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[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers,
Sweetpea glad you are feeling better,just one day at a time:l
Shelby So sorry that you are going through this betrayal after sticking with the practice for so long. People can be so mean,and to give not good explaination I can understand your frustration. Could your "stand in" have other motives and got round the boss somehow?
Just a thought,as a simular situation occurred in my middle daughters redundancy a few months ago.
She got mad too,just got a mortgage by herself (the boss knew) -with the company since it started...... but as I said to her, everything happens for a reason. She now has a great job that pays almost double the money! She went out for a drink with some of the old staff last week and they told her how much they missed her and the company was in a mess!
Good for you having it out with the boss my prefferred action too.
Hope everthing works out wheter you stay or go.
Will be changing my internet provider next week, hope I will still be able to keep in contact with you all!

Take care

Eastx

[lukalee]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good for you Shelby!!! Stick up for yourself!!
Today is infamous day 5 for me. For some reasons days 5 and 8 are the hardest for me to get through. A little odd I think, but hey, it is what it is.
I hope everyone has a great night/morning. I go back to work tomorrow. I don't know if that is going to be a good or bad thing yet.
CHOOO-CHOOO; all aboard!!!!

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi FC's
Lukalee good to hear from you hope you are still doing well,Five days always bad for me too, sorry to say I did not make two days ! Feel a bit hopeless at the moment, had all three kids giving me stress no excuse I know. I do not need much at the moment to get me going!!
Hope everyone doing OK, am running behind the express as fast as I can, dont leave me PLEASE!!!

Eastx

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi ALL,

EAST......I didn't made it past 2days af, but day 1 af for me again and i had no excuse.....
east i can see you, have your running shoes on because your not behind the train your on top of it..you go there girl you can do this!



Take care all firecrackers

Love
Teardrop.x

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Visitors just left but am going away for the week-end. It's much harder to keep to a routine with so much going on. However, started August AF and managed to get nearly half of July AF after returning from hoidays so onwards and upwards. Will defnitely be AF the next few days and will check in with all of you next week. Have a great week-end everyone and keep at it no matter what is thown at you, the Sweetpea express keeps going no matter what.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning all you crackers

Hope you all had a good weekend. Have had a few days out so sorry that I have not posted. I have just felt so sad and annoyed with myself but now feel like I am getting back on track - sitting on the sweetpea express and chugging along ODAT. Not completely AF but very good at the moment. Am not trying to push myself too hard while I am so down. Strategy seems to be working and my mood has improved

Busy day so will have to dash

Loads of love to you all

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxx:l:l:h:h

[Carmac]

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Hi all -

Well, I have to admit it but I slipped.....big time. Now trying to get back on track and stay focused. Plan to go to a women's AA group tomorrow, Thursday and Saturday and keep going.

Ticks me off at myself because I was doing so well being AF. Now my BF of a year and a half is fdoing the tough love thing too and won't do anything with me till I go at least 3 months AF. We're talking by phone but thats it. And I hate that I have disappointed him so much.

I know part of slipping is losing a major bid that would have sent me to Afghanistan (where you have to be AF....done that before there). But that is NO excuse. It's not like I feel good slipping or coming out of it and that drives me nuts too.

Well, thanks all for being here and I am on the Sweetpea Express big time. Any chance I can toot the horn for every week I stay AF?

Have a great Monday.....Erin

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning Firecrackers

Feeling much better and will soon be back to normal :yougo: So many of us are struggling at the moment BUT the main thing is we are all trying and having to take things ODAT. Without all your support last week I think I would really have lost it. Instead I am making good progress again even though I am not AF all the time - Thank you everyone:l

Erin I know just how you are feeling having been there myself last week. Take heart my friend you will get through this - I shall toot the horn very loudly for you. I am so sorry you did not get the contract that you wanted but i am sure that something else will come along very soon. On the BF front tough love can sometimes work but it can also have the opposite desired effect at times. Hang on in there and do it for yourself BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT :l xxxx

East hope your computer will soon be operational so you can get broad band - missing you. There is absolutely NO WAY we are going to leave you behind xx So grab my hand and lets go for it - WE CAN DO IT xx

Rustop the express is rolling along nicely glad you are board - have you bought the dogs on board because I would really love to see them xx

Teardrop love the picture of East on top of the train :H Keep heart my friend we will get some more AF time in xx

Lukalee how is the AF quest going - thinking of you xx

Shelby thinking of you xx

o2m how goes it in Ireland xx

Amelia how are you doing xx

MWO2 your bunk is ready in first class - 4 course dinner ready on request - no AL though:H xx Got some pretty cool non AL cocktails ready for you though

Vlad, Kat, Ma, Suez, startingover, lil.michelle, nurseindistress, Maasai, Mad Mummy, Wakeupmom, Suki, FBY and all the other crackers here is sending you loads of love and support - let us know how you are all doing

Sweetpea :l xxxxxxxxxxxx

[Carmac]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea,

A big thank you for your words of support. Everything happens for a reason, right? And its not exactly a vacation spot over there.....especially when winter is coming.

I'm very focused on the employment thing again and yes, you are right, I am also focused on doing the no AL thing for me. BF is calling daily so we are in contact and he is being very "phone" supportive so there is hope. He is very special, very special. And maybe with luck, a keeper.

Glad to hear all are working hard trying to get The Beast at bay. Any chance we could get him on the tracks and run him over with the Sweetpea Express? Could be a great video for the nightly news shared by all. I love the idea of not cleaning up after and leaving him to rot,get eaten by vultures and his bones scattered into the sea. (Great visual, don't you think?)

HUgs and Good wishes to all for a great day!

[KAT20]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good morning friends, Have not posted in awhile but have been reading. I told my therapist that sometimes I need a break. I told her it was like weight watchers. When I was going to regular meetings, all I could think about the rest of the day was food. 90 days most AF last Sunday. It use to be easier to count my AF days as there were not many. Now its feels much better to count the times I have drank as there are not many. Not perfect moderation but I feel I am breaking free. Hey, Indiamike, Lets run over AL and leave him there. I was just telling a friend that I do that sometimes when I kill a fly or a spider to warn the others to stay away. Take care all

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Morning All

A bit overcast here in the UK but am feeling bright myself as I am going down the right track at the moment - on the Sweetpea express no less, first class and having a lovely 4 course meal and a non AL cocktail :H

o2m did you have a lovely mad mummy morning - my kids are past that stage but I am looking forward to having mad granny mornings

Erin you are very welcome it is so nice to be able to return the support when and where it is needed because without all the lovely crackers and MWO I would definitely be in a sorry state. I so hope everything works out for you regarding your special bf. The daily phone calls are something to look forward to as you get yourself back on track - you could always send him a nice card or letter to tell him how much his support means to you. YEP I certainly will get the express to run that beast down and make sure it is shown globally on all TV networks - viewing figure will certainly be at an all time high - in fact we could run a series showing how all the creatures eat his body and a ceremonial casting of his bones into the sea:H

Kat :grouptrophy: 90 AF days fantastic you superstar. I know just what you mean regarding needing time out. Last week after my spectacular fall I just couldn't post very much and I am very much like you in the fact that if I spend too much time on site it becomes addictive and I find myself thinking more than ever about the beast BUT on the other hand if I don't come on I feel miserable and alone. So I decided to go down the route of limiting myself to no more than 1 hour in the morning posting on this thread , ASAP, a few other threads and answering any pms. It is not that I don't want to be supportive to all the other threads it is about being fragile and not allowing myself to become completely immersed in thinking about AL all the time - self preservation - Hope that makes sense

To all the other crackers have a brilliant day

Strong vibes of love and support

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxx :l:h

[57Shelby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good Morning All you Crackers!
Sorry I have been away and not posting much. Alot still going on over this job thing, boss and I met yesterday to discuss "now what". I wanted so badly to stop and buy a bottle of wine on the way home form work yesterday and just "relax" after a crappy day. I didn't. I talked to my husband about the day and found I didn't "need" the wine. He is a great support.
So glad to have you back sweetpea and feeling better! We can limp along without you but not for very long. I start developing a british accent, just trying to feel like you are here. LOL
My head is still too full of the crap from work to remember all your posts, but I am glad you are all here and doing pretty well with your struggles. Thank you for all your support. I feel a little self absorbed right now and I apologize.
Kat, I know how you feel. I think that is part of our make up. We are all or nothing people. I struggle with the same things. Your 90 days is awesome!!! I hope to be there soon!!! I will be with all the support here.
Well, have a great day everyone and again, thanks for all the wisdom and kind words. Happy Hump Day!!!
Shelby

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Just a quick post today as I am very busy getting ready for visitors coming this weekend and staying for the week - lots of shopping, preparing and hard work but looking forward to seeing them all

Shelby well done on not buying that bottle of wine:l

Take care everyone

Loads of love to you all

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxx:l:l:h:h

[57Shelby]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Good Morning All!
Just a quick post to say hello and let you know I am still in a funk dealing with this issue over my job. My boss and I have been talking on and off all week and it has been exhausting. Doing a lot of self examination and soul searching. He has pointed out some negative aspects of my personality that I do need to take responsibility for. But, I still think he is being unfair with his actions. There are so many levels of crap to evaluate and disect. It is, as I said exhausting. The GOOD news is that I am staying AF!!!!!!! I am determined to go through this with a clear head so that I am making the decisions and not an AL induced, depressed, regretful mind. Thanks to all of you for putting up with my drama.
This will eventually end and I will be a better MWO supporter.
To all that follow, I am wishing you peace, and success in all the goals you are setting for yourself.
Have a great Thursday.
Love, Shelby

[happydog]

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cant believe it thursday!

Hi all firecrackers,
Rust...Have a good weekend away. look forward to your return.
Erin...Good luck with your AA group meeting..will it be your first time? im also sorry you did not get the contract.
:welcome: 1-2many hope you had lots of fun with the kids.
Kat20...:goodjob: and well done 90days af wow im proud of you.
shelby... sorry to hear abot your job and boss still going on. It must be so exhausting for you so glad your husband is a great support.

Well me i did do 3days af but last night could not help myself my head was hurting, maybe i was over tired but give in. The good thing is i did not buy two bottles of wine as a back up but funny thing is when i got through that half bottle in half hour i starting thinking to myself (wish i did buy a extra bottle.) who knows maybe i might be in control but then that does not last for long. To day im going to try my hardests to be AF.
Forgot to mention the two therapist ladies that does how group sessions have left so not to happy with the new ones they seem to know jack shi*t....lol

Best of luck everyone.

Love
Teardrop.x