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[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Sweetpea like rustop said take good care of u and dont worry...hope u get wel soon...need to go get some xmas lights the ones last year cant seem to untangle them they are in a mess...lol

Love u ALLLLLLLLL firecrackers.

Teardrop.x

[happydog]

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just want to say i love all all

[happydog]

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Teardrop;492054 wrote: just want to say i love all all

i need hep not sure how much .....so sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

[happydog]

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Teardrop;492054 wrote: just want to say i love all all

lol tomorrw wid b a diff story.. need heeeeelp!

[gyco]

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yo sweet your the greatst, at this time of the season WOW,have fun and good luck to you gyco

[sweetpea]

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Teardrop

You are one of the finestest friends ever and have helped so much on this thread. Let us know how we can help. PM me as soon as possible to let me know you are alright

Loads of love Sweetpeaxxxxxxxxxxxxx:h:h:l:l

[Eastender]

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Hi Teardrop, Have posted on your help asap, You have made the first step by telling that you need help. We are here for you when you need us and I know that many people here care about your well being.Please let us know as Sweetpea says that you are OK. I have been absent due to being unwell and having work done on the house. Squeezing this post in on the latest"Teabreak". I will check in later tonite to see how you are. PLEASE PLEASE take care of you.
Sending you lots of love:lEastender

[fjones]

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At day 3 again having got hammered last Thursday at office party. Stayed at a colleagues house but proceeded to drink a bottle of their wine the next day without their permission. Sobered up Sat - very ill, bit better Sunday, faced the music Monday - but too embarrassed, afraid and ashamed and drank again Monday night and all day Tuesday to oblivion. Even being in work today is agonising and painful because I can see that this colleague is really shocked and surprised at my behaviour and I am not the person she thought I was - another loss of self respect and dignity. Lost my boyfriend of four years to my drinking about 8weeks ago - I will soon lose my job - she won't cover for me again. I am pretty low. Take care all.

[Ripple]

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fjones... oh dear this is wot happens to us.. we get exposed sooner or later. the 'real' drinker and personality comes out and everyone now knows and uses it against you ,,, i know how you feel. ... i have been in that place. Smile.. this is not the end. There is always a way out. :l

[DelphicAbstract]

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Fj I know EXACTLY what you mean... having to slink into work, feeling sick and horrible and dealing with all of that judgement. I do actually believe that anyone who passes judgement for that kind of weakness lacks empathy and ultimately a certain kind of wisdom. My advice is put on the outfit you like best wear some perfume that makes you happy and prance in like it never happened.... I have been there so many times.

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

So, so sorry I wasnt around last night Teardrop. Hope you are ok. To anyone else having a rough time, Fjones etc. hang in there, it will get better. Drinking makes it worse not better. We all know that its putting it into practice thats hard. Baby steps. Since joining MWO I feel I am doing something positive. Keep posting, we are there for you.

Rustop

[fjones]

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Thank you for your kind words. I am sure this colleague is very concerned. Saturday and Monday back at the office she kepy going on how I would end up on the streets and lose everything I have - as if I dont know where alcohol can take people - thats why I was in AA for 19 years. The relapse for four years has been awful and getting worse and I keep using PTSD as my excuse. I really hope that this is enough - AA book refers to "disgusted friends and employers" - that really applies right now and I feel very depressed about it. I am struggling to put the boozing in the past and carry so much guilt, shame, fear and remorse and I have little confidence that I can stop.

[SpiritGirl]

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Hopefully you are able to move past the "guilt, shame, fear...etc" as I find them to be triggers towards more AL. Loneliness too (for me). I think when I get to a point of HOPE and ENCOURAGEMENT I find it easier to stay AF for a while (still struggling to get there long term).

Keep checking in here. I always seem to find some hope here...

[DelphicAbstract]

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Feelings of alienation and judgement are surefire triggers that send me on another bender, so try to skip over that part if you can! Keep in mind EVERYONE has those feelings, and problem drinking isn't the only reason to feel guilt and shame. Intolerance and ignorance are two things that come to mind as things to feel shame and guilt over-- and there's plenty of people on the loose sending out negative energy and hurting others all day long-- they tend to think they are doing just fine. Seek out friends who see the best in you and those who offer kind words. Have you come up with a plan for tonight?

[fjones]

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Hi all had dinner with girlfriend and didnt drink - what a relief - i have done minimal social life in last 4 years unless with a drinking buddy (problem drinker) because been too scared to embarass myself, felt sorry for myself and drank at home instead. It was a relief to be out and sober, didnt think I could do it. Lost all confidence.

Teardrop I understand where you are, i used to want to put my face through glass - somehow never did - but if your distress is associated with any form of abuse - as my PTSD is - you might want to check out a website NAPAC National Association for People Abused in Childhood - it has international links and may be able to put you in contact with special forms of support. I apologise is this is assumptive of me but I hope it helps. I suggest that you do not go to the chat room though because it can trigger.

Well tomorrow I can go in proud of myself, yesterday I went in with the shakes!!