I hope newbies & oldbies will find my progress report somewhat helpful. I would love to hear from some of you about your progress. Mine certainly hasn't been entirely smooth.
Prior to coming here to MWO in April, I was drinking a 1.5 L bottle of wh. wine at least 3 - 5 times per week & blacking out frequently. I was physically sick w/hangovers and gastrointestinal problems. More troubling than that was feeling spiritually alienated from my loved ones, because I was leading a double life: secret drinker & (on-the-surface) functioning person.
After I joined MWO, my drinking actually escalated until July 10th. On that day, I just decided I would try to take being AF one day at a time. I went through some pretty bad cravings at first, but it became easier as I built up to more than 2 months AF.
Then, I began thinking about drinking. It seemed like something I could do. In late Sept. & early Oct., I had 3 slips (one of which was pretty bad - throwing up, hangover, etc.). I felt awful, because I had built up so much AF time & felt I blew it. Though I was tempted to stay away, I came back to MWO & received the encouragement I needed to start again.
On Oct. 5th, I had my last drink. My plan is total abstinence. I cannot drink moderately; therefore, drinking is not an option for me (as Chief, a MWO friend puts it). As of today, I have 23 days AF, but I am not in any kind of a contest (as Janice, another MWO friend pointed out). I'm living my life sober one day at a time (ODAT). I have to stay sober today. I won't worry about tomorrow until tomorrow comes. Thanks everyone for being here at MWO...I could never have come this far wo/all of you. Mary
Prior to coming here to MWO in April, I was drinking a 1.5 L bottle of wh. wine at least 3 - 5 times per week & blacking out frequently. I was physically sick w/hangovers and gastrointestinal problems. More troubling than that was feeling spiritually alienated from my loved ones, because I was leading a double life: secret drinker & (on-the-surface) functioning person.
After I joined MWO, my drinking actually escalated until July 10th. On that day, I just decided I would try to take being AF one day at a time. I went through some pretty bad cravings at first, but it became easier as I built up to more than 2 months AF.
Then, I began thinking about drinking. It seemed like something I could do. In late Sept. & early Oct., I had 3 slips (one of which was pretty bad - throwing up, hangover, etc.). I felt awful, because I had built up so much AF time & felt I blew it. Though I was tempted to stay away, I came back to MWO & received the encouragement I needed to start again.
On Oct. 5th, I had my last drink. My plan is total abstinence. I cannot drink moderately; therefore, drinking is not an option for me (as Chief, a MWO friend puts it). As of today, I have 23 days AF, but I am not in any kind of a contest (as Janice, another MWO friend pointed out). I'm living my life sober one day at a time (ODAT). I have to stay sober today. I won't worry about tomorrow until tomorrow comes. Thanks everyone for being here at MWO...I could never have come this far wo/all of you. Mary
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