FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Crackers...
Good to see everyone keeping the candle lit. I took the liberty of changing a few words in this song to make it work for us.... You know the tune so hum a few bars if you feel like it when AL and his depressing friend BLAH come calling....

:rockband:
We Get Knocked Down
Adapted from Chumbawamba for the FIRECRACKERS

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing
We get knocked down
But we get up again
You're never going to keep us down
Sleeping the night away
Sleeping the night away
We drink a water drink
We drink a vita drink
We drink a kudzu drink
We drink a low-cal drink
We sings the songs that remind us
Of the GOOD TIMES
We sings the songs that remind us
Of the BETTER TIMES:
"Oh Danny Boy
Danny Boy
Danny Boy..."
We get knocked down
But we get up again
You're never going to keep us down
Dancing the night away
Dancing the night away
We drink a water drink
We drink a vita drink
We drink a kudzu drink
We drink a low-cal drink
We sings the songs that remind us
Of the GOOD TIMES
We sings the songs that remind us
Of the BETTER TIMES:
"Don't cry for me
FIRECRACKERS..."
We get knocked down
But we get up again
You're never going to keep us down
We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

[indiamike57]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi, All -

Yes it's finally me....Erin. All is going "okay" but had a very bad time of it last month. Decided to go on Antabuse, came clean with my Doc and am now also seeing a therapist for the PTSD and other stress related stuff....and add depression too! But I am GOING to beat this and will go back and read your notes over the last few weeks to see how everyone has been doing. And yes, I am VERY AF.

Cheers! Especially to you, Sweetpea!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:yay: Erin great to see you back

Just a quick pop in to say hi will post again later as I have got to go out this morning

Cindi I have instructed the train to head for warmer climates and happy times. You are always in our thoughts and prayers so hang on, you will get there with loads of love and support that your firecracker friends are sending your way

Fby all firecrackers are under instructions to learn WE GET KNOCKED DOWN and and to be word perfect - in tune - by the next station :goodjob: Great adaptation I like it - more about what I think about it next post xx

Suki as I said to Cindi the train is heading for warmer climates so hang on in there xx

Bye to all you other firecrackers till later

Eastender :flower: :huggy I know you are having a bad time at the moment but you know that all the Firecrackers love you and have all benefited from your never ending support. We are all here for you. Keep heart and know better times will be round the corner really soon xxx

Post again later

Lots of Love Sweetpea xxxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrakers,

Not doing so well on the AF front this week as my drinktracker shows!
May as well forget the lent challenge, 40 hrs let alone 40 days has been hard for me.
I had trouble posting yesterday because I felt so down and FED UP. Did not want to pull you guys down, when you are doing so well,with far more crucial issues to deal with.

I guess I have always been taught that if you have'nt got anything useful to say, say nothing. Holding back your feelings takes far too much energy.

Since joining MWO in October last I have acheived so much, more AF days days then the last 15 years or so. I was doing so well and felt great. A few slips but I got back on the wagon straight away.
The last week or so I have more than lost my way and I can't see why, I have always coped under huge amounts of stress in the past! Perimenopause maybe?

Sweetpea. Your concern is appreciated more than you could know, we seem to be in the same boat without a paddle at the moment coping with depression and not knowing truly why, can anyone out there throw us a line?
My builders are back again tomorrow until the end of the week,Hopefully then I will get a break for a few weeks. (weather needs to be better for the outside works)

Fby.Tried singing then humming the tune, with this cold sounded dreadful, I like your alterations perhaps our anthem?

Rustop. Hope you enjoyed weekend with MIL and girls. I would need a drink or two to stay with my MIL!

Finski. The hyno sounds great, I have always wanted to try the previous life, just wonder who I was before facinating!

Suki. You sound like a completley different person in your recent posts.You are a star!!! 13 days! I am so proud of you.

Determinator.Tried the duck tape thing, got rid of my moustache thanks.

Cindi. You are right depression is part of life and not an excuse I will bear that in mind today if the beast comes whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

Teardrop. You have changed your Avator, Are you feeling OK?:h

Miss cheryl. With you on the cough/cold thing, just hangs around keeping me awake too.

Indiamike. Glad to hear from you, AF still way to go!:happy:

Hi to Lukalee, Lauraann, Hope365, Enoughalready and anyone else I missed,

Have a good day everyone and take care,

Eastx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

EASTENDER YOU ARE THE BEST

:groupluv: Hi Crackers

Haven't got time for a full on post but I want everyone to join me in saying

:h EASTENDER YOU ARE THE BEST:h

Loads of love from Sweetpea and all the other crackers that have benefited from your unreserved love and support THANKS EAST :hug: YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR US xxxx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

East, Sweetpea is right. You are the best. You and Sweetpea were so welcoming to me when I first started posting.

Depression......it's horrible. I knew I wasn't happy, knew that I had no real joy in my life, but kept plugging along. Took medication, helped at first, but then its effect wore off. After my mother died, and especially after selling her house, I fell apart. Al was the only one I wanted to spend time with. I'm seeing a new therapist, had the meds tweaked, and haven't had a drink since 1/28/08 when I went into work, shall we say not quite sober!

My therapist has told me that I have double depression. A long standing, untreated depression, then when the house sold, everything stopped and I had an acute attack of depression. Yesterday she told me that I was a very strong person. I laughed at her and said no. She said that for me to have survived so long with depression takes a strong person.

East, I think that you such a strong person. You said it yourself, you have always coped under huge amounts of stress in the past. Well, sometimes it just catches up with you.

You also said something that hit home with me....I guess I have always been taught that if you have'nt got anything useful to say, say nothing. Holding back your feelings takes far too much energy. Yup, that's me.

Holding back does take too much energy. Feeling negative, beating yourself up takes too much energy. You and Sweetpea taught me that early on with your support, sense of humor and enthusiasm.

You and Pea might be in a boat that is hitting a few waves right now, but there is smooth sailing ahead for you two. I have a line, will toss it out and tie it to Sweetpea's train. There are plenty of firecrackers to help pull you in.

You have achieved a lot East, you also have been under a lot of stress. You've been so busy taking care of everyone else, that you haven't had much time to take care of yourself.

Don't stay away because you are down. I tried that, it's the worst thing.

love you East (you too Sweetpea)! And so do all of the other firecrackers that have been drawn to the two of you.

suki xxxxx


Oh, sent out Valentine cards today. Haven't sent out xmas, birthday, any kind of cards for years. I'm scaring myself!

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Eastender -- We love you!!!! And we understand what you are going through. I sure wish I had a magic wand to swish over you and make you feel better. Here's the next best thing.... a virtual hug from a likewise afflicted firecracker who knows things will change if we want them to. Let's get healthy and then get back with the program. Sweetpea's got your number.... you are the best! This too shall pass.....

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Suki-
We were cross posting....
Just wanted to say that you sound great! Keep up the good work.

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

fby, we were posting at the same time. Great minds think alike!

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

we did it again Fby, you owe me a coke. Or do I owe you one? Am I dating myself?

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Suki
We both owe eachother a coke!
xox
Fby

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Deal, Fby.

Suki xxxxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers

Another cold day here but feeling in a positive mood and keep thinking of the lyrics of We get knocked down song that Fby sent the other day - the most important three lines being

We get knocked down
But we get up again
You're never going to keep us down

Well today I am going to get up and at it and try taking some tiny steps to move forward. Take my hand East and all you other crackers and lets go for it :yougo: :groupluv: WE CAN DO IT - WE MUST DO IT - WE WILL DO IT - WE OWE IT TO OURSELVES

Suki a lovely caring post thank you so much for being there for us, East I know will greatly appreciate your kind words as I do. You know just reading your post Suki makes me see just how far you have come in the past few months. Well done you should be so proud of yourself because you have worked very hard to move forward and get some peace back into your life. I am really, really pleased the new therapist is working well for you and she is right you are a strong person to have survived so long with depression. Well done Suki xx LOLove xx

Eastender my friend what can I say but thinking of you and sending loads of love and support your way. Suki is right you have been there for everyone else and coping with so much. It is time to exert some of your boundless support and love on yourself now - BY ORDER OF SWEETPEA - you so deserve it East. We are in the same boat regarding depression but we have to grab the line that Suki has thrown us and get attached to the Sweetpea Express again as quickly as possible. Reading your post a few times has made me realise something that is pertinent to both of us and probably to many others on MWO. Having done the 30 days and having some good AF time makes you :bang beat yourself up twice as hard when you are having a bad few days. This leads to bringing on the depression again or making it worse. BUT we need to bring this all into context - Just how much better are we now than we were? LOADS Also the other thing I have now understood is that I am not going to set myself goals that I know I will not be able to achieve because that makes my depression worse. In your instance you need to decide - Is going AF with everything that is going on feasible at the moment? or do you need to set your mind to moderating while all this is going on and then go for another AF period when things are calmer - A choice only you can make but whatever you decide it has to be right for you. Just know that all your Firecracker friends are there for you with loads of support and love xx

I think we all have to realise that BIG AL will always be a challenge for us and we need to know how we can personally manage him whether it is moderating with some AF time or kicking the beast permanently into touch if that is not an option. On MWO it is a decision we all have to make and none of us are finding it easy. That is why everyones support is so valuable - Thanks everyone


Rustop looking forward to hearing about your trip

Teardrop how are you? Thinking of you xx

Finski, Determinator, Indiamike, Cindi, Miss Cheryl, Lukalee, LauraAnn, Hope365, Enoughalready and all you other crackers sending you loads of support and thinking of you. Let me know how you are getting on

LOLove Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

3days AF

Hi All you firecrackers,

Yes sweetpea i agree thanks
East :h Hope you are feeling ok today and that thinks are alright with your daughter. like suki said you have been through a lot and it catching up with you. keep with us we are here for you. im not going to worry about the lent, im just going to do what i can at this present moment of time. East you made me laugh about the duck tape it can be a lot cheaper then waxing.lol. and yes i'm ok. thanks.

Suki ..so please you doing all those AF days well done, im also glad keeta got her cats back to. sound like your therapist is right you have survived through a lot. just rememeber that you are strong keep on going. i have lots of faith in you.

Eri... gald you are still around and doing so well. (good stuff)

cindi... thinking of you hope all is well.

Fby...Love the song. hope all is well with you.

Rustop. hope all is well. one of my kids of this week half and the other next week.

miss C... get plenty of rest drink lots of water and soup is good. my son had a viruse 4 years ago was of school for 9weeks could not hardly walk and had headaches day and night. i was pulling my ull he not had a cold the GP could not give him notthing. It did go away by it self but was very worried. sending you lots of strength your way.

Sweetpea.. thanks for thinking of me.:h i'm ok. hope you are feeling high in yourself today. the duck tape only comes in black, my son use it for his skateboarding shoes at the front to stop any holes. lol

Welcome to laura ann, enoughalready you are at the right place here and also hope365 just love your avator i use to love blowing bubble gum when i was a kid. the bigger the better.

My brother seems to be doing fine he has more AF days then me. lol the first day he did piss it up at the pub on the way home .Not no more i,ve got his money my sister has his saving books. May god when i look at his debt and bills i feel like i could knock a few bottles of wine down me. The good think is we are not arguing between us yet.

Sending everyone lots of strength there way.. keep that inner spirit high inside.

Love
Teardrop.x

[indiamike57]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Today IS a good day.....

Hey - Sweetpea and all you Firecrackers!!

Hope you day has gone just ducky so they say. I am doing well on the Antabuse...has anyone experience on that? Also finally sleeping.

BTW, All - can someone tell me where the next train stop is heading to the warm weather? Its cold as blazes here and I want to hop on board!

Congrats to all exploring another AF day. :goodjob: Best - Erin