FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hiya everyone,

Yesterday I when to my councelling session. Not a lot of people turn up. Any way it seems that everyone seems to be doing well expect for me and this other person. Theres one guy there that has stop drinking for 2years now, and still gets the urge to drink once a week. Also everyone seems to have a PLAN on xmas day. ( wish i could be strong like them) but some of them have hit rock bottom so i should count my lucky stars in some ways. When they ask me how i felt about xams i did tell them about my brother and cryed. But later they ask if i had a PLAN for xmas day. The good thing is going to inlaws so i will be driving and will not be drinking. But i was honest and said when i get home i will open all my favourie drinks like baileys, port with cheese, and then on to the wine and so on.(felt really bad saying the truth)
I did have a bottle of wine last night but without the extra cans of ciders afterwards. Sometimes i think to my self WHY do i want to drink is it b'cause i need to know or need to remind myself what drink does to me and how it makes me feel like. This morning it made me feel like a bag of shit. Had a shower and made sure it was on cold water to wake me up big time!!

Lets all stay positive! and Thank all you again for your support.


Today i will not drink and just think about today.

love.x
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:huggy

Just a quick to post to say I am thinking of you all and sending loads of support your way. Will write in depth tomorrow. Please take care everyone you know we are here for you

:armsaround: :lol3: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Everyone!

Today NO BUILDERS HORRAY! :goodjob: Back again tomorrow though with skips more tools of mayhem noise and mess!:upset:
In a strange way as I looked about the rubble yesterday, I was thinking about all your words of "a process". Yes, in order for my home to be the way I want it I have to go through this stage of mayhem to get there! Sound familiar to you at the moment ?
Thats us guys we need this stage of slips (mess) to get to where we want to be!
I so missed being able to get on line. Between trying to work, (I work fom home, )making tea tidying up and coping with other family crisis's, I had no time to think ,until late at night when I was so tired my brain would not stay awake!
BUT despite all of the above (and desperately needing one) I DID NOT DRINK!!!!! Day 3 AF today.
So I do believe that I can safely say I joined you in spirit Flutterby without Knowing of your quest until this morning!

Sweetpea. I don't know so much about the highly polished surfaces, never taken after my mother on that one! Not just dust here but Tar as well my extention roof is getting new roof,leaked since the last builders did our loft extension!
I am with you on the Mod thing, it just seems impossible at the moment when everyone expectations is that you should be making merry.
I too have not had stessbuster time to listen to the tapes, the place was soooooo noisy it would have been impossible.
Taking on other peoples issues has always been my problem but I know I have to step back now. Mr East said that we have more years behind us than infront, so I MUST start to be more "selfish", it is hard when it is not in your nature.
Sweetpea, Upset you are allowed to be, but don't ever let me hear you say worthless, look at all the hope YOU have brought to us.

Rustop. You are my hero, When I grow up I want to be just like you!

Suki. With you on the Party thing,I always find that drinking when I feel low is totally the wrong thing to do. The last few times that I have drank this month were when I felt good , in good company , and Happy BUT not able to control the amount I drank, one turned into 5( you know what I mean). You last post was your 4th day AF, you know when I did the 30 day thing that point was the worst for me too. I had that hangover feeling as well,after that it got better. I do so hope you managed to "walk on by" at McCarthys when parking your car.
I know nothing about American law on house sales,I wish I could offer some advice,but I DO KNOW that the world over there are greedy B>>>>>>ds, (usually that come from family out of the woodwork) where money is involved.
Getting angry at this time is good for you,it is your spirit helping to give you the strength you need to fight,remember my poem? The drink can send our spirit to sleep so that we avoid dealing with things our concience tells us we should, I know that now.
I am so proud of you Suki you have come a long way. What is wrong with Tea and Quinoa anyway?

Flutterby. I love that name, YES i am up for the challenge,not keen on the tightrope though!You are right if not now when,so where do I sign........
Teardrop.Well done on your 2 cans and your one bottle, wish I could have stayed at that.
Of course you are doing well, You are doing something being here and going to councelling. PLAN? I do not have plan for Xmas yet, I am coping with today. Anyway I always say "we make plans and God laughs". He always has another game to play!
Please don't let it get to you . You are a lot tougher than me a COLD shower Yikes!

Wakeup mom. Thanks for the words and hugsxx

Debruce,Don't be so harsh with yourself , 7 days to two you are a mod already.Keep it up you are doing great.

Db2F. Welcome Glad you too are a firecraker,

I love you all, and think about you often, Take care:h

Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

morning everyone,
Eastender i loved reading your post. Thats good news no builders today, good luck for 2morrow. The guy that did my loft he lived in the same area, he knew a lot of people i knew, we ended up having a great laught actually. He always thought i was unlucky because everything use to go wrong around .
Did not touch a drink last night, but only got 5hours sleep. Need to catch up later on, if i can, i do like to have my 8 hour sleep. In the evening i'm going ice skating but outside with my daughter (youth club) at canary wharf. ( thank god i can skate.) i think i need to put my legging on under my jeans to keep warm.
Need to put my stamps on my xmas cards now, had the stamps for days. busy weekend if i dont check in tomorow, i will on sunday taking my son up to northamptonshire skatepark, and i think they have internet there, so i might catch up on some really old post.
wishing you all in good frame of mind.
p.s nice to have you aboard db2

Take it easy everyone.xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Love
Teardrop.x

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Well done Eastender and Teardrop. All those AF nights add up. I am dosed with a cold at the moment so it makes things very easy, a drink is the last thing I feel like. Mind you I would not recommend feeling like this full time even if it did keep me AF!!

Am rushing off to a funeral at the moment so will catch you all later.

Rustop

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning all.

My horoscope for today:

Virgo (Aug. 23 ? Sept. 22)
Friday, December 14, 2007
There have been moments recently, when you weren?t sure whether to laugh or cry. You have a clear victory to celebrate, (starting dat 5af but it is also clear that another problem is intensifying. the lawsuit by those good old family friends, the real estate agents Your ability to see the funny side of life holds the key to your success.

Commute home from hell. 1 mile took over 5 hours. Had to move my car (park on a main street) by 2 pm or would have been towed ...$150 usd to get it out. Parked the car in a parking garage, free to residents during snow storms, walked to the bus stop, which is right across the street from McCarthy Bros., my local liquor store. Stayed there 45 minutes, waiting, covered with snow, before deciding to go in, get warm. Walked in and was greeted with a chorus of "you'll do anything for a drink!" Nope, I said, just in to warm up and buy a lottery ticket, Could use that $163 million.

Walked back outside, waited another 45 minutes and just imagined the Firecrackers (Sweetpea in her cheerleading uniform :yougo: ) and all of the rest of you cheering me on. A cup of tea never tasted so good when I got home.

East....good for you for not drinking during all that mess. Nice quiet day for you, I hope. You are right to step back from other's problems. Something I have to do. Felt so quilty about leaving work before everyone else, especially when the all gave me grief, offered to make caesar salad with grilled shrimp for everyone in my department, Why do I always have to try to please everyone. And I come last.

Db2F, I too am glad you are a Firecracker, your knowledge and wisdom are so important to all of us getting to where we need to be.

Fby, I have a new morning pattern, getting feeding the cats and strays, make a cup of herbal tea, taking my meds for anxiety, depression, getting back too bed wit my laptop and checking in here. Looking forward to your poems and quotes. That and reading other posts had made the start of each day so positive.

Rustop, hope you are feeling better. How many days today?

Teardrop, a cold shower, have to try that. Debruce, wakeupmom and all else, have a great day.

Each day I feel stronger, more in control. It is giving me the confidence to believe that I will be able to find a new job at my age and not wait until July, to get my severance package. The more I am here, the more af days I do, the more slips, I'm getting to know and believe in myself again. Getting to take the blinders off and see what, what situations are good for me, which are toxic. Thanks to you all. :thanks:

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers one and all

I always feel good when I am chatting to you all. This positive mental attitude seems to be helping so on wards and up wards WE CAN DO IT WE CAN DO IT

Rustop so sorry you are flued up lots of TLC from us all - Hot lemon water with honey and a lemsip should hit the spot (I think mine has always had whiskey or brandy in it!!) NOT NOW of course :H Got to keep in this AF mode


Suki I smile when I see the cheerleader :yougo: it really brightens my day to think that I am being of some help to you all. It is definitely a two way street thanks xx Glad you are feeling more positive - 5 hours to get home God that cup of tea must have tasted like nectar You are right we must - "Walk on By" when we get tempted. Well done on just buying the lottery ticket. If you win maybe we could meet up somewhere for a FIRECRACKERS PARTY :band2: WE could always do it in mind if not in spirit!!

Cindi glad you are with us on this one and we must continue with the positive mental attitude


Flutterby the good vibes and positive energy from the smilies will always be there for you xx the idea of a tight rope with no safety net scares me a bit though!!

Teardrop we are all in a state of mind on how we are going to cope over CHRISTMAS but YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Although you are not AF you are cutting down so at least you are making tiny positive steps. Keep at it YOU CAN DO IT. Today you are sounding much more positive - don't know whether I could do the skating but I know it is a fun thing to do So well done I would love to be able to say I can skate. Looking forward to your next post whenever you can make it xx

Eastender here's to the time we can put the stress buster tapes back on - should do us good. I have had a couple of extensions done and it is really, really worth it but just before Christmas it must feel like you are being invaded. But the builders will come when they can come and there is precious little we can do about it. - unless you want to pay 3 x times the price of course!! - Hey dust is OK add a bit of talc and say it is snowing!! I would normally say have a glass of wine and you won't notice but I think someone will get big Al's bat and bash me one if I said it on this site :H NO NO NO I AM A REFORMED CHARACTER!! REALLY REALLY I AM. On a serious note with Xmas decs up no body who is important will give a toss if things are a bit on the dusty side - operative word being IMPORTANT. VERY WELL DONE ON YOUR AF DAYS

Well folks must dash and get some work done
Loads of love to you all

Keep up the AF status or nearly for those who are not quite managing it

SWEETPEA XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning firecrackers,
Okay -- forget about the tightrope -- I was caught up in the drama :-)
It would be better to imagine navigating the balance beam. Any gymnists out there? My goal is to be able to gracefully walk the length of it without flailing my arms and legs to keep from falling --like I am doing now. I know if I slip I can get back up and keep trying but it would sure be nice not to have to use all that flailing energy just to stay on top. Nevermind how ridiculous it looks.
Have a great Friday everyone,
xox
Fby

[wakupmom]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi you lovely people!
Just catching up on the news,and wanted to wish you all a good weekend.As i have said before this is a great thread.Well done Sweet for bringing these firecrackers together.Whether you are up or down its a comfort to know you are looking out for each other.Such a strange time off year.Lots of stress,reflection.Thank you for being there xx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Wakupmom thank you so much for your positive comments it means sooooo much to me when I have such positive comments. It does take time and effort to keep the ball rolling but it is soooooo worth it because I am so committed to keeping the gang together

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[wakupmom]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

You are welcome sweet i think you are great! Sleep well xx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi everyone,
yes i did gymnastia ( cant spell right) but it was a way out for me ,(big time) when thinks gone wrong i just had hide big time!
Well flutterby , thank you for making me realizing that i have to balance big time. Did it today on ice skating and maybe i go and do again. maybe with me it may take that little more and more and more and more TIME any way who care's b'caus i don't care any more!
Love
Teardrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

i'am really sorry sorry i have toooo much to drink ! never going to get my head round this. i wish i could.

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea, you are the greatest! Here is you keeping it together award.. :award:
Teardrop you also deserve a keeping it together award for hanging in. :award:
Please don't feel so bad. We love you and hope you feel better soon.
Love,
Fby

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

NO SWEETPEA, IF I WIN THE LOTTERY, IT's A FIRECRACKERS PARTY ON ME.

I'm going through withdrawal, not AL....my company has blocked my access to MWO. Couldn't get on today.

Teardrop, you are going to get your head around this. I stopped at my best friend's house tonight, on the way home from work, another thankless 10 hour day. Heard from my lawyer today, about the greedy real estate agents suing me.

My best friend's husband choked to death 5 tears ago this time, when the kids were 11, 13 and 16. We had two drinks together tonight (there goes my 5 days AF), but you know what...it was different, I had a couple of drinks with my best friend, her mother and with her kids, watching a stupid holiday movie. And I know that it won't get to where it used to be.

But I told her how important you all are to me. She constantly thinks about doing what's best for her kids, since she is now a single parent. Teardrop, I've read about you taking your daughter ice skating and your son to the skatepark. What do you do for yourself?

My friend will eventually get on MWO, not so much for going AF, but perhaps for going mod, but more importantly, for the support from all of you.

Teardrop, you do need to balance time to make sure you have enough for yourself. You need to care, You are important. And you have to care for you. I didn't for myself for such a long time. And now that I do, it makes such a difference.

I don't have the stress of having kids to make sure they are happy, but being as close to my friend and sister and their kids, I know how stressful it can be.

Hope you and all the other Firecrackers have a great weekend.

xxxxx
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