Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

[Bessie]

I'm not sure what the 'rules' are for starting a Newbies/ODAT daily thread so I haven't and will wait patiently until somebody does! (I know my place!)

But I am up and just need to get this off my chest. Having done so well (for me) over the last couple of weeks I 'treated' myself to a 'nice' bottle of red wine last night. And, as if that wasn't way too much, I downed a couple of cognac chasers. What sort of muppet am I? No need to answer that.

Feel like total cr##p this morning - what a surprise. Actually it sort of is as a bottle of wine often didn't have a huge impact on me the next day when I was drinking heavily. Now my system is a lot cleaner it really has had a much bigger impact.

I have learnt some more lessons.
1. I really enjoy the way I feel in the mornings when AF,
2. I am much more productive and less stressed AF
3. a bottle of wine is not a 'treat' - it is a punishment
4. I am no way ready to moderate and need to get as many AF days under my belt as I can possibly manage
5. left to my own devices I am a liability
6. planning ahead for an AF night is the only, safe way to get on.

All taken on board. (And yet I know all these things from reading these boards - I guess I just won't be told and have to learn it all for myself!! :H )

Need a big hot shower now to scrub away the horrible hangover feeling. If only I could shower and scrub the inside as well!!

Have a good day all.

Bessie xx

[Skid Row]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Oh Bessie, don't bash yourself more, you aleady did that. Have a nice yummy shower, a hearty breakfast, and keep walking forward, safe in the knowlege that you learnt a lesson and now you will be even stronger for it. Hope you feel better soon. Chin up.

[Bessie]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

A hearty breakfast? Now that sounds like a good idea! Bacon sandwiches always hit the spot. Thanks. I am mad with myself but you're right - walking forward is the way to go.

Bessie (wandering into kitchen to find bacon, bread and ketchup.......) xx

[rustop61]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Good morning Bessie

Skid is right, dont beat yourself up, been there, done that as have many of us so we all know what you are feeling right now. Today is another day and a fresh start. If you are up please start the ODAT thread, I usually do as we are hours ahead of the US but if I'm not around one of the others usually opens it, no rules.

Thanks for sharing and you were right to come on and tell us, I didnt last year, just stayed away and continued to drink and that is defnitely not the way to go.

Catch you later, hope you enjoyed your sambo.

Rustop

[Skid Row]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Well done Bessie, (have a banana as well - I'm addicted) something in my nature I guess.

[Bessie]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Thanks Rustop.

I am definitely not staying away - I am addicted to these boards now!! Plus it is the only thing that has got me anywhere near where I want to be with alcohol and I trust everyone here will help and be supportive, encouraging and not judgemental. (and kick me up the backside if need be!!)

I am focussed on what I am trying to do (despite last night :upset: ) and this place helps me stay that way.

Big thanks to you and everyone for being here.

Bessies (slightly fed up 'cos no bacon in the house...) xxx

[Bessie]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

I've got bananas......!! And my All in One smoothie..... Still want bacon though....!!

[happydog]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Good morning everyone,

Bessie, know how you feel i messed up after 18days AF trying to get back on track again. I do eat bananas for breakfast. Another good thing is porridge is very good for the energy as well and i do love my sugar in it to. You know i was not going to come on the thread today but saw your post and just had to tell you about the porridge meant to be good for hangover. Deep down i know there is no way i can moderate to because once i start drinking cant seem to stop. The thing is i thought if i made those 30days AF the first thing i would of done is treated myself to bottle of wine, yes it is not a treat it is a punishment. just got to keep remembering that one in the future!!
Have a good weekend everyone.x
Love
Teardrop.x

[retteacher]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Hi Everyone: What great advice. Bessie, I too have been there: thinking I was rewarding myself w/a bottle of wine...only to find out that I threw me into the old pit I was in when I came here to MWO. I'm so glad you came back here & 'fessed up.' Now you can get back to your AF life & move forward. Mary

[paula]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Good afternoon Bessie and evryone,
just popped in briefly, I had a docs appointment early am., now I am off to work.
Hope you feel better now Bessie. I will drop in later.
Love to all. Have a good day.
Paula.xx

[charlee]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Bessie
New day, new start..as been said before, this is a process. You sound very positive....enjoy that banana smoothie, take a nice shower and go to the store and treat yourself to some bacon!!

[Bessie]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Thanks all for kind words and support - still feeling a bit grotty. Had the bacon, banana, All in One, shower and now trying to get lots of water down. If only this grotty feeling could be bottled so that I could take a sniff of it when considering drinking.... it would certainly put me off. Still, as you have all said, onwards and upwards..... AF and ODAT. I want to look back at this post one day, when I have done 30 days ++ and see that this is just a small and isolated part of the overall journey.

Thanks and love to all.

Bessie xx

[Chief]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Hi Guys, It is a turning point when you realise that drinking is not a reward, but a punishment. Living your life AF is the reward.
I'm so glad you came right back to MWO after your slip. Together, we can beat the Beast.

Don

[cowgal]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

hi

Sorry you had such a night of it, Bessie, but all this advise, take it into your heart!! It is good, don't beat yourself up, be gentle and loving to yourself, that is most important:l Give yourself a huge hug!! Start today, as I think you have,just by getting it out, in a positive way

Stay close to these boards, you will get it, one day at a time, like it says:h


Love you, take care:h

Everyone else have a great day, don't know what my plans are, it is cold (to me) and windy, so hot good for horses during hunting season, I have a spooky boy, but haven't written off riding, cuz I don't know how long I'll have him!??


MA

[FinallyRN]

Not the Newbies in need ODAT - Friday thread...

Don't feel bad. I've had many reward nights. If anything they were good lessons. I was hung over, and felt so bad that like you, I took inventory at what I had achieved and what I left behind.........much happier AF. Sounds like this was a good lesson, albeit a painful one. Its great that you are so positive. Well done!