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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers

Hope everyone has a great weekend

Teardrop I know it is so hard but you know we are all there for you. Suki is right you need to make some fun time for you and take care of yourself. You are so worth it so try even if it starts with just little things by putting yourself first and as Flutterby says hang on in there

Flutterby love my award XX

Suki tell your friend we would love to have her on board. It must be really tough to be a single parent with 3 kids but with a great friend like you she knows that she is not alone in this world. You did well to have some AF days and at least you did not go mad and have loads

How are you feeling Rustop have you managed to get that cold under control

Eastender how is the building works going

Not doing so great myself, I have not managed to go AF again BUT I have only had a couple so being in a positive frame of mind is helping loads.

So here are pleeeeeeeeeeenty of positive vibes and love coming from me to all you firecrackers

Bye for now

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[AMELIA]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello All, Just popping in to send you all positive vibes!! I have just scanned through all your posts and am warmed to the core by all of the amazing supportive people that you have on this thread. Thinking of you all as we get nearer to Christmas. Just remember, the best that we can do for ourselves this Christmas is 'our best'. If that means just being mindful of wanting to cut down our intake, or an AF day here and there, or Mods, or complete ABs then that is great. Just sticking close to the boards and your friends on this thread will be a great support and comfort to you.:h :h :h
Best wishes.xxx

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HAPPY WEEKEND Firecrackers and all visting crackers!!

I came across this poem recently & thought you might like it.....

Perfect Imperfection
by Melissa Bachara

I am a contradiction
a perfect imperfection
On looking in from outside
I think I?d pass inspection

My nails are neat, each hair in place
My clothes the latest styles
But look a little closer,
And you can see my trials

The window to my balanced soul
Is stained from too much smoke
A birds eye view down at my heart
Will clearly show it?s broke

My best intentions lead to pain
And complicated messes
My head is filled with wishes,
My decisions second guesses

There was a time I tried to hide
each wrinkle, scar and tear
But I?m learning to appreciate
That I?m more than I appear

Each wrinkle tells a story
The path from there to here
I?ve earned a little wisdom
With every falling tear

My soul will soar in brilliant skies
But then I?ll need to rest
The embers of my passion
Still smolder in my chest

Perhaps I?ll let my hair go wild
And skip the manicure
I?ll wear my favorite color
They?ll say "Hey, look at her"

My hair, my heart, my clothes, my soul
Will walk in one direction
No longer contradicting
My perfect imperfection

Let's feel good about ourselves today... we are all special.
:h :h
Fby

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers

How is everyone very busy pre Christmas preparations I suspect

Many thanks Amelia for those wonderful vibes. As you so rightly say we can only do our best at the moment - wish I was being better though but still I am a long way from where I was

Flutterby the poem is lovely especially
"My hair, my heart, my clothes, my soul
Will walk in one direction
No longer contradicting
My perfect imperfection"

We can all strive to get to that stage in life - sooner rather than later I hope. Thanks xx

Anyway folk catch you all later have a good day

:hug: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Suki411]

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good morning Firecrackers. Going to be a messy day here, snow, then rain, then ice. A good day to stay in and get things done that I put off, because I was too busy being depressed, feeling sorry for myself and drinking. Cleaned my kitchen floor yesterday. YEH!

Amelia, great, great post. Really appreciate your vibes, Christmas is a difficult time for many (including me). Like Sweetpea, I wish I was doing better, but am doing my best at the moment.

Flutterby, another wonderful poem. Thank you.

Sweetpea, I'm so grateful you started this thread. I usually wake up anxious and a bit depressed. Not wanting to get out of bed and start the day. I now wake up earlier, make a cup of tension tamer tea and log on and get inspired thanks to you and all of the other Firecrackers. :thanks:

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning Suki & all,
I agree, there is something special and theraputic about waking up with MWO

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone,

Flutterby love the poem. I'm going to get my haircut this week to make me feel good.

Suki Thanks, your right you hit the nail on the head. some times i do feel like i do everything i feel like a single mum. But i can't sit still for too long always on the go. but will try and take a few steps back and think.

Sweetpea: Thanks, sweetpea i'm hanging in there. The ice skating with my daughter was fun.

Amelia thanks for poping in for your positive vibes. We definitely get a lot of comfort and support and this thread.

Rustop: Hope your feeling better.
Eastender: Hope everything is ok with the builders at home.

1day AF. You know i did promised myself that i would not come on here if i had a drink b'cause by then its to late. A while ago i open a thread, and flip said to me, its not the problem that the problem, its how you are dealing with it and the drink is the promblem.( I can see this so clear to me now) The gymnastic bit hit home never like being at home,but b'cause i had a drink the problem become a problem. Also on that thread beatle said the drink intensifying with emotions and make you less rational, she is so right.

Hope everyone is feeling positive today.

Love
Teardrop.x

[Suki411]

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Good to hear from you Teardrop! So glad that you sound more upbeat and knowing that you need to care for yourself, too.

Wish I felt a bit better. Had a couple of glasses of wine, Friday and Saturday nights, no vodka though, that's good. You were right when you said that drinking intensifies emotions and makes you feel less rational.

I wish had stayed af, but I was with my friend and her mom and three kids, who always make me laugh! One thing that has changed since I came on this thread, is that I no longer beat myself up. HUGE STEP for me. Very positive change. I think it kept me on the treadmill and give me one more reason to drink when I got home every night.

Fby, yes, this site is therapeutic. I'm annoyed that work has blocked this site. It's was so great to pop on during the day. I think I'm going to make a diarama (did anyone make one with their kids for school). I think I made every diarama for my friend's kids. This one will be the Firecrackers, will bring it to work and put in on the top of my computer. There will be a butterfly (FBY), a cheerleader (Sweetpea), and I'm thinking about how I'll do the rest of you.

Hope all have a great day. I feel more positive already.
Thanks:h :h :h

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi-- it's me again. I inadvertently hit the post key after the first sentence on the last go round.....
Anyway, I will be heading up north today to meet with an incoming blizzard! At least I'll be able to relate to the northern firecrackers :-). Looking forward to a family holiday with a lot of R&R (AND SKIING!!!). Since I will be out in the boonies (slang for the middle of nowhere) for the most part, I will not be able to get my daily MWO fix but I will be with you guys in spirit. I plan to keep the program going -- supps/motivational CDs/exercise and will check in when I can find a hot spot.
In the meantime..... I hope everyone can connect with a little holiday cheer to warm their hearts and minds.
Happy Holidays Firecrackers!!! You will be in my thoughts....
xox
Fby

The joy of brightening other lives, bearing each others' burdens, easing other's loads and supplanting empty hearts and lives with generous gifts becomes for us the magic of Christmas. -W. C. Jones

[Guest]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone, I haven't posted on this thread before.

I am fairly new to MWO and am on day 35 AF. I want to abs the rest of DEC and JAN. So I am joining this thread to in addition to the "Monthly Abstinence" Thread.

I have never made it to 60 days Af before but my next goal is 60.
.....then 100.

I might try mods after that or just continue on AF depending on what I decide at that time.

This looks like an interesting thread so I thought I would join in here too.

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Rosaline,
I was just going to bed and see your post , you and everyone are welcome on this thread, just like to say well done for 35days. keep up th good work. good luck for 60days AF i got that feeling that you are strong enought to do this. you will get lots of support here!! so keep on posting.

love
Teardrop.x (big time)

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Rosalind, you joined in November and are 35+days AF already. CHEERS FOR YOU!

I joined in November and had a 7 day AF, a 3 day and a 5 day AF. I'm far behind you, but I know that regardless of the stress I am going through, I will make it, eventually. With the support on this thread and what i've learned from being here.

Welcome. You are pushing me to be more confident that I,too, can get to 35 days AF.

Stay here, read, post with the Firecrackers they are the most amazing people.

Sxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:wavin: Morning all you wonderful Firecrackers old, new and all visiting crackers - Eastender, Rustop61, db2fromala, gabby1go, Roz and Sis, cuckoosnest83, flutterby, cowgal, Finski, slightlysuze, evergreen, MissCheryl, Leebo, Amelia, wonderworld, CaptJBean, paula, debruce, Janice, Teardrop, exteacher, retteacher, Feeling Fortunate, betty boop, meditation mama, Cheebs, Veronica, xEmx, Start over, Izzie, Raoul, Janka, Rags, Doggygirl, Livewire, Chief, blondie, Suki411,Victory, Wakeupmum, Long Road, Sante, Bookmum, Elainey and Rosalind.
Just wanted to say hi and hope that everyone is finding some peace and joy whether it is in AF mode or getting to grips with cutting down on your drinking. Can't say I have been the bestest pea in the pod but I have certainly made great inroads into getting there. I know full well you will join me in my quest. I WILL DO IT I WILL DO IT. Many of you that have followed this and other threads will see that it can be a rollercoaster ride for us all but as long as the support is maintained WE WILL GET THERE or at least to some place where we feel more comfortable. THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT FOLKS XX

:goodjob: Rosalind and welcome to the Firecrackers. Day 35 AF that is really fantastic well done. We look forward to receiving your updates and to let you know that loads of support will be winging there way to you to help with your quest to 60 days and then on wards from there -xx

Rustop How are you feeling. Better I hope. Worried that you have not posted, hopefully it is because you have been so busy and not because you have been too poorly to get to the computer. Mind you with the bad weather some servers have been down, but here hoping you are feeling better soon

Flutterby hope you have a great holiday we will miss those wonderful poems but look forward to hearing from you if you get the chance to post. If not have a great Christmas xx

Suki as always a true and supportive friend. You may not be AF at the moment but you are certainly keeping things under control. Well done - Hey a clean kitchen floor - WOW must get my mop out!! I have friends that dust/Hoover/mop every day :nutso: Can't see the point of doing it everyday - Clean enough to be healthy is my motto - or am I just making excuses for myself!! Hope the paperwork is coming on OK - would give you a hand if I could. It is a great shame that they have blocked this site for you at work but you know we are always there for you. xx

Teardrop having my hair done always makes me feel good so well done. Get yourself some more treats to make you feel better. I am also thinking of having my nails done - never had them done professionally before so for me it will be a treat. Keep striving to feel positive about life because each little step is a step loser to where you want to be. Loads of good vibes and love winging your way xx

Eastender has that pesky builder cut your electric off!!!!! I am hoping it is because you have been too busy Christmas shopping to post. Would hate to think of you sitting there in the cold without the very best wishes of your MWO mates to keep you warm xx Anyway hope all is well and look forward to hearing from you soon

Everyone else my very best wishes, love, support and strong vibes come rushing toward you. Let me know how you are

:groupluv: Sweetpeaxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Thanks for the good wishes. Cold is much better but still there. Yesterday was hectic so I did not get near a computer. Went out for a lovely meal on Saturday night and I did have half a glass of wine with it. I must admit I did enjoy it, I sipped and savoured rather than guzzled like I used to. Because I was driving I knew I could not have any more. I am so disciplined in that way and yet at home when I am drinking that discipline just goes out the window!! In one way it was a shame to break my AF run but I stayed AF yesterday and plan the same today and for most of the month and then completely AF in January.

Got to run, will catch up with you all later.

Rustop

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Its a Wonderful Life

Hi all you Firecrackers,
Not been on MWO for a couple of days really missed it! Quite stressed with builders but Mr East noticed that I was looking a bit sad and after dinner last night put my favorite film on, Its a wonderful life which always makes me cry (in a good way!)
The quote at the end of the film "Remember no man is a failure who has friends" made me sob!
I feel that all you guys know the real me, Without all the airs and graces we put on to impress our own friends,who probably under neath it all have the same fears and doubts.But fearful to admit I remeber being there myself.
Back to the film -I hope that, like George Bailey I can contribute in a small way to the happiness of others !
Anyway enough of the sentimental stuff, I remained AF for 6 days but drank wine last night, Gave in again!!!!!, but learning!
I think this experiment of trying to moderate in December is teaching me that I JUST CAN'T! :upset:

Suki Kitchen floor well mine is nowhere to be seen at the moment! I know what you mean about the step of not beating yourself up, I have noticed that too! It is true that your best is all you can do.