eastender, your quotes constantly amaze me and inspire me. You two must spend a lot of time reading, which I used to but don't now.

Fby, your three "each days" are also going up on my fridge.

It does get easier, each day, not beating myself up. But, I keep making excuses, the holidays, being alone, toxic family (yes work has been FABULOUS, trying to get me time off (paid) due to the stress of what I've been going thru), but I keep making excuses. But it is up to me. If I can do 7 days af once, I CAN DO IT AGAIN.

Love this thread, same to all of you.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Suki and everyone to come,
Suki .My, you must have a huge fridge!:H
I always love to read, but seem to not have enough freetime,any I have is spent on MWO!
Just wondered how everyone else who started on this thread is doing?
Sweetpea always started with a role call, what a memory she has.
If any of the original fireworkers are out there reading this maybe you could leave a short report so she can catch up on her return Tuesday.
I visit daily and its hard to keep up!

I hope sweetpea likes the new title of firecrackers fby!
I know she will love the threepoints you made yesterday, I DO. :goodjob:
On backtracking on my posts I have been like naughty child since she has been away, I do miss her organised, focused pointmaking posts......

I have a birthday party lunchtime today, Hope I survive drunk free!
I am getting used to attending these social gatherings now and feeling better about it.
Must be a bit like exposure therapy, You know confront your demons type thing!

I feel like a young puppy that has had the newspaper taken away. Make sure you think ahead and scratch at the door when you get the urge!

Have a great Mod AF (whatever floats your boat)Sunday everyone

East x

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Shameful, Sinfull Silly PEA Has been dancing with the BEAST!!

:sofa: Morning Everyone I'm home and couldn't wait to get onto MWO and see how you were all doing. I think the heading says it ALL!! HOW HOW could I have been SO STUPID:bang I have spent the last few days thinking about how I was going to confess to you all about my sinful liaison with the beast - it did keep me from going overboard while I was away but what did I do before reality struck home!!

Totally ignored all my own good advice = Stupid Pea

BUT

I spent the last few days thinking about what I was going to write - that was before I had all your wonderful posts of support - So I now feel with those wonderful vibes being sent my way that there is only one thing for it ODAT draw a line under a days blip and start again. Dust myself down, think about the wonderful support I am getting, Get back on the horse and get my fighting irons out again to fight the :alf:

I am not going to even let him have space on my next post
DOWN WITH THE BEAT DOWN WITH THE BEAST


LOL Sweetpea xxxxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

FIRECRACKERS (love the new name) THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL SUPPORT

:l Now I have got my confession out of the way - it has been resting very heavily on my shoulders - I feel that I can move forward. I have always admitted that I am a newbie and I live and learn each day. ALL the advice and support I have given over the last few weeks has been returned with equal love and understanding. Thank you so much for being there for me. I have felt such a failure the last few days but have now realized that it was a journey that I had to take to give me a better understanding of what it is all about ODAT is the only way forward and it will be a constant battle - I don't know for how long but maybe for life. But every AF day, every day that we don't go OTT and moderate is a good day and we must not let the triggers get the better of us. Family stuff had been building up for a couple of weeks and I let it get the better of me - thought I have done my 30 Days :durn: but of cause I had not learned!!

So on wards and up wards

Firstly want to say a VERY BIG THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT XXXX :h I adore all the poems and will get round to reading and digesting them more in depth later

On more personal notes

THANK YOU TO

Elainey your very kind word of encouragement just added to my feeling of being surrounded by friends - thank you xx

Wakeupmom I think you were absolutely right about my comfort blanket. I am so stupid it is like when I have been on a diet for a few weeks Yep I can now eat all the forbidden fruits - NOT. Knowing I was going away and would not be able to post put me off track but I am now up and running again - xx

Teardrop I love Baileys as well but you did only have the taster so well done - xx

Flutterby Love what you wrote
"We are seeking improvement-- not perfection.
Each day we stop beating ourselves up is a good day.
Each day we reach out through MOW or others for support and understanding is a good
day.
Each day we keep working our recovery program is a good day."
Thank you I will keep referring to this to keep me on the straight and narrow - xx

Suki glad things are looking up at work with more support from them it should make life a lot easier for you - xx

Rustop yep I will keep focused - xx

Eastender you seem to be having a few bad days as well. I wish I had been here to give some support to you. Thank you so much for all your kind words I wish I could have returned them along with everyone Else's at the time you needed them most. BUT I am here now and send you loads and loads of good vibes and love - xx

Well on a more than boring note I better go and unpack and do the washing!!

Love you all loads will post again later when I have settled back in

:l Sweetpea XXXXXXXXXXXXX

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Sweetpea and everybody,
Glad to see you back Sweetpea!
As you probably have read I have been very naughty myself, Yesterday also included, went to lunch with old friends ,fine there at the restaurant, Keep to the rules, BUT........
5pm at the house gave in! All the friends unaware of my 33 days AF till Mr East mentioned in conversation, and everyone laughed! What faith they have in me!

Anyway, Feel little tired ,but OK today. I did not get drunk and show myself up so small steps eh?:H

I think you are right sweetpea, ODAT for me, have tried to keep to it with Fby but failed miserably! SORRY FBY!!!!!:upset:

Start ODAT today for sure !(my social calender quiet until 16th) I am sooooo behind with everything for Xmas.

Sweetpea How did you like Firecrackers as the new name?

Will check in later to catch up.

Eastx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea and all, did my own slipping this weekend. Pretty bad. Triggers...actually got up at 3:30 am to get some paperwork done that I have been putting off. Today seems a bit different, I feel I am beginning to face things head on, instead of being in denial. Hope this is the beginning of at least another 7 days AF.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Suki,
Paperwork at 3.30!!!!!!
You are doing great, Stick with it and you will get there in the end

I know what you mean, that there is sort of a change in the accountable thing, like a new awareness, thinking a bit more about the reason why to have that drink!
The past has gone and we cannot change anything that has happened.WE CAN change the way we think about it in the future! Isn't that refreshing! Each moment is a new me, however I want to be ,and it is MY choice no one elses.


Eastx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi My Lovely Firecrackers

Eastender JUST LOVE FIRECRACKERS AS THE NEW NAME - ANYBODY KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THE THREAD TITLE???


Question - Can your mood change so quickly because I seem to be swaying from one feeling to an other very quickly at the moment _ sign of depression I suspect. But hey still feeling a ton better than I did at the end of last week.

Eastender we are all there to help each other in times of need. I have NEVER NEVER thought that this month was going to be easy BUT we just have got to keep going ODAT to reach a plateau and have good AF sessions and not get legless. I have got folk coming round next Sunday but still can't quite get my head round to being AF till then. Got to keep working on it though


Suki keep going you can do it

:l Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea, I know that when I drinking, my depression gets sooo much worse. Anxiety attacks. Those 7 days i was AF, taking the supps, logging in here, listening to the cds and eating my new favorite quinoa, I was in such a good mood, can't remember when I felt so good.

Eastender you are right about accountability and you are right about the past and looking forward to the future.

My grandmother used to say "never regret what you have, only regret what you haven't done". If I don't beat this beast, I'll regret it the rest of my life.

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

oops, meant to say, never regret what you have done, only what you have not done.

Sorry!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Suki

With you on this one

never regret what you have done, only what you have not done.

On wards and up wards my faithful friends We will banish the beast

Sweetpea XXXXXXXXXXX :h

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Have had a busy few days doing family stuff so have been missing my MWO fix. It was lovely this morning to log on read all the lovely poems. Eastender, know exactly how you feel, I reckon we should install swinging hinges on all our doors. Have a 13 and a 15 year old!! Also feel I could be entering perimenopausal, ugh!!

On the bright side am on Day 42 so feeling good about that. Am going to nice Dinner at week-end and will probably drive, have to decide will I/wont I have half/one glass of wine with dinner. Because I'm driving it will not be more than that, I never drink and drive and socially I have always been ok. Its the at home drinking that has caused problems. Having had so much AF time the last few months I feel a lot more confident but know I need to stay close to MWO. Thanks for all the support. Have a great week everyone.

Rustop

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Rustop,
I am so pleased for you Well done on your 42 days!:goodjob:

I remember we started together on your day 1 my first hiccup at day 33, got 5 more AF before this weekend, So, looking on the bright side only 4 bad days instead of 42!!!!!:H

I was reading on the teenagers thread that one parent solved the door slamming by taking the door off! :H How brilliant is that!

Only thing is the favorite door is the front door, lots of sercurity issues there!

might try for some sort of closer...Hmmmmmmm........