FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[flutterby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

Enjoy your holiday SweetPea.... and yes, I will toot your horn and blow your whistle, and beat your drum while you are away!! Nothing like musical multi-tasking to keep a person busy (and out of trouble :angel -- oh almost forgot the cheerleader :cheering: -- there everthing is covered.

I have today off :yay: but as I'm sitting here getting my act together I realize that the expectations for what I want to get done today at home are waaaay too ambitious. This leads to anxiety which triggers my monkey mind :crazymonkey: and you-know-who :alf: is soooo attracted to my monkey mind. I have to keep them apart so AL won't get lucky.

Speaking of lucky...Did you know that getting pooped on by a bird is also considered good luck? I think I will start today by throwing out my to-do list and find some "horse duffers to tread in" (I just love the way you put things SweetOne) or maybe stand under a telephone wire lined with birds hoping for a well-aimed poop. I tried to do a google search on the origin of why getting pooped on is considered good luck but was not entirely successful. I did come up with the origin of the word poop though --it seems to have appeared in its current form in 1735, and was developed from the word "powpen" or "popen", which meant to blow or sound a horn. Go figure!

Okay - enough of that.

Sending hugs to Rustop (Day 11--YES !!!!), Barebones (Day 41- WOW!!), AntEast (Day 20- AWESOME!!), Matt (Day 7? Seven is a lucky number!!), Erin (Day 60+++ -- FANTASTIC!) and more hugs for those that I don't have #s for but are also doing so well -- that would be you Teardrop, Lukalee, WW, any other train mates, and Me!!

Will leave you with this thought....

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. "
- unknown

Go out and make One Good Day! OGDAT!!!

[happydog]

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Hi everyone,

sweetpea.. Have a nice weekendbreak..Talk about lck i did find a 20note in my jacket pocket....nothing like thousands...oh well cant give up my day job.
Barebone...hope your feeling ok and well done 41day af.
rustop.. keep with it and you will loss more. well done 11days AF.
Eastt Hope all is well..thinking of you.
Flutterby..hows it going... domt forget to blow that whistle.

Everyone take care.x

love
Teardrop.x

[cowgal]

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hi all!

Just poppin in to say hi to everyone, very busy here at work, but always thinking about how you all are doing, I'm doing fine, AF alot, but moderating well when I want to have a beer or two..................

I haven't had time to read all the way back to before I left for vacation, but it seems all is pretty much well, and the same

Love to all!!:l:h:h

MA

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I hope everyone had a great day. Trying to do 30 days of not just drinking but a diet and exercise plan too. I think I lost a couple of pounds this week. WOOHOO!!! Trying not to think about what day I am on until I get close to my goal. Wish me luck!
Hugs

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone

cant get to sleep so like to say have a good day,
Lukelee. i think that is the best way is not to think what day it is !!!
all the best of luck to you.

Take it easy everyone.x

Love
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

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Hmmmmmmm should learn to keep my mouth shut

:upset: Just when I think I have AL in control I have a really bad day and party with :alf: but the big question is why?????? :headbanger::mad-door:. I suppose if I could answer that I would not be here feeling like I have let the whole world down again!!! I am not ill - I have a comfortable life style - I have no real worries - Had thought I had got my triggers under control - THEN WHAM AL creeps up on me and for no reason at all I drink myself into a stupor - not intentionally of course - BUT WHY WHY WHY. It started off with oh I will treat myself and have a glass of wine with my lunch, which turns into 2 etc etc you know the rest. Old habits die hard I suppose but I am felling really rotten and ashamed of myself for being so weak willed and letting AL get the better of me. So my friends its back on the sweetpea express and day 1 AF for me. Mr Pea is fast losing patience, my kids are bewildered and I have lost my self respect and hate myself more than any one else ever could. BUT self pity is not going to do the job so I must concentrate on beating AL I WILL DO IT - I WILL DO IT - I MUST DO IT

FBY blow that whistle and if you see me anywhere near AL kick my rear end for me please xx OGDAT here I come

East thinking of you xxxxx

Rustop can I come and walk the dogs with you it might help keep AL at bay

Barebones day 42 today?

Teardrop buy a lottery ticket with the ?20 you found because obviously you are in a lucky time span at the moment

Cowgal great to hear from you

Lukalee I will join you on the diet

Everyone else have a lovely weekend I will be in touch again in a few days, hopefully reporting that I have been AF

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

Sorry you are having a hard time Sweetpea. We all ask that question, why, why, why. I am starting psychotherapy as I feel its something from my past (had a disfunctional childhood). There is certainly nothing in my current life thats causing it. The first session just confirmed what I already knew but if I learn anything of interest I will let my MWO friends know. The therapist is pushing AA, you know the mindset nothing else works. He feels I should go to at least 12 meetings before I say its not for me. The two or three I went to left me depressed but maybe I'll give it a go!! Day 12 for me so feeling a bit more positive.

Lukalee I'm on the healthy eating, no junk, no Al diet. Want to loose about 10lbs before summer. Lost a few this week, the trick now is to keep it up.

Hi to everyone, rushing at the moment, will catch you all later.

Rustop

[flutterby]

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Hi Firecrackers,

Sweetpea-- DO NOT take that first drink at lunch.... the rest of the day will work out okay. The first drink of the day is the key that lets AL out of his cage to have his way with you. I know this from painful experience. One innocent glass of wine with lunch = craving for more more more. Then there is no stopping until your body stops you by shutting down. At least your body knows what's good for you or we'd all have self-destructed by now. So... DO NOT take that first drink. It is the easiest to resist because the beast is still caged. Go for a walk, sing a song, pray, get online with your MWO pals, find an AA meeting, punch a pillow and scream, get some exercise in your aerobic range and let those endorphins kick in, write a letter to yourself and mail it, get a massage, meditate, breathe deeply, take a nap, go shopping, have a decadent desert, have an AF Becks, ........ DO NOT TAKE THAT DRINK!! If you do.... I will send a flock of flutterbys to whisk it away from you. I'm going to call them now and have them at the ready.

Hope you and all the FCs have a good weekend.

[cowgal]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Friday!!!

Hi all, Sweetpea, hang in there, like fby said, (and they say in AA, which I am becoming quite fond of lately) don't pick up that first drink, that is what gets us drunk!!!!

Everyone else, keep on keepin on, I will join in the diet too, as I continue to be AF, the weight is not dropping off like it used to, which is probably age (44??) gotta be, cuz I am exercising like crazy and eating well under 1300 calories/day..................who knows, but w/ a team effort maybe it will be easier!!??

Everyone have an AWESOME Friday!!! I will try to check in, but if not, see ya all on Monday, as my weekend is TOTALLY booked!!!

love and hugs!!!!:l

MA:happyheart::lilheart:

[Eastender]

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Day 21 AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Just checked in to read but need to write! have a very busy day today meeting builder at daughters flat.

Sweetpea so sorry that the snake bit you after you have been doing so well moderating.
I find taking that first drink as fby says deadly, your then on that ride, fun and exciting at first but stopping at the black hole!
I wish I knew the answer to why?, we probably would not be here if we knew. I can only say that it does no good to hate yourself, that just encourages more distructive feelings. So pick yourself up and start again we have to be strong in our intention. Keep that monkey caged but happy. do whatever it takes to succeed in that one thing ,and you are there. Have a great break look forward to your return.

Rustop Good luck with the diet, hate that word!

Fby my winged friend love the thought of the day so apt for me at the moment.
When I had a holiday in Florida some years ago, Whilst watching the pink Flamigoes in Disney,and surounded by thousands of people, a very large bird pooped on my head, to the great amusement of everyone around. However I cannot say that it has brought me any luck since then:H

Teardrop:racer:Thanks for thinking of me. Finding money is lucky so maybe Sweetpea is right put a little on the Lottery,then you might be in with a chance to give up the day job!xxx

Lukalee, Wish you luck, Boy you are really going for it no holds barred!

Barebones 42 days, trying for 40 myself this time maybe more I hope! well done you!

Cowgal you are just a baby! Glad to see you back from your break,hope you had a lovely time.

Suki and Gary Thinking of you.

Erin Hope you are still up front driving havent heard the whistle in a while!

Have a lovely weekend everyone

Eastx

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning Firecrackers!! I am so glad it is Friday!!!! This has been one long week. Hang in Sweetpea. We have all been there, done that, and may do it again.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all
sweetpea, i agree with flutterby..drinking at lunch is a no,no for me because it will lead to afternoon drinking.... then evening drinking does not stop... then bed...next day in and out of bed all day... try and stay strong.
east and sweetpea... i will take your advise and get that lottery ticket today.

wishing everyone a great weekend.

Love:l
Teardrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

right now this is what drink is making me feel ...tired ..upset.. fed-up... weak so sick of myself... it ok i know i will feel ok in a few hours.

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Just wanted to check in. It has been a quiet weekend. How are you doing Teardrop? I hope all the Firecrackers are having a good weekend. Mine has been quiet, boring, and lonely. The usual triggers for me, but I manage to stay away from AL.

I have a doctor's appointment on Friday, and I want to be able to tell her that I haven't drank for a couple of weeks so she will be willing to help me with my desire to quit smoking. She is the type that would prefer me to tackle one thing at a time. I respect that, but I am in so in need of a complete overhaul. I am in the place right now where I feel, "Why just get an oil change; I might as well get the tires rotated too since I am here." I am just so ready for big changes.

I have the summers off, and I don't want it to be like last year where it just slipped away. I want the old me back and just live life without the pain in the asses AL and Cigs getting in the way.

Thanks for letting me ramble. Have a great day!

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Day 23 AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Teardrop sorry you are having a bad time at the moment,Hope you are feeling better today, Have you checked your lottery ticket?
Lukalee, I know what you mean by overhaul, in the middle of mine which is stressful in itself.
Giving up the cigs is hard, I tried many times after smoking for 15+ years but eventually kicked it, just keep trying it will work one day!
The booze well thats the new challenge, proving to be a lot harder, but keep trying , chipping away each day, don't give up we will get there.

Must be lovely to have the summers off are you a ski Instructor?:H Maybe mother christmas? :H

Hope all you Firecrackers are having a great weekend, sure is quiet here.........

Eastx