Newbies in Need - Sun.

[retteacher]

Hi Everyone: I'm writing this at 1:30 AM. We got home from a Halloween party earlier this evening, & I'm just not able to fall asleep. I stayed AF, & it really wasn't that difficult. The host instructed us to help ourselves to the bar. I admit to feeling a slight twinge when I saw all the chilled bottles of wh. wine & very lovely hard liquors. However, I stuck to soda & really didn't take much notice of the bar after a while. I was able to participate in the pumpkin carving contest (I came in 2nd) & had some really nice conversations. I wouldn't have been able to do that if I was sloshed. Worse than that, I would have felt awful if I had broken down on my goal of AF for 30 days (at least). So I'm just beginning day 23 & feel very grateful to be able to say that. Mary

[retteacher]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

By the way everyone: This is the ODAT thread. I forgot to put it in the heading.

I stayed AF yesterday & will again today. It's ODAT for me. However, ultimately, I want to put all those ODATs together to make an AF lifetime. I feel a little scared saying that, but it's what I want. I know I can do it. In letting go of booze, I'm gaining so much...clarity, honesty, integrity. Mary

[happydog]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Hi everyone,
Well done for coming second in the contest, retteacher and 23 days AF. Friday night hubby come home with a bottle of wine so i had a choice between the AF wine or the alcohol wine ( say no more) Anyway i got the wrong AF wine had 4% percent init.(so i mess up there) Plus what makes it worst i past out again, lucky my hubby was there to catch me. I think he is begining to realize i should stop drinking. if i can do 5days AF my goal is to do 7days AF. Got to go and get ready, going to tony stockwell studio, get to do some mediation.
Have a good sunday everyone.
Love Teardrop.xx

[Bessie]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Morning - reteacher sounds like you had a really positive evening. Well done in the pumpkin comp!! :H Helping yourself from the bar events are a mixed blessing. At least you can get yourself an AF without people paying much attention. I had a dinner out last night and did drink but moderately - could have been slightly more moderate if I had tried harder though. Next time..... Trying for the next few days AF, then the holiday then I set a date for my 30 days AF. Ready for it. Happy Sunday all. Bessie. x

[Cinders]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Good morning everyone.

Back to square one and ODAT for me.

I truly hate it when I cave. It makes my self-esteem fall through the floor.

Thank you all for being here. I would be lost without you.

Love,
Cindi

[wonderworld]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Hi Mary, Bessie, Teardrop and Cindi-

Ditto on everything you said Cindi - having so RECENTLY experienced the same myself. BLAH!!!! I love you and your posts. Though I'm not going to drink b/w now and then, I'm kind of looking at Nov. 1 as a new 30 day AF start. We can do it together, if you want.

Luv, wonder xx

[retteacher]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Cindi et al: You have today to stay sober. We all only have this one day. I know you can do it. Cindi, I've done what you did last night & know how you feel. The best thing you could have done was to come here to MWO. It's such a temptation to stay away, but if you did that you'd really cave. So, give yourself credit for coming back to MWO & starting again. I think we're all going to get to the point where alcohol won't have such a strong hold on us. I feel that hold weakening...I really do. Even last night at the party, as I watched everyone drink, the thought of having one weakened as the evening went on. I could see people getting more & more ragged as the time passed w/each drink they had. I went home feeling the same way as when I walked in. That felt good. I'm not giving up drinking so much as I'm gaining a sober lifestyle. Well, enough of the lecturing. I love you all & want to see you happy & fulfilled. Drink plenty of water & enjoy the nice autumn weather. Love, Mary

[rustop61]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Hi everyone

I second everything you said Cindi. There are so many of us struggling with the same issues thats why this ODAT thread is so good. When I messed up before I just stayed away. Wonder, I am taking 1st November as the start of a 30 Day AF stint. Will be away from the 1st to the 3rd visiting MIL which is good as there is no alcohol there but I will not be near a computer so I wont be able to log in.

Mary, glad your party went o.k. I think once we go prepared its a case of forewarned, forarmed. On Friday night it was a spur of the moment thing I went to and I did cave in and was disgusted with myself afterwards.

Hope you all have a great Sunday.

Rustop

[wonderworld]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Mary - thank you for the pep talk. Seriously. It helps alot.

Rustop - November for 30 it is. Glad I've been able to get to know you, Cindi and others and that we can do it together. On my own it's impossible.

luv wonder xx

[Janice]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

It's good to be back!

Hi everyone - Mary, Teardrop, Bessie, Cindi, Wonderworld and all who follow. Just got back last night. Had a really lovely week in the west highlands of Scotland, on the banks of Loch Lomond. Haven't had a chance to catch up on the week's posts yet, been unpacking and shopping all morning.

Today is day 28 for me. This is the furthest I've got since dad died. When I first found this site I did 42 days from 30th April and planned to moderate. Moderation was successful for about 2 weeks but Dad died in late June and needless to say, the "plan" went out of the window. July was my worst month. Losing dad and the pain I was going through was undescribable, I just thought what the hell.... and my drinking was nearly as bad as before MWO. During August I did 2 weeks. Slipped. In September I did 1 week. Slipped.

Like Mary though, I never stopped coming to this site though there were many times when I just could not bring myself to post. I just kept reading and jumping around the different forums.

On the 1st October I got some strength from somewhere - don't know where - but this is where I'm at right now. I feel okay, I miss my dad so much it still hurts so badly but I'm coping and I know that he is with me encouraging me to keep going and not to end up like mam. I feel much healthier and have no pull to drink. Some days pass and I realise I haven't even thought about drinking. That gives me a real buzz. I pour my husband his wine without any wish to join him. I never thought I'd get to this stage again. But I've learnt my lesson - no plans this time, no moderation. I've accepted that its total abstinence from now on. I remember getting to 30 days at the end of May and thinking "what next?". Now, I know it will be the next 30, and the next.... It's a new way of life - but its also one that I take one day at a time.

Thank you to everyone on this thread, and this site for inspiring me and keeping me going through those bad times. But most of all, thank you dad....for keeping an eye on me and making me realise I had to take responsibility and change my life. No one else could do it for me, only me.

If you're struggling right now, please please please don't give up trying..........

Janicexxx

[retteacher]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Janice, when you talk about your Dad, I get tears in my eyes. We have grown children (mid to late 30's), & I feel that they have the same devotion to us that you have toward your Dad. He's w/you all the time...in your heart & spirit. Love, M

[lap102707]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Cut back


I've found this website today. I drink wine daily 3/4 bottle and would like to be able to not drink so much. It's a HABIT. Rewarding myself for making it thru another boring day at work. I also have a 19 year old who has been in AA for 1 1/2 years (drugs, rehab) and I feel guilty and ashamed sitting around drinking when she comes home. Does the Kudzu work???

[paula]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Hi everyone , just got in from work. Welcome back Janice, sorry cindi, but youv'e done really well recently, don't beat yourself up, tomorrow is another day.
Welcome Lap, I find the Kudzu helps me. Try not to waste time feeling guilty do something
constructive.
Best wishes Paula.x

[free bird]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Hi ODAT'er,

I've been contemplating all weekend how to admit to you all that I had a couple of glasses of wine Friday night (2). Althought that doesn't seem like much, it does to me, because I have been struggling with the decision of which would be best A/F or mod and really fealt A/F was the best route for me and thought the decision was made. I guess I forgot about my alter ego at bay. Now I am feeling guilty, but in all reality, my drinking has never been better (thanks to a lot of you). I am recommitting myself to One Day at a Time (with high hopes).

Cindi, I have gotten much inspiration from you and think you are too hard on yourself. I think we all are. Let's pamper ourselves a little today. So any suggestions? I think I might eat some chocolate.

And to everyone else, Have an excellent day today....and eat chocolate....or take a bubble bath...or.................


GO

[retteacher]

Newbies in Need - Sun.

Dear FB: I'm glad you came here to MWO & explained what happened. Yes, be good to yourself today & start again. I too feel that AF is right for me. I really don't think I could have stopped at 2 drinks. I give you a lot of credit for that. Mary