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**indiamike57** · March 4, 2008, 11:26 AM

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Wow - How impressive, Maasai - 90 days! I am so glad you wrote and reminding us.

Eastender and Suki - I am also in some heavy counseling these days and am learning so much about myself and the "whys" of my childhood. Very abusive, Mom mostly verbal for years, less physical but when she did she did! Stobber the physical only after my Dad found out). Apparently my PTSD had roots way back then and I too have been using avoidance to "staff safe". Amazing what we discover when we look. AL was simply a numbing agent so I didn't hurt so much. Now I am trying so hard to deal, not run - feel not avoid or hide.

It is so wonderful hearing others stories. Thank you

And Sweetpea? A frine brought me sand from NC yesterday and while not a big beasch person..I love sunshine and water and walking along it at dawn or dusk etc. It was lovely. And yes, inded - let's plan a picnic! I'm game

Cheers all - Have a good one.

Erin (going for 60 AF)

**indiamike57** · March 4, 2008, 11:27 AM

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Wow - How impressive, Maasai - 90 days! I am so glad you wrote and reminding us.

Eastender and Suki - I am also in some heavy counseling these days and am learning so much about myself and the "whys" of my childhood. Very abusive, Mom mostly verbal for years, less physical but when she did she did! Stobber the physical only after my Dad found out). Apparently my PTSD had roots way back then and I too have been using avoidance to "staff safe". Amazing what we discover when we look. AL was simply a numbing agent so I didn't hurt so much. Now I am trying so hard to deal, not run - feel not avoid or hide.

It is so wonderful hearing others stories. Thank you

And Sweetpea? A frine brought me sand from NC yesterday and while not a big beasch person..I love sunshine and water and walking along it at dawn or dusk etc. It was lovely. And yes, indeed - let's plan a picnic! I'm game

Cheers all - Have a good one.

Erin (going for 60 AF)

**whtwshman** · March 4, 2008, 02:12 PM

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great job in finding an alternative way 2 communicate. were behind u. and get that computer fixed, asap. so you can stay walking with support. garyu go rustop61.

**sweetpea** · March 5, 2008, 03:58 AM

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Testing

:upset: Can't get my post to view or submit

**sweetpea** · March 5, 2008, 04:17 AM

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Why have I had to retype all my post???????

Morning all you Firecrackers

Part one of post

Sweetpea has packed her bag and is going in search for some :beach:BUT I will be thinking about you and will look forward to reading all the posts when I get back. If I have time tomorrow I will post - but if not - here is wishing you all a great weekend and I will be sending you all loads of good vibes of support and love xxx

:welcome: Gary what a great post very motivating. Get that cracker alight for us today and get us going again> Great idea regarding the bottle - what willpower as well - you star

Sweetpea xxxxxx

**Eastender** · March 5, 2008, 04:18 AM

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Hi Firecrackers,
Sweetpea Sorry you are having problems I had to do my post twice yesterday,keep having to log back in and then loose post so frustrating!

Gary, Hi and welcome, love you message and the "light the fuse " each morning I try to do that too.
Stumble is a great word I will be using that in future! Black marker with the date, Yes I can appreciate using something real to look at, I used that stratergy when I gave up smoking years ago! may still have the packet around here somewhere............

Erin Our avoidance mechanism when switching to alcohol is not good, but as you say we use it to "mask". To feel the emotions is terrifying to me, but when I am in that haze that seems clear at the time when drinking, I am trapped anyway, also equals fear.
What I do now is when I feel one rising I tell myself I will go with it for just five minutes. Seems to be getting easier but expensive in tissues! (still cheaper than wine!:H)
Good for you going to 60 days.......

How are the rest of you firecrackers today?

Eastx

**sweetpea** · March 5, 2008, 04:21 AM

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Will try again with second part!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Part 2 of post - I really don't know why it would not accept it as a whole because I have done longer posts than this before????????!!!!!!!!!!!!

Teardrop thanks for letting me know about Cindi - I had thought about PMing her but then forgot to check if she was one and the same person - Thanks - Good job someone round here is on the ball xx How did day 1 go? :l

Suki it is really lovely to see you posting again - Well done keep that control rolling xx

Rustop lovely to hear from you. Hope your computer problems get fixed ASAP because we miss you when you are not here. xx Keep those lovely dogs walking and well done on still being AF

East we could always paddle in our thermals what a picture that conjures up HA HA not a pretty sight in my case. Yep I think you are right flying may be another option - what a calming feeling drifting thought the air without a care in the world and big AL firmly on the ground with no one to play with HA HA

Erin you star going for 60 days YOU CAN DO IT xx Yes walking on the edge of the beach at dawn and dusk really does it for me as well - like a new start where everything begins again without having any history - all clean and new - Now I am getting really chilled out at the thought

Maasai how are you doing?

MA onto day 5 - way to go - keep at it xx

Wakupmom, Cindi, RN, FBY, Finski - missing you xx

To all the Firecrackers have a really good day - I will be thinking about you

Sweetpea:groupluv:xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

**Eastender** · March 5, 2008, 04:26 AM

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Cross posting again Sweetpea,
Wish I was coming too!
I am in my thermals today, not a pretty sight either but keeps me warm

Eastx

**happydog** · March 5, 2008, 06:47 AM

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hi ALl YOU WONDERFUL FIRECRACKER.

:welcome: Whtwshman...WOW that is one victory i love...out of service since 2/14/08...must remember that one....love your message.

indiamike... love your new avatar..60days GO FOR IT... you can do this.... we are here for you.

Sweetpea... had trouble yesterday posting not again....Have a great break away and see you when you get back.(miss u).x

Rustop...glad to see you posting... I remember going to my local internet cafe to get on here. (cant keep away)

Suki...Good for you. AL where with you. we will get there one day at a time.:h

Today went to my 1to1 counselling and group sessions just feeling very tired right now.
for me 2day AF.

Love to all the firecrackers.:h

Teardrop.x

**Sunbeam** · March 5, 2008, 07:22 AM

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Hi Sweet Pea and all Firecrackers,
First to Sweet Pea: Your screen name is the term of endearment that my husband and I use daily for each other.

To everyone else: Now that I'm AF over 30 days, I've been hanging out more in other places, not posting much on this thread. But thanks for enabling me to participate in your group, and I will still be around.

**sweetpea** · March 5, 2008, 07:55 AM

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Juliana :l you know we always appreciate getting a post from you when you can make it XX Fantastic for making it over the 30 days - Well Done

Teardrop well, well done on 2nd day AF - so proud of you :l xx

East couldn't we try very fashionable thermals - I am sure they make them LOLovexx

To all you other crackers LOLove xxxxx Sweetpea

**cowgal** · March 5, 2008, 08:07 AM

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good morning!

Hi all you firecrackers!!! Lets keep the momentum and keep on Firing up!!!

Day 17 for me, on my way to 30 at least..................think about moderating, then fear of the vicious cycle ove again creeps in...........

For me maybe AF is the way to be! Still have the cough, getting worse, up all night w/ it...........going to my doc today for some medicine cuz all this OTC stuff is not getting it!

Good to see everyone so positive and crackin' today!! GO FIRECRACKERS!!!:happy::thumbs:

Love,

Mary Anne

**maasai** · March 5, 2008, 09:43 AM

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every day is a new day, count ,me in i need not be left behind,

**indiamike57** · March 5, 2008, 10:33 AM

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Fashonable Thermals?

Great day to all!

Sweetpea do enjoy your travels but remember, we need you back!

East - Yes, your comments so resonate. And absolutely, it is scary, but I am actually grasping onto my realities and finding when I do, while scary, it is also presenting an immense relief in understanding and acknowledging them, even though it is so so hard and painful yet lierating too. Your 5 minute technique is one I am using and learning others.

Thanks, and yes, I'm hoping 60 days is around the corner....for all seeking it.

Erin

**Eastender** · March 5, 2008, 11:04 AM

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Hi juliana nice to see you here ,pop in as often as you want. well done on your 30 days!

Maasai good to chat with you today be it breifly

Cowgal You posts seemed to radiate energy! Go girl

Teardrop still holding back the snakes, after arest jump up the ladder quick:H

Erin. maybe any other coping mechanisms you could share with me...........

Have a great holiday sweet I am so jeolous!

Eastx

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