hello everyone,
i have been af for 2 days now and am working on my third. I am a mother of two good daughters, but do not feel as if i have been the mom i could have been in a while due to my addiction as well as other problems, that of course the addiction compounded. I have embarressed my family and myself . It is really hard to be uplifted sometimes when you feel so awful inside and out. In my teens, i drank twice. in my twenties, startied drinking on occasion. my drinking steadily picked up through my late twenties,as well as my thirties, until i am at this point in my life. i drink (drank) almost every single day. the only times that i did not, was when i tried to be af. i was successful for a couple of weeks but thought i could moderate my drinking. i have tried several times and always turn to the alcohol to ease my pain, knowing it compounds the pain. i know i am wreaking havoc on my physical health as well as mental. i am truely thankful i found this sight. i know now that others are fighting the same addiction. possibly, when i feel more comfortable i will open up about other things in my life. i rarely socialize and when my husband and i do, of course it is with other drinkers. he is my drinking partner as well. we rarely go a weekend without a drink. but he can moderate his drinking better than i, i don't seem to be able to. i don't have alot of people in my life that i feel comfortable talking to. i am going for af but at this point i am not sure of a goal. i am on my 3rd day of chantix for smoking, and read somewhere it may have a possitive affect on alcohol addiction. i would like to get some feedback on the tapes and the supplements offered through mwo. i am trying to work them into my budget. also any encouragement about getting over the embarrassement and shame i feel about past mistakes would be greatly appreciated. thanks for reading ,:new: it was a big step for me to write this.
please excuse my spelling, i didn't see a spell check on here
i have been af for 2 days now and am working on my third. I am a mother of two good daughters, but do not feel as if i have been the mom i could have been in a while due to my addiction as well as other problems, that of course the addiction compounded. I have embarressed my family and myself . It is really hard to be uplifted sometimes when you feel so awful inside and out. In my teens, i drank twice. in my twenties, startied drinking on occasion. my drinking steadily picked up through my late twenties,as well as my thirties, until i am at this point in my life. i drink (drank) almost every single day. the only times that i did not, was when i tried to be af. i was successful for a couple of weeks but thought i could moderate my drinking. i have tried several times and always turn to the alcohol to ease my pain, knowing it compounds the pain. i know i am wreaking havoc on my physical health as well as mental. i am truely thankful i found this sight. i know now that others are fighting the same addiction. possibly, when i feel more comfortable i will open up about other things in my life. i rarely socialize and when my husband and i do, of course it is with other drinkers. he is my drinking partner as well. we rarely go a weekend without a drink. but he can moderate his drinking better than i, i don't seem to be able to. i don't have alot of people in my life that i feel comfortable talking to. i am going for af but at this point i am not sure of a goal. i am on my 3rd day of chantix for smoking, and read somewhere it may have a possitive affect on alcohol addiction. i would like to get some feedback on the tapes and the supplements offered through mwo. i am trying to work them into my budget. also any encouragement about getting over the embarrassement and shame i feel about past mistakes would be greatly appreciated. thanks for reading ,:new: it was a big step for me to write this.
please excuse my spelling, i didn't see a spell check on here
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