Today is day 30 - the most I've done since Dad died in June and the second longest AF stint since I joined MWO at the end of April.
This time its different. Back then, I thought I was doing so well AF, after 42 days of course I could moderate and drink normally like any other person. Not to be. Dad died and before I knew it, the drink together with the grief I was going through - and still am - meant I was falling into that very dark, deep and lonely pit again.
After several attempts, on the 1st October I thought enough is enough and like I said in yesterday's newbies thread, something "clicked" especially after the third day. It has been easier this time round but I believe its because I've accepted that abstinence is the only way. Last time when I got to day 30, I started having "thoughts" about if and when I could start drinking again. Not this time.
My mam is an alcoholic and is very ill. Alcohol has ruined my family and the last years of my Dad's life. He went through hell. That will not happen to my family.
If you're new to MWO or have just come across this thread today and know you have to do something about your drinking, then this site will help you. You can do it, only you can do it, nobody else BUT you really have to commit yourself and take responsibility. It's up to you. This site and all these wonderful people on it will encourage, inspire and support you every time you come on but at the end of the day, there's only one person who can make it happen.
So, this is a big thank you to RJ and MWO, and all my wonderful friends here. Thank you for getting me through those dark times....but also thank you Dad, these 30 days have been for myself but they are for you too. I know you're watching over and encouraging me.
The 1st November sees the start of a new month - that is what got me going, a fresh month, a new start. So come on, wipe the slate clean - get yourself organised, get that plan set up, organise your vits/supps, plan the exercise, the cds, your shopping in advance, social events etc etc - be organised, be disciplined and be strict with yourself. Come on, lets do this together, November......bring it on!!
Janice
xxx
This time its different. Back then, I thought I was doing so well AF, after 42 days of course I could moderate and drink normally like any other person. Not to be. Dad died and before I knew it, the drink together with the grief I was going through - and still am - meant I was falling into that very dark, deep and lonely pit again.
After several attempts, on the 1st October I thought enough is enough and like I said in yesterday's newbies thread, something "clicked" especially after the third day. It has been easier this time round but I believe its because I've accepted that abstinence is the only way. Last time when I got to day 30, I started having "thoughts" about if and when I could start drinking again. Not this time.
My mam is an alcoholic and is very ill. Alcohol has ruined my family and the last years of my Dad's life. He went through hell. That will not happen to my family.
If you're new to MWO or have just come across this thread today and know you have to do something about your drinking, then this site will help you. You can do it, only you can do it, nobody else BUT you really have to commit yourself and take responsibility. It's up to you. This site and all these wonderful people on it will encourage, inspire and support you every time you come on but at the end of the day, there's only one person who can make it happen.
So, this is a big thank you to RJ and MWO, and all my wonderful friends here. Thank you for getting me through those dark times....but also thank you Dad, these 30 days have been for myself but they are for you too. I know you're watching over and encouraging me.
The 1st November sees the start of a new month - that is what got me going, a fresh month, a new start. So come on, wipe the slate clean - get yourself organised, get that plan set up, organise your vits/supps, plan the exercise, the cds, your shopping in advance, social events etc etc - be organised, be disciplined and be strict with yourself. Come on, lets do this together, November......bring it on!!
Janice
xxx
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