To those of you who helped me during my last week, I want to thank you so much.
All worked out well. "Joe" came by today and we had a great talk. He apologized for what he had put me through last week, needed time to figure out what he wanted from this relationship - I think it was the "wow, over a year, where are we going" fear that a lot of men have. He brought me roses (which is huge, at 40 years old he has never bought a woman flowers, EVER - always said he wouldn't until the day he proposed). Took my face in his hands and said " look at me - I love you so much, I can't believe I thought I could live without you, you have treated me amazingly and I have not been there for you - if you want me, I will step up to the plate and treat you the way you deserve".
I can't tell you how much I needed to hear that. As I often have some insecurity issues because of my previous relationships all I have ever needed was to know where I stood.........never had that security before - he has finally given it to me........
Thanks to all of you for listening to me as I dealt with this last week. I feel so much stronger and capable now to tame this beast knowing I have someone who loves me and supports me. I can do this, I can be strong, I can have AF days, I can moderate if I choose to drink. I have love...........I have you guys..........damn, I'm pretty lucky.
:h
All worked out well. "Joe" came by today and we had a great talk. He apologized for what he had put me through last week, needed time to figure out what he wanted from this relationship - I think it was the "wow, over a year, where are we going" fear that a lot of men have. He brought me roses (which is huge, at 40 years old he has never bought a woman flowers, EVER - always said he wouldn't until the day he proposed). Took my face in his hands and said " look at me - I love you so much, I can't believe I thought I could live without you, you have treated me amazingly and I have not been there for you - if you want me, I will step up to the plate and treat you the way you deserve".
I can't tell you how much I needed to hear that. As I often have some insecurity issues because of my previous relationships all I have ever needed was to know where I stood.........never had that security before - he has finally given it to me........
Thanks to all of you for listening to me as I dealt with this last week. I feel so much stronger and capable now to tame this beast knowing I have someone who loves me and supports me. I can do this, I can be strong, I can have AF days, I can moderate if I choose to drink. I have love...........I have you guys..........damn, I'm pretty lucky.
:h
I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
c: :heart:
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