My Headache

[retteacher]

Today I woke up w/a wicked headache. As I told my husband about it, I realized I never would have done that pre-MWO, because I would have been afraid he'd think I was hungover. In fact, during my heavy drinking days, he would ask me if I was OK (I probably looked like hell), & I'd say: "I'm just fine." (Even if I was nauseous & headachey.) Along w/an AF lifestyle comes the right to complain about a headache once in a while...no more suffering in silence.

The same principle applies to making mistakes. Now, when I stumble, forget something, act dumb or thoughtless, etc., I know it's part of the human condition...not drunkeness. I don't have to feel ashamed. I can apologize &/or dismiss it & get on w/life.

I feel like I have a new freedom: the freedom to complain, the freedom to make mistakes, the freedom to be me.

I couldn't feel more grateful to my dear, dear friends at MWO. Love, Mary

[beatle]

My Headache

ha ha I have had the same experience. In my case it's mostly forgetting things. When I'm AF, it's such a relief to admit that I forgot something and not have to cover up.

[cowgal]

My Headache

headache

I have a headache today too, is it a full moon or something?? I didn't drink last night, but didn't sleep too well either, so that may be why..........hope you feel better Mary, hope I do too.......will just have a cup of green tea now, maybe that will help!

Love ,

MA:l :h

[Cinders]

My Headache

Oh, to be able to suffer any condition without my hubby telling me it is because I drink too much!!

A headache that is not alcohol induced and therefore to be quietly suffered without complaining because you know it is your own fault.

To forget a conversation because we are too busy or distracted and not blacked out.

Yes. What freedom, Mary, Cowgal, Beatle.

I am tired of everything that is wrong with me being "because I drink too much." It may take months of sober before hubby figures out it isn't the drink but I don't care, that is where I want to be anyway. A "solar orbiter."

I hope you feel better soon Mary and Mary Anne.

Love,
Cindi

[Finding My Self]

My Headache

Just echoing that ladies! It is good! (Not to have a bad headache! I hope they go away really soon for you!)

After about 30 days I got mad at David (we were just together still at that point) for saying something that really was out of order (as happens) and he said, "You're not meant to be like that any more..." and I smile when I remember that.... and how I felt; it was exactly how I was meant to be! Strong and honest! Guilt free and with-it!

It is just the best feeling to look in the mirror without guilt, fear, remorse (well, that's fading daily now....and up to me to let go of).

This is indeed a happy place!!!

Good on yer gals! (And guys too!)

Love FMF xx

[paula]

My Headache

I rarely get headaches, drunk or sober, so Mary, CG, hope you soon feel better. FMF, I'm
still waiting for the good feelings. Dear Cindi you sound really down, please try to cheer up,
you have done so well recently, it's almost the end of the month, get those stars back, I'll
join you( have to learn how to put the stars on though).
Love Paula xx

[Cinders]

My Headache

Paula,

I care about you, too. :l :l

Thank you for being so sensitive to my moods. I try to be upbeat but when I am down, I am really down.

I sense it in you, too, and hate it. I wish I could make it go away when you are there...

To do the stars, go to User CP in Upper Left Hand Corner, and edit signature. Always preview signature first to make sure it works.

More importantly, though, Paula, you are doing very well despite your last few slips. Just like me!! I think we may be too hard on ourselves...

Love,
Cindi

[paula]

My Headache

Cindi, you sound more positive. Good, unfortuanately people who do not suffer from this
affliction, do not understand us. My husband , bless him tries to understand, but really he
hasn't a clue. Let's stop being hard on ourselves. We are ok.
Love Paula xx
Ps . thanks for user advice.

[Guest]

My Headache

Wonderful to hear you`re enjoying being "me", Mary........it`s great to no longer have to pretend we`re O.K. when we`re actually ill from overindulging.

Cindi, glad to hear you positive.........you`ve done fabulously!!!!!!!

Starlight Impress x

[retteacher]

My Headache

Cindi: I too have sensed that some of the sparkle dimmed w/the last slip. The important thing is that you're here & you haven't given up. I've kept DrinkTracker almost from the beginning of my time here at MWO, & I wouldn't even want to review what months April, May, & June looked like. I actually was worse than before I came to MWO. Perhaps, I instinctively knew my drinking days were numbered & I was trying to get in all the drinking I could. Who knows?! I only know that something clicked (as Janice said), & I feel strong ODAT. Keep on keeping on. You're doing fine. Love, Mary

[Finding My Self]

My Headache

Cindi and Paula - hugs. You're doing so well. Be proud of each little tiny step....in the grand scheme of things they are actually HUGE steps....not to be sneezed at so....

The happy feelings come and go but there's no doubt about the fact of knowing the person in the mirror is doing good when they are...and so you are.

Chin up, deep breath and smile....YES, YOU ARE OK!!

Mary - I hope your headache is better now - and MA too...

Love FMF xx