FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[Suki411]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Fby, would love the name of the woman/cds.

I listen to some by Belleruth Naperstak, who does guided imagery. One of my favorite is on Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Will post her website when I get it.

Thanks!

Suki

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Teardrop:h :l xx we are all here for you. I am so sorry about the jobs and no you are not being negative you have every right to share your day with us so we can support you. WHO WAS THERE FOR ME AT THE BEGINNING OF THE WEEK LOLovexx I was in a right state and you were all there for me - I can't thank you all enough for that. The one thing I am learning on MWO is that it actually has great personal benefits to be able to be a sounding block, offer support, be a shoulder to cry, just be here even - If you think about it most of us in varying degrees has had situations to deal with that has challenged us to the degree it has made us ill - to be able to give back some support to a kindred spirit and soul mate is such a morale booster and makes us actually feel -YES I AM WORTH IT - So my friend take heart all the crackers are here for you - things will get better - tiny steps and things will come together for you

Rustop I would be very interested in - "psychotherapy? I have been reading about it and it sounds interesting, especially the coping/behavioral part." - let us know more about it

Fby yes I am feeling more positive - depressive black holes do nothing for my complexion :H !! Let me know about getting rid of the old stuff - seems the story of my life - think I am getting over a situation - then bang something happens and instead of dealing with the last thing I truck the whole damn lot out again!!!!!!!!!!! Am I the only want that does that Mnnnnnnnn might start another thread and see what comes out

Suki, you know you are always in our thoughts, you have had to deal with so much but you are a star and so supportive to us all LOLove xx . You will get there because we will be by your side the whole way there xxx Onwards and upwards on the sweetpea express - Wagons Ho - or whatever they used to say !!! Shows my age :H Sorry

East LOLovexxxxx Thinking of you xx

Love to everyone else

Sweetpeaxxxx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thanks You guys a lot.xxx Last week had one door close, just cant believe two doors today. The think is i really work my butt of for them.. I know i was in the wrong and said sorry on the same note she left for me in the kitchen.
I'm interested on the psychotherapy also rustop, let us know any more information..
I normally go to group sessions counselling, but next week i will have my one to one session, feeling scared already.
I will try and not drink today because i know it will only make me feel worst of in the end.

Love You All.:h
Teardrop.x

[Lucy Van Pelt]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HI guys...can I join you? I would like to make today my day 1. I don't do lent, but I want to be AF...

Thanks

Beth

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone,

I sooooo missed all you guys this week. Reading through the posts it seems like no one is having a great time at the moment.
Had an awful week since Monday, builders are here and spent a lot of time out the house choosing decoration details.
My daughter had been incredibly hard going, coming in 3-4 in the morning (without my permission) refusing to go to college, Her reason being "she does'nt WANT to go". I got so tired and frustrated with her I told her if she did not like the rules of the house, she should find somewhere else. It broke my heart, which i openly did tearfully when my unsuspecting builders arrived the same morning, Poor chaps where speechless!

Needless to say she did'nt leave, she would have needed forty suitcases if she did and after showing off,rang all her friends, Don't think anyone was prepared to take her on!
In a hardware store yesterday I was queing to pay when she called and stated that she was having her tongue pierced! Well the people in B &Q must have thought I had lost my marbles. I was screaming NO....Way No.....No.....NO!
Her dads answer was that he has enough problems with the holes God gave him without making more!
This is the girl who only six moths ago for a normal blood test asked for Magic cream (babies anesthetic) to numb the pain.
I have trouble understanding her lazy speech as it is without having a bolt in her mouth!
I have told her to wait until she is lawfully able to have it done at 18. I turned a reluctant blind eye to the tatoo a few months ago.

I AM GOING INSANE with frustration
Have had one day 5th February where I downed 1 bottle of wine. Somehow it feels good to count the days I drink rather than AF days because they are less! if you get my meaning.

Sweetpea I said in my last post that I saved you a hug, here it is :armsaround:
I am so sorry that I have not been around for you, Thank you for your concern, but I think we were both climbing to the top of the hill in the rain without an umbrella!

Fby Thanks for asking after me, today I will change my smiley so you can be the tired one if you like! I love the "main course of wine and a glass of dinner" made me smile

FinallyRN Enjoy your visit to Mom,safe journey

Rustop. I am hanging by the skin of my teeth, Glad that your "dinner date" went well. If you find that ON switch tell me where it is, I will rip it out!
Parenting skills what are they? My yougest is trying to prove to me I am lacking badly in that area.

Teardrop You are right we need to log on to get the MWO strength, sorry to hear about your job losses,I am sure something will come along for you. I am thinking of you.

Suki. AA would not be for me, What would be the point of me going to heaven? I wouldn't know anyone if you have to be perfect, I would rather burn in hell with all the people I do know with vices !! No AA not for me either.

Will try to keep in touch more often

Have a great day to all FC's I have not mentioned


Take care

Eastx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Beth and :welcome: Cross posting!
Great to have you on our train.

Eastx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

A very quick post as I am just going out

Eastender I cannot tell you how happy I am to hear you are alright xxxxx will post more later or tomorrow

:welcome: Beth so pleased to have you on board with the rest of the firecrackers

Teardrop take heart we are with you xxx


Lots of Love Sweetpea x:l

[hope365]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hello again everyone...it's good to be back after an 18 month absence. I'm joining in....I can't believe I have fallen down so far so fast! I went out last night and had way too many martini's. Don't remember going to bed. Thankfully I wasn't driving. I am so mad at myself. What on earth is wrong with me after all these months sober!!! I guess I let my depression get the best of me. Oh well...there's always today.

Hope

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea is feeling more upbeat today YAY love you all

Morning all you lovely crackers

:welcome: hope glad to have you aboard the sweetpea express. We can all relate to the depression aspect because it seems to be a big trigger. 18 months AF and then a slip think about how good you have been and the fact you are getting straight back into dealing with giving big AL his marching orders. Well done, you can do - it think of all the positives you have achieved over the past 18 months

East it was such a relief to hear from you yesterday, Sorry if I sounded a bit paranoid but I do get anxious when I don't hear from folk. Sounds like you have been going through the mill my friend what with the decorators and your daughter. How long is it going to take them to finish? Are you doing the decorating yourselves or will they do it once the construction has finished? Either way you still have a bit to go I expect, but think how lovely it is going to look when it is finished. As for bursting out in tears in front of the builders I think you Will find it is not that unusual, because, the stress of all the work going on is enough to reduce most of us to tears, let alone adding the daughter factor into the equation. Talking about daughter my heart goes out to you - been there and done that one and it doesn't seem to get better - It is just the arguments that change shape. Why is it they cannot see what is front of their nose - NO - I suspect I could not either at that age BUT I think you are right it is time now for some tough love. If it gets any worse pack a bag for her and put it outside the front door!!! She might realise then that she has to start toeing the line a bit more WHO KNOWS BUT we are all feeling for you and send you loads of love XXXX Pierced tongue sends shivers down my spine at the thought of the pain of having it done!!!!

Teardrop I am thinking of you and sending you strong vibes to resist big AL. You may find the one to one counseling session easier to handle I shall be thinking of you xx

Suki hope you had a good day and you are enjoying the ride on the sweetpea express hang on tight because we can do it we can do it

Fby I did start a new thread yesterday and there has been some thought provoking comments. I do need time to digest them all, but I am sure there is going to be some positive things that we can all take away with us. Lord knows, at times I do need that extra push to keep me from getting depressed and partying with big AL - Onwards and Upwards my friend we can do it

Rustop the last day today then you can have a well deserved rest during half term

Beth let us know how you got on yesterday because there is so much love and support on this train and everyone will support you with whatever you need to deal with

Erin, Finsky, RN, Wakeupmom and all other Crackers have a good day loads of love and strong vibes coming your way

:groupluv: Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

My new thought of the day which is a tiny step for me to overcome being depressed

1 - ALWAYS LOOK AT BOTH SIDES OF THE COIN - Is my glass half empty or half full - Not of big AL ha ha Example

Son goes to visit Mother in Law instead of me

HALF EMPTY - Why the hell am I not getting a visit - it is my turn - what have I done wrong!!!!!
HALF FULL - It is my turn for a visit but I know he is such a caring soul so there must be a good reason why he is going - He will tell me in all good time (think I might shine my halo at this point BUT the deed has to be done!!!!)

A relatively simple exercise which I plan to implement immediately - Every time I have a negative thought I am going to look and see what is on the other side of the coin before I get depressed and go in search of AL. If I try and do this every time I have a negative thought it should, given practice, hopefully stop me from looking at what I have lost instead of what I might gain. We are all human and this is going to be a life changing strategy but if I am a depressive soul by nature through my upbringing then the only person that can make that change now is me - With the help of MWO friends LOLovexx

Firecrackers, forever dear to my heart - we can do it

LOts of love Sweetpea xxxx

[LauraAnn]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Too late to join? I'm only 1 day AF... gave it up for Lent. I absolutely must do this.

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: LauraAnne It is NEVER too late to join the Firecrackers. I can honestly say I have never come across such a supportive caring group before. We will be there to support YOU along your journey with love and understanding - jump on the sweetpea express. We all have our good and bad days so remember keep reading and posting whatever LOLovexx

Sweetpea xx:l :h

[hope365]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Thank you Sweetpea! I feel a bit better after yesterday....had my usual morning after McGriddle Combo/Diet Coke hangover breakfast! I don't know why I crave that after a bad drinking night. I never ever crave it any other time. All the fat and calories....yuck!! Anyway...36 hours AF now....whew whooo!!! Starting out today feeling OK.

I have a tummy upset from magnesium. Anyone else get that???

I hope everyone is feeling well today. Thanks for all your encouraging and thought provoking words! Blessings to all!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hope :h hang on in there with the tummy upset - it is the first place I have problems when I am under stress which is caused from a number of reasons including not having so much to drink. So pleased you are feeling a little better today - things will improve

Lots of love - take care

Sweetpea xxx:l

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just popped in to say a quick hello. Good to see you back East. My girls are on mid-term so I will be missing in action for a few days. Will catch up with all of you when I get back next week.

Rustop