FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:yay: Sweetpea is back in town and feeling in a right :yougo: frame of mind. I had a really great weekend - So all you wonderful Firecrackers old, new and visiting crackers lets go for it and grab some happiness and tranquility in our lives WE DESERVE IT - Eastender, Rustop61, FinallyRN, Suki411, Teardrop, db2fromala, gabby1go, Roz and Sis, cuckoosnest83, flutterby, cowgal, Finski, slightlysuze, evergreen, MissCheryl, Leebo, Amelia, wonderworld, CaptJBean, paula, debruce, Janice, exteacher, retteacher, Feeling Fortunate, betty boop, meditation mama, Cheebs, Veronica, xEmx, Start over, Izzie, Raoul, Janka, Rags, Doggygirl, Livewire, Chief, blondie, Victory, Wakeupmum, Long Road, Sante, Bookmum, Elainey, Gator, Rosalind, Lukalee, Rudemama, headless1, Redgal, Determinator, Had12many, Lou,9 lives, fjones, Sparkey77,indiamike57, Mattje, Ezekiel37, MDbiker, Croft and anybody that I may have missed I AM SENDING YOU ALL STRONG VIBES OF LOVE AND SUPPORT

Suki how did you get on yesterday? We were all thinking of you and praying that everything turned out alright for you LOLove xx East is right about your sister regarding the therapist - Maybe we should send her back to school to learn what therapists jobs are all about!! She certainly needs to learn a hell of a lot more about things in life before she starts trying to dictate to you. Actually I have just thought on how to become a millionaire I am going to open a SCHOOL FOR INTERFERING SIBLINGS to teach them how to keep their noses out of other folks lives - I think I might get quite a few takers!!!

Ezekiel 28 AF days is fantastic you have done really well. MWO has taught me that everyone is quite different with varying degrees of success. We all need to be vigilant because big AL is always lurking and ready to strike when we least expect it. BUT you are half way there in realizing that already so be assured your Firecrackers buddies are always here to support you to reach the goals you set yourself. So keep at it and onwards and upwards to day 29

Teardrop now I am feeling a lot better I need to take a leaf out of your book and get fitter and healthier - Not too sure about a bike though because in my case it's "does my bum look big on that!!!! HA HA" But there are loads of other ways to get fit so I have no excuse. Your new avatar is really great makes me think of looking through to a brand new world where big AL has been banished and everything is tranquil and peaceful

Rustop 30 AF days today - What a shining example of a really good Cracker - Well done you are an inspiration to us all. We will all follow your advice of ODAT because it does work and helps keep our minds on small manageable goals that culminates into greater things. You are right, we may not be completely AF yet but we are NOT drinking a bottle of wine a night. I think most of us on this thread have managed to greatly reduce our daily intake of alcohol thanks to the support from you and the other Firecrackers xx

Evergreen, I am back with you on the ODAT because I had a couple of drinks over the weekend. Nothing too much. If I could control my drinking like that all the time I would not have a problem!! :H But we all know that big AL doesn't quite work like that so there is no excuse for kidding myself. So it is back on the train my friend grab my hand and lets get back into an AF frame of mind - WE CAN DO IT

Eastender hello my friend this maths equation will take some working out in my case so I think I will go for Day 1 (or would it be really naughty to go for the 30 days I had in November and + or - from today HA HA no I think that might be pushing it or not!!!) It was great to chat the other day with you and RN. Hope those dustbunnies have now hopped away and things are starting to take shape


RN enjoyed the chat. I am so looking forward to seeing surfing Ringo soon. How are you today - not working too hard as normal!!! You deserve to have loads of relaxation time because you are so worth it and do a fantastic job nursing everyone else. So DON'T forget to be good to yourself as well LOLove xx

Finski fantastic to hear from you. We have all missed you. I too have been struggling after my 30 days in November BUT get your parties out of the way and jump onto the AF train ODAT. We are all here to pull you on board and shower you with loads of support

Hi Lukalee hope you are doing great

Erin are you alright we have not heard from you in ages? We miss you let us know how you are doing

Anyway folks better get some work done or else. Take care everyone

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi to all you firecrackers.

Ezekiel you are doing so well. i'm still learning and i think the people here that have been AF..... for so long are still learning.....they still get the urge but have to still deal with it.... it is all part of the progress.
Sweetpea i really do thing execrise is half of the problem solve...... it makes you feel good inside afterwards. glad to see u back.

My legs are really killing me today.... i think i over did it a bit.
I will check in later got to go to counseling session.

Have a good morning everyone.x
love
Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thank you Sweetpea, I was hoping not to continue with that equation, was having to look at the calendar and do my maths everyday!:eeks:
So today is errrrmmm..... 4 AF, cheated AL yesterday had a Becks AF, was quite nice.
Great to see you back in fighting form:boxer:

Eze. Wow you are doing great, just be on guard at all times!

Teardrop. You make me feel ashamed, I should make so much more effort,My aches and pains are from not doing enough in the form of proper exercise, The adrenaline carefree type. Not behind a hoover or broom! (You are inspiring me though) Hope your pins feel better today.

Suki. Can't wait to hear how it went yesterday, I could not get you out of my mind all day.
Hope YOU are OK, thats the main thing.

Rustop. Hi, I envy your long walks, can do them when away ,but there are no places that I could go for long walks and feel safe here. sad.......

Evergreen. You are doing great, From each slip we get something! It makes us think twice next time.

RN Miss Cherl Finski and anyone else reading this have a great day!

Eastx

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello everybody,

Good to be in firecracker land again. I had a bad case of why-me-itis and let AL back in to take care of it. Of course we all know that he made it worse so it took longer to get my act back together. :upset: :damn:

So... now I'm back to my lovely self :nutso:
and my theme song today will be 'Green' from Sesame Street (sung by Kermit)

It's not that easy being green;
Having to spend each day the color of the leaves.
When I think it could be nicer being red, or yellow or gold...
or something much more colorful like that.

It's not easy being green.
It seems you blend in with so many other ord'nary things.
And people tend to pass you over 'cause you're
not standing out like flashy sparkles in the water
or stars in the sky.

But green's the color of Spring.
And green can be cool and friendly-like.
And green can be big like an ocean, or important like a mountain,
or tall like a tree.

When green is all there is to be
It could make you wonder why, but why wonder why?
Wonder, I am green and it'll do fine, it's beautiful!
And I think it's what I want to be.

I :h you all and missed you.
It is so good to be back on the train. Thanks for saving me a seat.

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Flutterby not only a seat BUT IN FIRST CLASS WITH ALL THE TRIMMINGS XXXXXXX
So pleased you are feeling better. Yes Big AL needs :bat and all your firecracker mates are there to support you LOLove xxx

Just love Kermit's song shame we cannot tune into some music (I don't know how to do it so don't ask me LOLove xx)

So fantastic you are feeling better

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:h :l

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks SO MUCH Sweet One.
Off to see the wizard now.... will check in later on.
xox
Fby

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Fby,
Really missed you, Sorry that you have not been yourself.
Love the Kermit song takes me back to the good old days when the children were managable!
Want to take a tin man with you to see the wizard?,( sure do ache today)

Take care

Eastx

[FinallyRN]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Well, how do I follow all that.........

First Ezek, Russtop and anyone else in double digits, congratulations, I'm envious of your achievement. I have put together 20 days of AF but no more. Well done! I'm seriously thinking about the "Lent " challenge. I will be in Spain during that time and what a perfect excuse, in the perfect catholic country! No one will question my motives. I obviously still have issues about "my problem" and letting them out in the open........can't work through the shame I feel at myself. I'm hoping that will soon get resolved. But years of this feeling doesn't go away overnight.......and this one is down deep.
Sweetpea, I could so relate to your comment on getting back in the AF mentality. After days of Af then indulging "normally" I become cocky and think I've got this under control, then POW.....Al comes and hits me right in the kisser........no good. Still haven't decided where I want to go.......AF, which is too overwhelming right now or will I ever be able to consume normally.............the trouble with Mod is that you can never put your guard down. I will always have to be aware and have to work it...............Af is just that AF, no choices.
I missed posting yesterday but you were all in my thoughts. It was actually a tough day for me. I got sent to a liver translant/failure unit to work,..... talk about getting slapped in the face! I listened to stories of consumption and drug abuse.............. ( there, but for the grace of god, go I).........it was tough,..... wanted to go out and get a drink! I was having anxiety! Thank god thats over.
So, todays plan are, get the rest of the things I need for my trip and remain Af today. No more. I'm gonna miss you guys!

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Going...on a positive note!!!!

As some of you know that i posted..... once about my brother well friday he is coming out......so i will be busy for a while...so i need to take a small break.....but i'll will be back....Thanks for all your support firecracker team and mwo people.....i'm not going to give up and i will be still continuing on my path AF days as much as possible......Its funny just seem to have that figure 30 stuck in my head NOW!!!

see u all soon.

Love
Teardrop.x

Quote: To study the way is, to study the self....To study the self is, to forget the self....To forget the self is, to be enlightened by all things....To be enlightened by all things is to remove the barriers between oneself and others. :h

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Teardrop -that is so right-- to forget oneself is to be enlightened. We do tend to get caught up in ourselves (speaking for myself :-) Hope you have a good AF break.

Hi East. I'll help you find an oil can for your aches and then you can help me look for my brain. I know I had it not too long ago but it seems to have escaped recently.

Hi Sweetpea, rustop, finallyRN, Eze and everybody else. Hope all is well. I got home really late tonight and have to get some zzzzzzz. Just wanted to say hi. Will check in tomorrow a.m.

[finski]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning

Thank you so much for taking me back on board. I've really missed you people and i wonder why i didn't have the courage to stay on and get the support..I knew no one would judge me for falling.
But i'm back here again and will make the effort to come on as often as i can (i've taken on a couple of short courses to keep me busy, so don't always have the time).
I wish you all a very good day and those who have stuck with AF, you should be so proud.
See you very soon.
Finski :goodjob: :l

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Everyone it is very windy, dark and raining this morning but I am not going to let that get me down. I am going to think of positive things and try and keep my pecker up (for those not in the UK that means keep cheerful) because it is days like this that can send you searching for that ugly beast AL to help lighten the mood (don't we kid ourselves that that is a good reason!! :H ) So you nasty beast I am going to forget that idea and think of my next holiday :beach: instead

Eastender I just love your new avatar it is really lovely and I much prefer it to the old one. It has got a more positive feel to it and demonstrates your desire to be in control of things again Well done. I was thinking of looking for another one for myself to remind me to be a bit more active instead of lying there with soulful eyes BUT the little dog is sooooo cute and makes me smile so it will have to be something cute and active if I change it. Day 4 is good better than my track record at the moment but I am not going over the top which is the important factor I STILL LIKE 30 days + or - because it would keep me so busy I wouldn't have time to party with AL !! Well done on pulling the wool over AL's eyes with the becks - might get some myself and see if I con my pea brain

Fby hope you had a good ZZZZZZZ and feel refreshed. Looking forward to your next inspirational post. Who is the wizard? Pea brain not engaged at the moment!!! mind what is new about that!!!!

Teardrop we are going to miss you big time but you know we will be thinking of you and hoping everything goes well for your brother. We will look forward to your return when you are able to get on the boards again. Take care LOLove xxxxx

Ezekiel how are you doing looking forward to hearing you have got to the magical 30 Onwards and Upwards YAY

RN a real tough call going to a liver transplant/failure unit. Brings reality right smack in your face but big AL is such a crafty bugger because he always manages to somehow numb your brain into thinking it won't be me it will happen to but some other person GOD how we like to kid ourselves. Anyway I hope it was not too stressful for you. We will so miss you while you are in Spain but will be really happy that you will be having a good time. We will all be thinking of you and if you can get onto a PC at any time you know we will love to hear from you LOLovex

Finski you are so right no one would ever judge you because we are all in this fight together. UNITED WE STAND AGAINST BIG AL :l

Rustop bet the dogs aren't liking this wind very much when you went for your walk this morning!!!!

Suki how did you get on we are all thinking about you LOLove xx

Hi evergreen, Erin and all the other crackers hope you are OK and loads of support is winging towards you

Bye for now Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Yeah Sweetpea the dogs did not like the wind this morning so we only did a short one.

Welcome back Finski, good to see you again. Have to rush off as both my girls are doing exams at the moment so I am doing multiple school runs. Have a great day everyone.

Rustop

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

my apologies to all the crackers for not reading/posting. Not a good week. Court was ok, if you like being called, stupid, naive, selfish and pompous by the other lawyer. The case was continued. So we'll see.

Got a final warning at work yesterday. They couldn't have been more positive and complimentary (at first). Called HR to set up time to take away for going to my therapists/ doctors appointment without being penalized.

Then had another conversation when was told I better shape up, loose weight, dress better. (Haven't changed my weight (unfortunately!) or wardrobe in 10 years.) Mentioned something else that I won't say, but might talk to HR. When I mentioned about my double depression, that was downplayed. Oh well, will tow the line.

In addition at 9:00 am today, we find out about the BIG reorganization. Up to 600 being let go, All Senior VPs and VPS are being demoted. Should be an interesting day.

Can't tell you all what your good wishes have meant to me. Will read up later. Need to get to work extra early today. Hope all FC have a great day

Love you all. S xx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

Another wet and very windy day in the UK:upset:
My builders have given me two days off, was going to wrap up get out and about.
Wrong! Looked in the mirror after another sleepless night (wild cat daughter again) have a huge coldsore! Looks gruesome.
So no human contact for me for the next few days! Glad I can still chat with MWO buddies.
Is this AF life supposed to be healthier? Baffles me.

Sweetpea, Glad you like the Avator, try to choose them according to how I feel.
Very Intense is what I was told a few days ago on a PM. Don't know whether the comment were positive or not?

Fby. I found a spare head rolling around this morning, tried it on, didn't fit. Before I put it on Ebay would you like it?
Quote "You don't need extra help that enormous heart you have will get you home" -the man behind the curtain.

Suki. Sooooo sorry that you did not get closure yesterday, and you are having a bad time.
No weight has not come off me over the AF periods either, that was also something I looked forward to! Its just not fair I would love to throw most of my wardrobe away!

RN. Have a lovely holiday, we will miss you. My intension is not to be offensive but everyone of my catholic friends love a drink more than any religion I know! Be on your guard !Like Sweetpea says pop in if you get a chance to let us know how you are doing.

Teardrop. Hope everything goes well with your brother, Don't let that sister get under your skin. Stay strong I will miss you.

Finski. Loads of room on this train, stay with us.........

Rustop. Windy or what, Paragliding with your babies today eh! Hope the girls do well in exams, such a stressfull time for parents too.

have a good day everyone.

Eastx