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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Fby :l

Sorry I missed you earlier. Can go into chat now

Love Sweetpea xx :h

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks Fby I so needed to have a chat with someone who is understanding

You are a star and your posts are always so inspirational. Thanks for being so supportive to everyone on this thread. It is so appreciated :h

I know I am being a c**p :yougo: leader at the moment BUT with all your help I will pick myself up and get into helpful mode again and NOT :upset: - I don't blame anyone who wants to kick me out - I so don't deserve being here if I can't be helpful!!

Love you all Sweetpea xxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

Sweetpea, stop beating yourself up. You havnt been well and just need some me time. You dont need to be upbeat all the time and none of us expects it. I like logging in and finding out how everyone is doing and catching up especially after week-ends.

My girls are still doing exams so things are hectic. They are finished on Thursday and are off until the following Monday week. It will be a nice break except I have to fit in a visit to the dreaded MIL!!! I know she's not well and is a sad lonely old woman but sometimes its hard especially when I know she is playing games! I have a friend I walk with and she usually sorts me out. I was feeling sorry for MIL being lonely at the week-end and she said. Well, she could be spending time with her grandchildren up here and chooses not to. You'll visit at mid-term so dont let them make you feel guilty for not driving for 3 and a half hours to visit at week-ends during school time. Two sons and wives, no kids living closer, let them get on with it. Because I'm an only child I feel I have to do everything and then the guilt thing kicks in. It's great to have friends who will sort you out.

Have a great Tuesday everyone.

Rustop

[happydog]

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Hi All,

Sweetpea and everyone just to let you know i'm sending you all positives vibes your way.
Feels like i got weights on my shoulders at the moment. (brother)
Last thursday losts one of my private jobs. :upset: partly my fault...anyway thats the pasts.... gone and dusted. i'm sure another door will open for me... Its funny you dont realise how much you miss mwo people when you dont log on...

WE ARE ONE BIG FAMILY.:h LOVE YOU ALL

stay focus everyone.

Love
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

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:flower: Teardrop a flower just for you so you know how much we value you being part of our family :h

rustop so supportive as always :l Thank you

Loads of love and supportive vibes to everyone else. Hopefully pea will be in full cheer leading mode by tomorrow

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[flutterby]

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sweetpea;266745 wrote: ... I don't blame anyone who wants to kick me out - I so don't deserve being here if I can't be helpful!!

Love you all Sweetpea xxxxxxxxx

Sweetpea,
Nobody wants to kick you out so I guess you are stuck with us. :h :H :h

And remember... we rock the casbah so you are in really fine company.

Has anyone heard from East? I have a feeling she is distracted with construction woes.
Let's all give eachother a large cosmic hug and keep on keeping the faith.

Tomorrow is another day.

[sweetpea]

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:hug: Morning firecrackers Fby is so right about a good cosmic hug it has made me feel better already

In a bit of a rush this morning so just to say hope everyone has a good day and I will catch up again with you all later

Sweetpeaxxxxx

[Suki411]

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Good morning Sweetpea and all the firecrackers. Another rainy day, another bad hair day! Have 3 umbrellas, can't find one! Sweet, hope all is well.

Fby, can I get in on the cosmic hug? Need that big time this morning.

Teardrop, you are SO Right about missing mwo friends if you don't post and read.

East, Rust, Cindi and all other firecrackers, I'm getting back on the train, hope there is room!

Haven't been hanging around much this week, but realized how much this site and the positive vibes, words, thoughts and support have meant to me. Went to an AA meeting yesterday at the suggestion of my therapist and insistence of work. WORST experience of my life. As beatle posted on another thread......AA tells you it's your fault and you are eternally guilty. You have to "make up" for all you have done wrong....WRONG approach for me.

First day of Lent today. No AL for me, also trying to be positive for the 40 days. After yesterday, decided that AL was the only thing I will give up, what I will do is come here as often as I possibly can. Need to feel that I am getting something great, instead of giving up something.

To all crackers, a huge thank you for you support!

Love you all!

Suki

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

It is indeed the start of lent and I am treating it as a fresh start. It's also a great excuse socially to be able to say "no thanks I'm off it for lent".

You are right about AA Suki, I went to two meetings and found it downright depressing. I just could not identify with any of the people there. On MWO I have come across so so many people that I identify with and the important thing is that it is positive. We are all trying and looking forward, not back.

Have a great day everyone. Off on one of my many school pick ups!!

Rustop

[flutterby]

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Hi firecrackers,

Ru- would like to join in with you and Suki in giving up AL for Lent. The concept of self-denial leading to "deliverance from temptation" has more meaning to me now than it has in the past. Suki made a good point that we should appreciate what we are getting in return. Deliverance would be a miracle. Miracles happen.

Here's your cosmic hug Suki :huggy hope you find an umbrella today.

Hug's also to the Sweet one, East (hope all is well GF), Ru, Teardrop and MWO friends :groupluv:

Get out your matches.... we are going to light some firecrackers today!!
Check in with you later,

[sweetpea]

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:l Morning All

A very cold wet windy day which is basically how I have been feeling but I think I am coming out the other end. I feel very tired and emotional at the moment - probably an after effect of not being well But I am going to make a determined effort to try and get myself into a better frame of mind

Eastender my friend where are you. I am getting very worried that we have not heard from you. Had that builder :bat broken the computer or have things gone really pear shaped with your daughter. :h I am thinking of you as are all the other crackers and hope to hear from you soon XXXXX

Suki I really feel for you going to an AA meeting would be my worst nightmare!! I can only imagine what standing up with a room full of strangers would be like. I have to have some rapport with folks before I can bare my soul like that. We all have our demons in life but for me support and love is the only way I can move forward. Finding all you wonderful folk on MWO is enabling me to slowly move forward. I still have good and bad days but the bad days are being a lot less. I have to recognise my triggers and for me it is family members or friends that make me feel unloved and worthless that sets me off. I should not be so sensitive and learn to deal with unkind comments in a more positive way. I was made to feel very worthless as a child and unfortunately I have taken that into adulthood with me. Even after counseling I still have not been able to do that all the time but I am working on it. Unfortunately big AL has the knack of being my best friend when I am feeling down NOT GOOD!!! So lets get on that train and go for it xxxxx

Rustop half term next week so a bit of a break from the school run. You are absolutely right the support and positive outlook on this site does help the process of moving forward. Wish I could use the excuse of lent but my friends and drinking partners know I am not religious and would wonder what was going on. Will have to think of an alternative!! Hope MIL does not drive you mad and don't let her do the guilt trip on you.

Fly what an inspiration as always. I always feel more upbeat when I have read your posts. Thanks for being there for me over the past few days I now feel like I am crawling out that black hole and having a look round again - umbrella in hand though!!!

Teardrop thank you so much for your positive vibes. Hope the brother situation is not getting you down too much. You know we are all thinking about you and sending you lots of love and support

Erin we are looking forward to hearing how you are getting on. Lolove and hope they are not working you too hard

Finsky, RN, Wakeupmum and all you wonderful other crackers strong vibes are coming your way hope you all have a good day

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxx

[happydog]

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Feels like all doors are closing in on me.

Hi To All you firecrackers,

:upset: :upset: Feeling really down today... lost my other 2 private jobs...The lady is a good friend of the other lady that told me to go last week.....all because i left 1hour early...just feels like the doors are closing in on my face.
Sweetpea.. know what you mean about childhood ....my dad use to beat us with his belt and when he was drunk he never knew when to stop....could never step a foot out of line...i was always scared and losts a lot of confidents in myself..

Sweetpea you are not worthless here....you mean a lot to us.:l

Hope everyone has a better day then me today.

Love

Teardrop.x
P.s sorry to be so negative

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

Dont apologise Teardrop. We all understand and are there to support you. There is a saying that when one door closes another opens (or something like that) so hopefully thats what will happen for you.

Sweetpea, so good to see you more cheerful. All our childhoods seem to have caused us trouble in later life. I am now questioning my parenting skills. Although I know that my two have had a dream childhood compared to mine. I did do online counselling which I found helpful and I understand myself a little better. Has anyone tried psychotherapy? I have been reading about it and it sounds interesting, especially the coping/behavioural part.

East, hope the builders/daughter have not driven you mad. Everyone else big hello.

Rustop

[flutterby]

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Hi all,
Hope your day gets better Teardrop. The force of doors shutting will open others. Be patient and something will come knocking.

I've been listening to a CD during my commute that deals with letting go of the old stuff so it doesn't come back to haunt you. From what I can tell the speaker has a lot in common with the firecrackers. Forgot her name but I will do the research & get back to you. It has really helped put some of my angst in perspective.

Sweetpea -- good vibes back atcha. Hope you feel a little stronger today. Don't worry about Eastender, I'm sure she is just taking a break and will be back when things calm down.

[Suki411]

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Good morning Firecrackers.

Teardrop, sorry about the jobs. You said you felt like a door was closing, I really believe that a new one always opens up. Change is good! Will be thinking of you today! Sounds like you need a big hug today. :hug:

Fby, thanks for the cosmic hug yesterday. Made a difference!


Rust, you are so right about the difference between MRO and AA. The main differences I found were the positive vs. the negative, the future vs. the past, hope vs. the fixation on past problems. I spent an hour listening how old people were when they stole their first 6-packs, what drugs they used, what halfway houses they stay in, etc., here we learn about Bessie's horses and pigs, pray for friends who have illness in their family, read posts from people (Tawnyfrog) from around the world who are concerned about members who might have been in the path of the tornado. No question what works better for me.

There is a familiarity here, you see a name and you're so comfortable getting into a conversation. At AA, there was no one I would approach to say hello. About 80% of them were old men who reminded me of my older brother. Won't go there. Regardless, may lose my job over this, but am going to refuse to go back. Went back to work and had an anxiety attack. Was warned to get over it.

EAST, WHERE ARE YOU? MISS YOU!! Hope all is ok.

Finally, our leader, Sweetpea.........starts my day of on a good note when I see that you've posted. This is the first thread I read in the morning, than ODAT. It's been your enthusiasm and support that has kept me going. When you are having a bad day, we're all here to pick you up. Just like when you are there for us.

My bags are packed, joining you on the Sweetpea Express, looking forward to trip with you all.

Erin, Finsky, RN, Wakeupmom, and all other fcers, have a great, happy day. (smiles and hugs to Teardrop today)

love, Suki