Today is 31 days AF.
When I first posted I was in a bad way and all of my updates followed on from that first post, but I think its time to start a new thread. So 31 days without alcohol?
There is no doubt that things are now better. My health has improved and I am probably feeling better than I have done in 5 years +. I?m regaining confidence, suffering less feelings of anxiety, my weekly upset stomachs have stopped, the 3 or 4 day hangovers from huge binges have gone and I?m exercising and trying to lose some weight, my ability to concentrate has soared (I didn?t even realise some of the horrible things that alcohol was doing to me).
But it is difficult. For the last 15 years I?ve spent weekends in the pub or drinking at home and now that?s gone I?m finding that there?s a great big hole which alcohol filled but at the moment I?m just staying away from alcohol completely. I will change and learn but it?s a transition. Its difficult.
Also like many others I?m wondering if one day I can moderate and have that one cold beer but I don?t trust myself right now. I?m going to see an old friend in 2 weeks and expect that to be a big challenge (I?m still known as a big drinker) so on one hand I can?t wait, while on the other I?m dreading it and already thinking of excuses for not drinking to say to him.
But overall it?s a hard time but it?s worth it!
I couldn?t be writing this without you all. Thank you.
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