FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

2days AF

:hallo: to all you firecrackers,

Just a very quick post, Have a great weekend AF everyone and :goodluck: to you all.

cheryl good to see you back, we ARE here for you, so keep posting and take care.

Love
Teardrop.x

[FinallyRN]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

hi cheryl. We haven't met but I'm firecracker # 32. Welcome.
I know what you mean by the physical affects. Fatigue, depression, bloat, to name but a few.
You can do it. We're here.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Day 25 AF

Hi Firecrackers,

Sweetpea, Lucky girl, you beat me to a break, I am so jeolous. Enjoy your time away and I hope the weather is better than it has been! Will miss you!

Teardrop.Well done on your day 2 AF, The new avator is great ,Is it a real place or trick photography?

Fby, Poor you, Hope you are feeling better today, wrap up warm and take care miss your poems and wisdom.

Evergreen, I have only two girls but 1 son that can make up for two girls. Who said that boys were easier? A man I suppose:H
My age gap between them very similar to yours 26 24 and 17. Youngest is worse than the other two teenage stage put together!
Thanks anyway for your input much appreciated.

Lukalee. Congrats on your 30 days, I found that stage scary because you have reached the goal, Where from here? Are you going to remain AF or Mod?

Finally Missed the group Hug :upset:

Suki Great to hear from you, I just bought a pair of PJ's with a baby polar bear on them in your honour they are officially my Suki PJ's:H
Hope your "date" at the match was good, and I hear what you say re my daughter, It just tears you apart, between the doing and "getting it" if you know what I mean. Like your cat on walkies, she wants independance, (howls with a lead) but can't cope when she has it!

Rustop Hi to you hope you are doing OK.

Miss Cheryl. Hi and welcome, lovely to see you back.
Don't be scared we are here for you, todays another day, You will get all the support you need from us Firecrackers just post away!

Have a great day and weekend and take care out there!

Eastx

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning crackers. I hope our Sweetpea is having a good weekend away with Mr. Pea. He sounds perfect for her!

FinallyRN, do you ever sleep or do you work a late shift? Can just imagine the joy your dog feels body surfing!

Fby, thinking of you, hope you are feeling better.

East, how is the house coming along? I know it's an old Victorian, do you still have a lot of the original details? Love Victorians. There are some in the town where I grew up. The pain t jobs on the outside are fabulous. Don't they call them "painted ladies"? Hope your daughter is doing ok and not stressing you out too much.

Rustop, never made it to the beach. Overslept a bit and had just enough time to look out the livingroom doors at the beach, but the sea air was wonderful! After having not gone down there for 10+ years while taking care of Mom have been down 3 times this month, if only for an hour or two. Since I'm losing my job in July and getting 5 months severance, planning on spending lots of time down there. Oh joy! But, spent several hours at the lawyer's, giving my affidavit for the hearing that I just found out I have to go to court on Tuesday. Uggh.

MissC, glad to see you back! Sorry about your computer. Work on one for 8-10 hours a day, never wanted one at home. Got my laptop a year ago. Couldn't live without it now.
You will feel spectacular if you hang out here.

Teardrop, love your new avatar.

To all other crackers, hope you all have a great day. Planning to go for a long walk, even though it's so cold here. But after yesterday's meeting with the lawyer, and my two drinks when I got home. Need to get back on track

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

East, posting at the same time. 25 days....awesome. I'll get there soon. Just have to remember how much I've changed, how much stronger I am since finding MWO and all of you, how many AF days I've had since November. Sweetpea was right, during our chat. It is so important to visit here often.

Didn't go to the match. My "date" had to study! Came home and had two drinks. Oh well.

Love the pj's!

[evergreen]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers!!

Sweetpea - hope you are enjoying your time a way. I made it through day 4 in big part to having little temptations this week but there all the same.

Eastender - I'll be looking to you for advice as time goes on I'm sure. My older girls are convinced that the youngest is going to get away with murder!! (which my have some truth to it!). It is amazing is it not how very different they can all be even coming from the same gene pool!! Do we as mothers ever get over the worry - do we ever feel that we can stop protecting them from themselves? Hang in there!

Teardrop - I love your new avatar. It is more hopeful. The teardrop in the rock is window of opportunity!!

Finally RN - my yellow lab actually body surfs through my kitchen when she gets wound up!!)

MissC - I am with you completely. I fell down trying to mod over Christmas and found myself in January actually drinking more than ever as I "tried" to stop. I completely quit posting but lurked around. Sweetpea got me motivated and I am on Day 5 going for the rest of the month - baby steps. Join us!!! Good to have you back!!

Rustop - Hi. I always enjoy your posts - we have much in common.

FinallyRN-thought of you yesterday when I was in an obnoxiously good mood because . . . . I'm not drinking!!!

Suki - the ocean is so calming!!! Hang in there with all that you have going on!!!

All you other crackers - FIRE UP!!!!!

Evergreen

[FinallyRN]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi, everyone! Its me again!!..............obnoxious Firecracker from the west coooaassstt!

Suki, I carry a pager for emergencies, I wake up at a drop of a hat when its goes off in the middle of the night. I've been doing this too long. I can get up for an hour and can go back to bed. I have been following your progress, you should be proud!

As to all of you who have inquired about my surfing lab...........he really does surf! The lifeguards get a kick out of watching him. I throw the ball in the surf and he runs to get it. After awhile he throws the ball in himself so he has an excuse to go in! Its really hard to get him home!

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone,
Not so good here but getting better.
Love you all,

Fby

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning firecrackers!! I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!
I went 30 days and then fell on my ass on day 31. It was much needed though. Now I am doing it ODAT. Day 2 again, and it is much easier this time around.

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi everyone

Hope Sweetpea is enjoying her time away. I have a million and one things to do at the moment so this is just a quick check in. Well done on the 30 Days Lukalee, it does get easier the more AF time you get under your belt. Have you read Croft's post over in newbies about beating yourself up and each of us doing it our way?? It's very good.

Have a great week-end everyone.

Rustop

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning all. Hey Lukalee, regarding your new avatar.....where did you get my picture? Good for you for your attitude!

East, my cats are wimps. They are indoor cats, but constantly making plans to escape if they see me walk to a door. Every once in a while, they sneak out, get 3 feet away from the door and freeze like little garden statues. They are easy to scoop up.

Hope Sweetpea and Mr. Pea are enjoying themselves.

Fby, hope you are feeling better.

Must get up and out of here. Want to leave here before AL knows I'm here.

Grey, gloomy and cold outside but good for a field trip.

My best to all crackers. Suki xxxxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

Glad to see you are all doing so well. I will now confess to my sins!
I dropped my halo last night and had 2 glasses of wine not out of stress, (although had enough of that of late) or need but I wanted to!
I have been thinking hard the last few days about the 30 day AF plan (was at day 25)
On the last 30 days I did, I reached the goal and felt lost, Do I continue AF of Mod? On day 33 attempted to Mod NOT GOOD! Failed miserably:upset:
I felt like Suki's cats wanted to get out have the freedom but froze 3 feet from the door!
Only MWO pals were there to scoop me up, tell me it was OK to fail as long as I did not give up. I am glad to say I did not give up.
This period of AF has seen me do a lot of thinking,(sober enough to I guess :H )
Reading everyones posts can be very thought provoking and ask questions of myself that in 50 years of life I never have! Always been tooooo busy trying to please everyone else and trying to be as "perfect" as I can. Good Wife,Mum,daughter,sister,worker,cook,cleaner etc....etc. Somewhere along the way I LOST ME!

Yesterday I believe that I found me and I am hanging on to her tight and reeling her in like a trophy fish! I just hope that from today she stays with me. I know the only way she will stay is if I stay AF MOST of the time.
Sorry it was so long winded but I wanted to admit my slip in a feel good way,not in shame as I have in the past. Strange, Crofts thread that Rustop mentioned above is exactly what I needed to read today, Thanks RU you were my guardian angel today!

Suki,My Victorian House is looking a little wounded at the moment but she is getting there!

Evergreen, Ask away if you need advice,and yes it is true the youngest get away with murder.

FinallyRN, A pic of your surfing lab would make a great avatar!

Fby. wishing you better,looking forward to hearing more words of wisdom soon.

Lukalee. You are only human beating yourself up does no one anygood. Keep positive you are winning.

Rustop. Thanks again (as above) for mentioning the thread by Croft it just galvanised what had been ticking over in my head.

Sweetpea. Hope you and Mr Pea having a great time will meet you back on the train.



Take care

Eastx

[FinallyRN]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Boy, Crofts thread has really hit a chord with everyone. Myself included. Nothing new to report. Life goes on. Everyday I have been here, I learn something more.
I have learned that I can be Af, each period getting longer and longer. And with that lesson has come a peace that I can't explain. Maybe I beginning to realize that there is a life after booze.
Good idea, Eastender I'm taking the camara to the beach...........surfing Ringo!!!!!!
Peace to all. Until tomorrow

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

East, no need to confess, your halo did not slip (in my eyes) you had a day that was so important to you. Realizing that you have been trying to make sure that everyone in your life is happy and protected, but you lost you. So important that you realized it and found East! Loved that you used the term "trophy" when describing yourself.

I don't have a husband, kids, BF, or a lot of friends. I do have a few weird, but wonderful cats. And found out today that I have some wonderful friends. Most of my family, well actually, my sister, sucks.

Had this week off to do paperwork, spent a 14 hour day thursday, driving to Cape Cod, to meet with lawyers, contractors, etc. Friday, needed to go into work to print out my desposition, since my printer at home does not work.

Got home, missed going to the movies with a friend. Sat on the bed with my laptop, and fell asleep. When i told her that today, she accused me of drinking. Couldn't be farther from the truth. BUT, I went to my favorite farm stand, got some fresh squeezed grapefruit juice, stopped for a bottle of vodka. Made two drinks. So my halo, is rolling around somewhere, probably under the bed with all of the dust bunnies and cat hair. Should get my spinning wheel out, with all the cat hair, could probably generate enough yarn to make gloves or socks for all of the crackers. Of course, Ringo and the other dogs would probably sniff themselves silly.

Then got calls from several friends, offering to take tuesday off to go to court with me. Unconditional support, unlike that of my sister's. What is hard for me, is that I know that I have been trying to seek her approval for years. And now that I am beginning to know myself and put myself first, I don't care about her approval. Hard to admit, because she is basically the only family that I have.

East, I'm so proud of you. I also have to admit that being AF has done wonders for me. The fog has lifted. I too loved Croft's post.

RN, can't wait to see the pictures of surfing Ringo!

Lukalee, are you changing your avatar every day!

Sweetpea, looking forward to your return. Hope you weekend was wonderful.

To all of the other crackers, a wonderful Sunday is ahead of us!

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Yes, Crofts post struck a chord with lots of us. Like you East I too wonder where I am going at times. It feels so good to be AF but every so often you just want to get away from things. I am on Day 27 which is great. We are going out for an early Valentine dinner as hubby is away that week. I know I will have wine with the meal and I must admit that the thought has kept me going at times. I tell myself I wont drink that particular day because I have this to look forward to. Crazy but whatever keeps you going!! Lent is coming and the plan is to do it AF, great excuse as well when out socially.

Enjoy the rest of the week-end.

Rustop