Anyways, I'm a Junior in college, and I am beginning to wonder if maybe I have a drinking problem. Alcoholism runs in my family (both sides) and ever since I began drinking, I have kept an eye out for a potential problem.
The problem is all of my friends drink regularly, and so it is hard not to be around it and be influenced by it. Take last Friday night, I drank nearly 15 beers at a party... and the next day I was so hung over I spent most of my time in bed! That's no fun, especially not on a beautiful Saturday when I had other plans I had to cancel in order to recover.
Other than that, I drink regularly with my friends and sometimes on my own too. My choice is heavy beer and Bourbon, but I seem to moderate myself fairly well with these or if I am by myself (maybe 2-4 drinks in a night). What worries me is being out with friends, drinking the cheap beer as fast as I can put it down. I'm a big guy, and so I can hold a lot, and oftentimes I'm the "reservoir" of a party.
My girlfriend is currently serving in Iraq right now, and I feel I have been self medicating her absence with alcohol. I have recently stopped drinking on the weekdays altogether, and have become rather "pissy" for lack of a better word, and am having a hard time dealing with her being gone and worrying constantly about her safety.
My goal is to stop binge drinking. I love the taste of beer (micro-brews, etc) and would like to limit any night to 6 beers at the absolute most (only on the weekends). I also want to quit drinking bourbon, because of how easy it is to over-do it. I have gained a considerable amount of weight since I began drinking/partying hard a few years ago, and it would be nice to lose that weight and be able to do the activities I love with greater ease (snowboarding, motocross, fishing) and have those for stress relievers instead of the bottle. I feel I am young enough to give moderation a shot... if it doesn't work I will look at abstinence. I have seen family members struggle with alcoholism and its health problems my whole life, and I do not want any part of that.
I hope that wasn't too dry or erratic... thanks for reading I look forward to getting to know some of you and listening to your stories as well. Be well
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