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[less desperate]

I fell off the wagon in a very big way. Why can't I keep sober? My husband is so mad at me he's avoiding me. I also ticked off my boss at work because I had to call in sick Friday.

And I feel horrible. What's wrong with me???????????????Why can't I do this?????????????:upset:

Maybe some part of me really does want to self destruct.

[retteacher]

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Less: Keep trying. Don't ever give up. Today is another day to start. Mary

[rustop61]

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Less, Mary's right. Dont give up and let the beast win, keep trying. Just take it One day at a time and you will get there.

Rustop

[less desperate]

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rustop61;225455 wrote: Less, Mary's right. Dont give up and let the beast win, keep trying. Just take it One day at a time and you will get there.

Rustop

Thanks. Those are the words I needed to hear. Sorry I was such a downer.

[chefette]

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always keep trying. never give up whether u are going for moderation or abstinence you will get there in the end. i have been trying for years. all of a sudden i am actually serious about. your time will come.

[less desperate]

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chefette;225515 wrote: always keep trying. never give up whether u are going for moderation or abstinence you will get there in the end. i have been trying for years. all of a sudden i am actually serious about. your time will come.

Do you what caused you to change?

[trixietrack]

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less desperate;225521 wrote: Do you what caused you to change?

this is a very good question less.
I have been working on moderating for a long time, almost a year. you just keep trying and trying different things.
for me I just sort of woke up and realized I really need to take this problem by the reins and cut down or just stop, I chose to stop it's just taking too much of my time.
I am not sure at this point if I will just remain sober 100% or try moderating.
One thing I must say is, life is a lot easier when I don't have to go out of my way after work to find cheaper wine, or to leave the bar drunk and slurr to a car driver instructions on how to get me home.
It'a Saturday afternoon, I am going to the gym and I am not nursing a hangover.
just keep trying, it will come.
Trix