FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning/afternoon/evening Firecrackers depending on your longitude,

Have to first congratulate everyone on their AF days. :wd:
Rustop, Lukalee, Teardrop, and (drum roll.....) a big high five to ant East who made another milestone!!!! The Sweetpea Express is rolling along....

Please everyone take care of yourselves this week. We have places to go and lots of adventure ahead. Lots of healing, lots of speed bumps, but also.... LOTS OF FUN!!!

:banana:inkele::banana:


Ciao for now,
:beach:

[barebones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi everyone, sry been quiet but im still here.

hope everyone is ok, sry eastender on the tough stuff ur going through.

(((hugs)))

day 52 AF

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

After posting this morning sat staring at the phone wondering about whether to call Doc.
My results ,good news on my liver & kidney function they were in normal range!:yes2:

Scan shows something in the womens department that Doc wants to see me about .So I am like a:crazymonkey: at the moment.
Well the Universe is sure testing my resolve!

Thanks for listening and Lukalee hope you are still on track and thanks for the thread yesterday.

Flutterby Got some of those healing vibes at least my poor liver is holding out at the moment.

Rustop so right on the family /friend thing, I read a book once about souls choosing their offsping/parents as a way of learning a particular lesson,Wish I had some memory of my agreement,I could work out what the hell went wrong!

Barebones Hi and thanks.

Have a great day

Eastx

[Mad Mummy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:new: Hi Firecrackers, Have been following you all for the past few weeks and just got up the courage to ask if I could join you?? Sweetpea has been, as her name, very sweet and welcomed me into the fold.

Eastender - I think what you've achieved over this last few weeks is enormous a real inspiration - try not to be too anxious about the Doctor thing, I'll say a few for you later.

Look forward to getting to know you all.

:thanks:

[cowgal]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hey all!

East, WAY TO GO!!! 30 days, you must be sooooooooooo proud!!:goodjob:

Barebones, I too have been away, busy, don't know but haven't been my old self that I miss so much!

Rustop, good to see you here, busy here.............

Sweetpea, you are the driving force here, stay strong!

Lukalee, Mummy, Teardrop(good handling of your sister), and all that I missed, have a WONDERFUL AF Monday!!

Love you guys, thanks for helping me in this journey!:l:thanks::h

Truly,

MA

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Just wanted to pop in and say Hi. Busy week, so I probably won't be here much.
Glad everyone is doing great.
Great news from the Doc East!! The women's department issue sucks; I had problems a couple of years ago. It seems like they like to freak us out over nothing.

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:groupluv: Morning all you Firecrackers. Just feeling like I need a good love and hug from you all as I am feeling a bit down and desperately trying to keep out of Al clutches. I know the daughter issue is one of my triggers so yesterday kept busy so I didn't party with the beast - I managed to keep him at bay but I have a very heavy heart at the moment so will spend another day :sofa: employing all the avoidance tactics I can muster

:welcome: Mad Mummy you are certainly in the right place for loads of support. I couldn't have survived the last few months without the Firecrackers being there for me and making sure the Sweetpea express is constantly rolling. We have all had our ups and downs but what has been constant throughout is the love and support from everyone. We look forward to getting to know you

Lukalee hope the no smoking is going to plan

Cowgal it was really great to hear from you. Yes I will do my best to keep strong and focused - thanks - xx

East my friend thank you so much for the lovely Pm's they always help boost my spirits - thanks - :l Fantastic news about the liver and kidney results. It is always daunting when the doc asks to see you but I am sure it is nothing too serious to worry about - xx -

Barebones great to hear from you 52 days AF that is awesome

FBY could do with some healing words of wisdom for my heavy heart -xx- You are always an inspiration to us all

Rustop great on staying AF at the weekend and yes I need to work on my patience as well. I thought that as my kids had passed the teenage years that things would get better but no you still have trouble but for different reasons. I think that being a parent is a life long commitment with all the joy and anguish that goes with it. Someone once said to me that kids are 98% hell (or something in between) and 2% pure magic - I think I am beginning to realise how true it is but those magical moments manage to wipe out what anguish they can cause us and you then manage to set yourself up for another dose of pain - Hmmmmm will have to work on that one I think

Teardrop 8 days AF fantastic. We were cross posting yesterday so did not pick it up but well done. I have gone the wrong route when driving which is very frustrating. Glad you enjoyed watching your son skateboarding - shame about the rain though

Erin are you OK not heard from you in ages

Maasia hope you are doing good

Hello to all you other crackers my love and good wishes to you all

Stay strong everyone loads of love and good vibes coming your way

:hug:Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hiya everyone,

Sweetpea...big:l from me just need to work on those triggers. glad you didn't party with that ugly hairy beast last night well done..I alway found that once i've string a good week and gone past one weekend it does get the af rolling into more AF days...I promised myself i would everyday go for a bike ride or a little jog it does help me inside keeps me going! sweetpea by the way im 9days af.. everyday counts for me...

Welcome..mad mummy you will love being part of the firecracker team we are one big family here and growing by the minute who care about each other...glad your part of the family.

Cowgal...nice to see you..dont work too hard. miss your posts keep with us!

East...glad your results about your liver and kidney are all clear. east have you ever try camomile tea iit does helps calm the nervers down..:crazymonkey: hope you are feeling calm today.

Barebones..well done!
Rustop..yes i hope its a good week tooo for everyone.
Fby...looking forward to all the adventure...me im a big kid at heart.

Big hello to everyone else i have not mention.

Love

Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

:welcome:to Mad Mummy as Sweetpea says, look forward to getting to know you.We are a very supportive group here and I owe my current success to that.

Strange how 24 hours can change your feelings.
My daughter who has recently been a little mean to me,sounded not right to me,so last night Mr East and I dropped off some stuff and I asked twice what was wrong?
My chronic"in for me"syndrome. She burst into tears and said she had been made redundant. I gave a ahug and said everything would be OK,We would help her out.
What happened to my "let her get on with it". OH well...........

Sweetpea you are so right the problems get bigger the older they get. Just remember that you are intitled to have a happy life too. Mr East is always pointing out to me that we have alot less time infront of us then behind..........It is so true.
Kids are fickle,but when push comes to shove they will always need Mum and Dad.
As much as they hurt me I will always be there for them and I know that you would be.
So try not to worry yourself it will not change anything, I will be thinking of you today.:huggy

Teardrop 9 DAYS AF!!!!!Good girl,brilliant, so proud of you,
Yes camomile by the gallon at the moment,you have a great day look after that inner child that we all have!

Lukalee Hi Thanks for your good wishes

Cowgal,don't be a stranger its always good to here from you.

Love to everyone Eastx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Great to see everyone doing so well despite our many ups and downs. East, delighted that the liver and kidney results were ok. Welcome Mad Mummy, you have joined a great bunch.

Busy, busy at the moment so just stopping in to say a quick hello, will catch you all later.

Rustop

[Mad Mummy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi, am working today and then back and forth with various children and their horseriding, football x 2 etc! Another AF for me - and feeling really good, sleeping well. East thanks for your welcome, your daughter is really lucky she has you, what a star!

Hope to catch you all later.

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello all you lovely Firecrackers. For some reason, really thinking of AL today; just like a bad relationship. He's trying to justify drinking today. When I say "NO", he tries to say, "WEll how about Saturday? Nothing important is going on that day. You can go out and have yourself some fun." NO!NO!NO! "What about May 10th? You'll have over 30 days by then. Drinking once a month is a perfectly acceptable thing to do. Think about it, in the past you were drinking ALL the time; drinking every once in awhile won't hurt you."
Honestly, I personally believe drinking once in awhile wouldn't be that bad. But I know I cannot do that until I deal with the underlying issues of why I drink in the first place. For me, even if I only drank once a month, it would be like starting over each and every time until I get to a place where AL is not something I think about all the time. Always thinking of when it would be considered ok to drink again and actually marking it on the calendar so I can keep track.
I can tell you exactly how much I have drank this year. Once in January, seven times in February, five times in March, and once in April. When I told my doctor this, she said I was obviously an alcoholic. Not because of the number of days that I drink, but that I actually know how often I drink on the top of my head. I don't know if this weirdness will ever go away.
Thanks for letting me vent again.
Lisa

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning everyone

Teardrop thanks for the :l I really needed that. Day 10 fantastic keep going you can do it

East I took your advice and kept big AL at bay it is day 1 AF for me and I am going to do ODAT and try to set my goals at stages first one being 5 days Thanks for your support I really needed it :l

Hi Rustop thinking of you

Mad Mummy well done on another AF day

Lukalee that monster big Al has the very annoying habit of playing mind games just don't let him near you. In fact together with all the other crackers we will :b&d::bat him so that he keeps well away from you

To all the other crackers have an awesome AF day

Loads of love and support Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxx

PS Has anyone heard from Suki

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Day 33 AF

Hi FC's,

This is the big day for me,If I get through today I have beat my last period of AF!
It will be hard because its my sons birthday and I have not seen him in such a long time.
AL has always been my comfort when I am sad so got to keep busy. seeing doc today too.

Sweetpea You have done it before I KNOW you can do it again,well done on staying AF, I can assure you with all the crap that has hit me this past few weeks, I would have been in a big black hole with AL now, It seems a lot more manageble without him. Just need to remember not even one little drink for me!
I have PM Suki twice about 3 weeks ago and last week as yet not had reply.
Maybe she is just taking a break while in therapy.

Lukalee Oh you so strike a chord with me! I have the same fight daily thinking ahead on dates and AL convincing me that, "well you have been good,so why not...........etc etc
The voice is not so loud now and like training a dog, a few "SIT WAIT" commands seem to be working at the moment.
The knowing how much you drank is so me! I have a file with copies of my drinktracker,how sad is that, not only can I quote dates but units too!!!

Rustop Mad Mummy Hi and thanks

Where is my winged Amigo?

Have a lovely day everyone I always check in later to read up on the news.

Take care

Eastx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Sun shining and another beautiful day. Cant wait to get out into the garden.

Lukalee, once again you struck a chord. That is exactly the way I think or have thought in the past. As I probably said before I rewarded myself for doing 30 AF with Al!! or I knew a nice dinner was coming up for Valentines and that kept me going, I would do AF up to it and then have wine at that dinner. I guess what it boils down to is that I am having trouble letting go. I started off wanting to do 30, 60, 90 days, hell a lifetime AF. I slipped and was so disappointed in myself. However, slowly but surely I am getting there. I have gone from drinking a bottle of wine every day to 90% AF. I kept a record of my AF days last year in a little calendar and am doing the same this year, while there have been slips there is no comparison. I have to hold onto that and keep plugging along. I CANNOT AND WILL NOT go back to drinking a bottle of wine a night.

Well done East on passing your last AF milestone. I am coming up to that next week. Teardrop, into double digits, another milestone. Fby, Sweetpea and everyone else keeping going WE CAN DO THIS.

Rustop