FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Hi Wake up mum lovely to hear from you.Yes it is great the relationships we form over time.Even though there is no faces for me anyway,to remember,we get to know the essence of someone.

Teardrop :racer::bananacomputer:roud: Did turn out sunny after my post great is'nt it?
WOW girl you are AWESOME! Thats me on the computer!

Sweetpea, Hope you had a lovely time, Miss you:l

Everyone is enjoying the weather I guess, Mr East and I are going to a fancy dress party tonite, I could be a pirate (with him) or a Nun. Nun kinda suits being AF don't you think?
In any case As a pirate no barrels of Rum for me!

Have agreat weekend everyone

Eastx

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning Eastender, Teardrop, Wakeupmom and all you firecrackers, Well I made it through a Friday night AF ! and feel motivated to keep going. I saw my old therapist yesterday. Lost contact with her for about 10 years and was seeing someone closer to home. Boy did I miss her. At the time we were talking about my divorce but now I'm back and getting much needed help for alcoholism. My new gal was good but my first therapist is the best. I always tell people if you don't mesh with a therapist at first, don't be afraid to keep trying. She wants me to go to an AA meeting. I asked her if I could work with my friends here and she said it sounded good however she had'nt herard of MWO. She also gave me the big blue book which I am actually finding good reading. Heres to our healthy journey ! Cold here but sun is out and I'm going outside to do some planting.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Kat,
Great you got through Friday,You can do it,just keep going.I think that any help is good if it works for you. Good and perhaps fate that you come across someone you like and trust.

I am struggling a bit today its day 50 AF for me today.
Party tonight is some of my classmates from High school,Havent seen most of them for almost 20 years. Crazy its Fancy dress ,fat chance on recognition!
Feel somewhat nervous not about meet,but drink at party,unlike Mr East who believes he will just look stupid.:H

Hope tomorrow I will be able to on day 51!

Eastx

[greeneyes]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

KAT20, I have hade a few therapists. Gee, I wish I didn't have to say that. But it correct that you need to have the right one. Once hubby # 1 and I left the apppointment and looked at each other w/ WTF? look. Then there was one who I felt was irresonsible in my care when he let me get in my car at night in a really difficult state. I could almost hear him saying "Next!" after he took my check of course. I see an addiction therapist now who is a former addict of multi issues. I briefly saw a couple of women but they did not have the experience to deal with my alcohol. So, pages change in the book of life.

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Greeneyes good to see you here,beginning to get a little sparse on the ground at the moment on firecrackers.Everyone must be enjoying the weather.

Sweetpea, I think I am starting to scare everyone off !

Anyway, went to fancy dress,met classmates, some not seen over 30 years, would have usually sent me straight to the bar! steered clear of AL. No one even notices whether you have AL in your glass, he just really IS playing games inside my head.oke:
I remember everything that was said ,what everyone was dressed as, and I feel great instead of guilty and embarrassed! 51 days AF today I cannot believe it myself! Maybe I will wake up soon!

Have a great Sunday wherever you are.

Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

HI ALL FIRECRACKER,

HAVE TO BE QUICK AND SHORT TODAY:

EAST...SO PROUD OF YOU 51DAYS AF IT IS FOR REAL WAKE-UP YOUR NOT DREAMING.

KAT20...GOOD FOR YOU IT DOES HELP FEELING MOTIVATED. I GO TO 1TO1 SESSION AND DID STOP GOING TO MY GROUP SESSION. BUT NOW I REALISE I DO NEED TO GO TO GROUP SESSION AS WELL....WISH I HAD GREEN FINGER NEED TO DO MY GARDEN.

I'M OF OUT ON A BIKE RIDE NOW!

TAKE CARE EVERYONE HAVE A NICE RELAXING SUNDAY.

LOVE
Teardrop.x
28days af

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Well, I totally blew it this week. Drank on Thursday night and Saturday pretty much all day. I have to say though, every time I do slip like this I gain a better understanding of what I want. The first time I did 30 days it was purely physical, and I couldn't wait for it to pass. The second time it was more for emotional purposes and to understand what I want out of life. After this binge I realize it's not about me. It's about what I can give.
Last night in my drunken stupor, I had a dream that my kids died in a horrible car accident. I was literally balling in my sleep. How can I say that I am lonely and bored when I have these two wonderful beings in my life? I realized how selfish I really am, and that I need to be putting my energy into them, rather than drinking or feeling sorry for myself.
I would like to announce the first day of not only being AF, but the new me!!!

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

I'M HOME

:jumpwow::waving: What fantastic weather we are having. Got loads to do over the next couple of weeks so may not be able to do such long posts but be assured I will be thinking of you all and sending loads of strong vibes of love and support:h

Well done on all the AF days especially - EAST 52 - TEARDROP 29 - Keep me posted everyone else on where you are at, but well done on what you have all respectively achieved (have not had time to catch up on all the posts yet)

Lukalee well done on the new you - I can so relate to where you are coming from:l

:welcome: Shillner and KAT20

East, Teardrop, Lukalee, MadMummy, Rustop, FBY, Cowgal, Massai, Wakupmom and all the other crackers hope you are all doing OK

Loads of love to you all Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxx:l

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Have not been on in a few days. My cousin Deirdre died on Thursday morning. She had cancer and was only 36. She was an amazing person and we were very priviledged to have had her in our lives. The last few days have been a roller coaster as the funeral went from my house. I'm afraid Al paid a visit, very moderately but I'm back on track again today. The hard part starts now trying to get used to her not being around any more. Hope everyone else is ok.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Rustop so sorry to hear your bad news about your cousin Deirdre my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

:l:l Sweetpea xxxxxxxx

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,

Sweetpea, Hello , so good to see you back! Hope you are well rested but it will be hard to get out of hoiliday mode with this beautiful weather!

Rustop, I am so sad for you on your loss of your cousin, at such so young an age too.
I know that you have been caring for her for some time,and emotions do play an big part in the need for AL, I admire your courage to be aware and move on,I am just "getting that" myself.

Teardrop Is it your 30 days today?

Fby That computer is out the window yet? I need my Flutterby fix

Lukalee, I really see you physical and emotional analogy(? spelling)
I felt that way too! I have come to the conclusion now that I was and still am afraid of change, probably still am. Thats what I am working on now gradual change.
I recieved my AF wines and drinks today,it is my comfort blanket for now.
I have heard on other threads that it is not useful to go on that road,because the aromas etc could set you drinking again. I am around my husband and daughter who drink daily,so I cannot avoid alcohol, so I substitute, my small change, so that I still feel part of the daily /social routine.
It may not work for everyone but its working for me. At least I have time and a clear head to appreciate what is good in life,and build on that.

Take care all you firecrackers and anyone else who is reading.

Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi ALL Firecrackers,

Swwetpea... glad to see you back home, miss not having you around.
lukalee.... good to see the new you and straight back on track.
Rustop...Sorry to hear this sad news of your cousins at such a young age. its always after the funeral it seems to hit home. You are in my thoughts and prays.:l
East... 29days af today 1 more day.( then blast off.) I can understand about the aromas. thats why i can only have Af wine at weekends and not during the week. The main thing if that works for you east carry on.:thumbs:

My son is at home now until he has his exams. His schoool has study leave, i just thing its all wrong they need routine and to be in contact with there teachers to get encourgement and that last minute talk with them... maybe have one day off before the exams.

Have a nice day everyone.

Love
Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Teardrop,
Maths not too good today! BUT we have a celebration to look forward to tomorrow!

When I went to school in the days when we wrote on stone tablets,I don't remember having this study leave,we had to attend revision lessons. Seems like the establishment want to leave all decisions up to the kids these days keep the parents in the dark and then punish the parents if it goes wrong! I do believe that kids need order and discipline in their lives to make sense of things and get on when they are older.
My rant over.

Have agreat day!

Eastx

[Mad Mummy]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone

Rustop - really sorry to hear your news will be thinking of you and your family.

Sweetpea - how did you book that weather??? Great to have you back. East and Teardrop - you 2 and really steamrolling ahead now aren't you - brilliant really well done.

Supposed to be doing my online grocery order so need to be quick!

:H

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning all, Today is day 7 ! :shocked: I'm not sure what made this time different. Well, actually I do. Its been about a year since I seriously tried to cut back or stop. I don't think I can count the number of times I've tried. This time I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired, and fat and bloated. Of course all of you and this website. East, Thanks for the link to the AF website. I emailed them and they do not ship to the US:durn: However I did find one this morning in the US. Anyway, I made it through my first big hurdle this weekend. Went out to dinner and to see a band. When people tried to get me drinks I said I was trying to lose weight for summer or that I was the designated driver. Alittle akward at first but the more I said it the easier it was. I also prepared mothers day fondue and snacks without being buzzed by the time my company came. I have many a memory or at least fuzzy of preparing holiday meals buzzed or pretty toasted. The Non rising Yorkshire pudding was one of them. Ya break alot less glasses doing the dishes as well. Wishing you all a great week. So sorry to hear of your loss Rustop.