Hello to everyone,
After reading posts for the last three days and getting lost on the site(technophobe) I decided to work out how to enter my story.
I stated drinking cider at 13 ,seeing how great a time all my relatives had when they drank. Born in the Eastend of London a Pub was on every corner and everyone in my enormous family enjoyed a drink and the get together at regular intervals.
I always associated having a drink with fun and reward until one night, tit could could bring out the nasty side in other people.
I stopped drinking for a while and married young at 18 which failed after a year( No connection with drink), Even at such a young age I remained strong and continued to be responsible paying mortgage and looking after myself.
I met and married my husband of 27 years three years later and had three kids now twenty five,twenty three and seventeen. In the earlier years we drank socially mainly at weekends without any problems.
After an argument about a family business some 15 years ago when we nearly lost everything our drinking started to increase. We started our own business ,got out of debt and after working 7 days a week long hours saw drink as our reward. Our business is doing well and we want for nothing.
My husband has never to this day had problems with controlling the amount he drinks he either falls asleep or is physically sick if he has too many.
I on the otherhand can drink copious amounts of alcohol (usually 1-2 bottles of wine these days) but mainly after work in the evening when cooking the meal or watching TV.
I have functioned well all these years never missed any work or school functions my older children in very good jobs and quite balanced young people.
As our business is run from home I spend quite a lot of time by myself,and once the older children flew the nest spent even more time by myself.
Family and friends always enjoy our company and we are not short of social invites , but our alchohol consumption has steadily increased.
I started college part time at the ripe old age of 47 when I obtained some five new qualifications and was so proud, but still I continued to drink every night not seeing any problem.
In the last 2 years my youngest daughter fell in love with drug addict who mentally and physically abused her , She ended the relationship after she had an abortion.
She started to drink with her friends herself on occasions to 'cheer herself up' and I felt so guilty about my own behavior I then tried to moderate myself, and realised that I could not .
My fathers advice to me was that drink was no longer my 'friend' and that I should cut down .I know this not possible so I have obstained. I am on my third day today and am scared of withdrawals as I have never gone AF for more than 2 days. I will order the book today but feel a bit lost! I was 50 years old 5 weeks ago and am desperate to change my drinking and be the person I was before. I feel out of control.
I showed my husband the website last night and said I would write my story today he smiled and had a beer !
I do gone on a bit ,but I feel better for telling someone how I feel. How healing this website is!
After reading posts for the last three days and getting lost on the site(technophobe) I decided to work out how to enter my story.
I stated drinking cider at 13 ,seeing how great a time all my relatives had when they drank. Born in the Eastend of London a Pub was on every corner and everyone in my enormous family enjoyed a drink and the get together at regular intervals.
I always associated having a drink with fun and reward until one night, tit could could bring out the nasty side in other people.
I stopped drinking for a while and married young at 18 which failed after a year( No connection with drink), Even at such a young age I remained strong and continued to be responsible paying mortgage and looking after myself.
I met and married my husband of 27 years three years later and had three kids now twenty five,twenty three and seventeen. In the earlier years we drank socially mainly at weekends without any problems.
After an argument about a family business some 15 years ago when we nearly lost everything our drinking started to increase. We started our own business ,got out of debt and after working 7 days a week long hours saw drink as our reward. Our business is doing well and we want for nothing.
My husband has never to this day had problems with controlling the amount he drinks he either falls asleep or is physically sick if he has too many.
I on the otherhand can drink copious amounts of alcohol (usually 1-2 bottles of wine these days) but mainly after work in the evening when cooking the meal or watching TV.
I have functioned well all these years never missed any work or school functions my older children in very good jobs and quite balanced young people.
As our business is run from home I spend quite a lot of time by myself,and once the older children flew the nest spent even more time by myself.
Family and friends always enjoy our company and we are not short of social invites , but our alchohol consumption has steadily increased.
I started college part time at the ripe old age of 47 when I obtained some five new qualifications and was so proud, but still I continued to drink every night not seeing any problem.
In the last 2 years my youngest daughter fell in love with drug addict who mentally and physically abused her , She ended the relationship after she had an abortion.
She started to drink with her friends herself on occasions to 'cheer herself up' and I felt so guilty about my own behavior I then tried to moderate myself, and realised that I could not .
My fathers advice to me was that drink was no longer my 'friend' and that I should cut down .I know this not possible so I have obstained. I am on my third day today and am scared of withdrawals as I have never gone AF for more than 2 days. I will order the book today but feel a bit lost! I was 50 years old 5 weeks ago and am desperate to change my drinking and be the person I was before. I feel out of control.
I showed my husband the website last night and said I would write my story today he smiled and had a beer !
I do gone on a bit ,but I feel better for telling someone how I feel. How healing this website is!
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