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[akop818]

im lost. i think i need help. i think i need to talk to somebody, anybody.

[discovermarisa]

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HI, what's going on?

[pepper]

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Hi Akop,
That's why we are here. Talk to us.
Pepper

[akop818]

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I get scared because I think that I'm beggining to follow in the footsteps of my father, who is an alcoholic. I don't think I want to admit that I am, although my habits are very destructive. I feel stupid because I don't understand why I can't control myself. I don't even know what to say about. ANd I constantly think to myself that there are other people that do worse things, so this really isn't a problem. And I always seem to tell myself: "okay, Im done, that's it, no more" but then it just begins again the next day. It's been the same way with my eating and purging. Always telling myself I can get better tommorrow. But tommorrow is always the next day.
I also say to myself, that I'm too young to have a serious problem. I should probably go back on medication, and I should probably talk to someone, but I won't be back in the states to some kind of doctor until december, and I feel stuck.

[pepper]

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I don't really feel qualified to help you as I am a newbie here too but I will help however I can. I did the same thing over and over with the ok, I'm done, no more but by evening it would start all over again. Then the next morning the self-hate, guilt and all the awful physical symptoms. You are never too young in my estimation to have a serious problem and I would even say the sooner you can resolve it the better. Some of us are wishing we had! Maybe you should try a stint of abstinence to determine whether you truly think it's a problem. Then after that move on to try moderating. That is my plan. If I get to mods and can't control it I will have to be AF forever.

I don't know anything about eating disorders or whether you should go back on meds (you didn't say what meds you were on), but I certainly think that just by reaching out you are on the right track. Keep posting!
Pepper

[Saint Jude]

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Akop, I agree with Pepper, just the fact that you're here, and asking questions is a healthy step.
It's Oh so common to think that tomorrow is the day...I think it's almost the "human condition" in many ways... dieting, stopping smoking, drinking, unhealthy relationships, getting in shape....
There's always something we can be improving upon...(meanwhile, here I sit on my butt!LOL....I do have a "magic circle exercise ring between my knees though! )

Just be strong for yourself for now. But do go easy on yourself too, OK?
Sounds like you're far from home. December isn't that long away. Keep posting & let us know how you're doing alright?

I'm a lot like my Dad too. Just hope I don't get that mean sometimes...

Do take care.
:l Judie

[cowgal]

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HI

Welcome, you have alot in common w/ most of us here, I will quit tomorrow is my FAVORITE saying!! Tomorrow never comes though, does it???

Just hang out here as much as possible, read, post, ask questions, you will get great advice and support, I can actually say I LOVE the people on this forum!!:h

You will grow to too, I hope, good luck whatever your path, and WELCOME:welcome:

Love,:l

MA:h

[magic]

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Hi akop, welcome!

It's a cycle~ a mean, damaging cycle. I'm glad you have been able to identify it.

I agree with the others, I've just one thing to add. Can you make a doctor's appointment from where you are now, so it's waiting for you when you get home?

Judie's right, December is right around the corner! You'll be home soon.

Again, welcome, we're glad you're here!

magic xx :wavin: