FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Firecrackers

Wow, Lukalee, good to hear from you. AF since October 30!!! Well done. Hope all goes well for you with the house. Merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

Everyone else big hello. Good to hear from you Teardrop, take care of yourself. You too Sweetpea, hope you are feeling better. Catch you all later.

Rustop

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

lukalee Af since October really, really well done. Hope your house gets fixed really soon

Teardrop great to hear from you :l

Rustop thanks, I am very slowly making progress. I think it is all the rushing around that is keeping me below par

East hope the decorators have not caused you too many problems

To all the other crackers hope you have a goood day

Loads of love

Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxx:l:l:h:h

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all firecrackers,

Lukalee sorry to hear about the water damage but good new on your af since october :thumbs: up to you and you to have a happy holiday.:l

Rustops sweetpea Endender and everyone from the firecracker team...

Just like to Wish you all a merry xmas and peace Happiness and a healthy New year 4 2009.

Take care

Love
Teardrop.x

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all had 9 days AF and hit the bottle Thursday night, all day Friday, Saturday and Sunday. 8 bottles of wine and the loss of three days. In withdrawal now and sweati9ng, shaky and full of fear. Every time I drink it escaltes to more booze and more time.

Need to check in every day I am not vigilant enough. Just typing this brings out anxiety - shame remorse and guilt.

Hope you are all better shape than me.

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Here I am at start of day 2 - had a rough night, no sleep, sweating and anxiety> I feel really frightened as to where I am going with this stuff. It gets worse each time I drink and yet I wont leave the stuff alone even though it is slowly killing me together with the chain smoking when I drink> confidence is rock bottom> this bender was bad i was in blackout for 3 days. Support and encouragement desperatley needed.

[rustop61]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Fjones and all other crackers

Hang in there Fjones, you are on Day 2 and as you know it will get easier. Why do any of us do it to ourselves, thats the million dollar question!! The more AF time you get under your belt the better you will feel. In the meantime, drink plenty of fluids, come on here and read and post, there is usually somebody online. Hope you are soon feeling better.

Rustop

[Eastender]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Merry Christmas everyone!
I am sorry I have been awol but apart from a horrible virus that has affected the whole family I have had work going on at the house. Builders have the virus now not happy with me!ops!:
Spent an enormous amount of time writing cards to some that I have not seen since last Xmas and I wanted to check in with the people that are there all year for me 24/7 on MWO. I thank you all for being there whenever I have needed support.
Sweetpea :l thanks for thinking of me, Had very bad week. Two separate friends of ours have had one attempted and one successful suicide from young members of their family.It has brought my mood down and I have reached for the bottle. I feel a little angry with myself because I KNOW that it does not help. But the Xmas stash has made it that much easier, excuses I know but I like to be honest here.
Fjones You managed the 9 days that is more than I have managed this month so well done on that. work on the reason why you started to drink this last time, for me the first drink always leads to a bottle and more so I am working on the same triggers have been for more than a year now.
Teardrop I love you too my friend, hope you are feeling better, this time of year is so rollercoaster.
Lukalee so good to hear from you and WOW AF since 30 October, YOU GO GIRL!!! sorry about your house, I hope its well on the way to being sorted, you have done fantastic to stay AF with all that to deal with.
Rustop, I would love to see your tree, I have not one decoration up at the moment .I do not feel inclined to put them up just now. Not because of Bah humbug mindset.I just do not feel very festive at all. I feel as if its happening in a different time /space and I am watching from outside. Maybe wishful thinking.
Just read through my post not very upbeat is it eh? I apologise for that but felt that I should check in and be as honest as I can.

Have a great time over Xmas and take care of yourselves, I am so grateful to have you all.

East:hxxxxxxx:h

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all firecrackers,,,,,

Hi Fjones,
Day2 af hang in there stay strong you can do this....why do we do this to ourselves it like we drink so much and then the body is senting out warning signs and each time it gets worst make this the last time and dont turn back look forward. I hate the sweating i seem to be sweating even when im drinking really bad . during the day if a break out in a bad one i think im going to past out i think my body is senting out warning signs ......
Make sure you do check in everyday and let us know how you are doing i have every faith in you....stay strong and think positive.:l

Love

Teardrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all,

Went to my group councelling last week the two people that takes it do not have a clue.
it about 8weeks since the last time, theres a guy there last time he was homeless wow really please for him his been af and living somewhere now . I will go there tomorrow there will be two different other people taking the sessions.
Anyway got a letter from my new job while working saying that my temporary conttract will end the end of january really felt like crying while i was working. there will be some going the end of december and more going the 1st of january. im hoping that they will extent the contract. People are saying we on a short lists not sure how true it is. Oh well looking forward to my first pay slip tomorrow so need to get something for my other half for xmas...not got a lot this year and my son and daughter have been really understanding about it all.

Take care all firecrackers.:l

love
Teardrop.x

[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi Everyone

Fjones hang on in there drink pleanty of water and keep posting and reading. Everyone knows what you are going through and it will get better:l

East I am so sorry for your friends - I'm afraid to be totally honest I too would have reached out to AL. It is so heartbreaking and something that is hard to come to terms with. What do you say or can say to make things a little easier for them - being the very good friend that you are you will manage to be there for them:l Sorry to hear about your virus - nasty thing just before CHristmas

Rustop thinking of you

Teardrop you are sounding much more positive - well done. Sorry to hear about the job ending but at least you have the experience and it will look really good on your cv

TO ALL THE CRACKERS HAVE A BRILLIANT CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL

I may not be able to post again till after the New Year so I shall be thinking of you all and sending positive vibes

Love you all loads

Sweetpeaxxxxxxxxxxxx:h:h

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all got through Day 2 but did think about a glass of wine to take the edge off the withdrawals> Been a slob most of the day but will have to move tomorrow my brother is coming> Teardrop I too think i will faint and i bresk out in a red rash all over my body - allergy huh. Its late here now and i hope to get some sleep wil check in again tomorrow and thanks for the support>

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

yeah it like a allergy and it feels like it ...reallly know what u mean 24/7.....hope u have a goood sleep and see u tomorrrow..x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hiya everyone,

Quick post today very busy i always leave things to the last minute.
East you make me laugh about your builders glad you and your family are better. but know what mean about xmas i feel like that as well.:l
sweetpea ...thanks.. thinking of u over xmas and new year take care.
Fjone.. i forgot to say a little tip when sweating at night i always get a wet face flannel over my forehead it helps bring the temperature down in the body or if not put 1 or 2 ice cubes in the flannel...
Rustop ... all that work you have done in your houe before xams i bet it looks really nice..see u in the new year but this time i wil have more AF days under my belt ( dont know why but just though of santa big black belt ...

Right im off have a gooood one everyone.

Love
Teardrop.x

[happydog]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

love u alllll

[fjones]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

Hi all hope you had sober Xmas> Me 4 day bender after 9 days then detox and hit it again Xmas Eve crying over the loss of my boyfriend was a hammered functioning drunk Xmas day and spolit it for my brother who made the effort to come and see me because i went on a huge crying grief trip over my abusive past and present problems - who needs it!! > there has been famlly stuff over xmas - not seen my mother since 2001 and sister since 1998 . brother gets stuck in the middle of this and today told me has had enough of it but he has not broke contact with me > i am at end of day 3 but have had dreadful withdrawals my body has literally been shuddering and crawling with anxiety> awful nightmares . i have hit a rock botttom emotionally and with the booze physically - the amount escalated dramatically on both these benders.

As usual exhausted - sad and lonely - due to this allergy, illness or whatever it is - but enough is enough - i cant do another year like this> i have to get my life back under control and the only way to do that is not to drink>

Take care all and plan to check in everyday now>