Morning all. Starting this again as this is the only time I will have to check in until much later today.
Hunting cancelled today (boooo) so I have no excuse not to get on with the decorating (double boooo) It's a chilly dull one here in the UK - bet those of you in other parts are basking in sunshine (you lucky, lucky people!)
Filled in my drink tracker with 0 for last night early in the evening. Then Al tried another bloody trick on me. He knows no bounds the bastard! Not content with delivering a bottle of port via a neighbour the night before (still unopened in rack I am pleased to say - just waiting for a new home) he then sent hubby out, unnannouced, unplanned and unasked for to get a bottle of wine. Hmmmmm. He must have been listening when I asked hubby not to bring wine into the house if at all possible. And I'm afraid I let the bugger seduce me (Al, not my husband - not his birthday yet!) into drinking some of it with dinner.
Then I had a bath because I actually felt 'dirty' through drinking and wanted to go to bed feeling de-alcoholised. And in that bath I contemplated my blip and realised that, although I had blipped, I am so much stronger in so many other Al situations than I have ever been before. I drank less than half the bottle and was relieved when it was finished rather than disappointed. Before I would have gulped it down and had way over half, leaving hubby to have a beer instead, and then looked for something else. The port would have been opened. No doubt about it.
I know now that I can go to a party or a dinner and not drink and not be unduly bothered about it. I don't feel so often the need to reward myself with wine - the reward is the clear head, the sense of achievement and the big fat zero in the drink tracker. And the hot bath and good book and all the other things I am using to reward myself.
I can't say I am not going to come up against more Al situations that I can't conquer but I am definitely getting tougher and better at kicking Al's arse!
Hope you all give him a good kicking today.
Bessie xx
Hunting cancelled today (boooo) so I have no excuse not to get on with the decorating (double boooo) It's a chilly dull one here in the UK - bet those of you in other parts are basking in sunshine (you lucky, lucky people!)
Filled in my drink tracker with 0 for last night early in the evening. Then Al tried another bloody trick on me. He knows no bounds the bastard! Not content with delivering a bottle of port via a neighbour the night before (still unopened in rack I am pleased to say - just waiting for a new home) he then sent hubby out, unnannouced, unplanned and unasked for to get a bottle of wine. Hmmmmm. He must have been listening when I asked hubby not to bring wine into the house if at all possible. And I'm afraid I let the bugger seduce me (Al, not my husband - not his birthday yet!) into drinking some of it with dinner.
Then I had a bath because I actually felt 'dirty' through drinking and wanted to go to bed feeling de-alcoholised. And in that bath I contemplated my blip and realised that, although I had blipped, I am so much stronger in so many other Al situations than I have ever been before. I drank less than half the bottle and was relieved when it was finished rather than disappointed. Before I would have gulped it down and had way over half, leaving hubby to have a beer instead, and then looked for something else. The port would have been opened. No doubt about it.
I know now that I can go to a party or a dinner and not drink and not be unduly bothered about it. I don't feel so often the need to reward myself with wine - the reward is the clear head, the sense of achievement and the big fat zero in the drink tracker. And the hot bath and good book and all the other things I am using to reward myself.
I can't say I am not going to come up against more Al situations that I can't conquer but I am definitely getting tougher and better at kicking Al's arse!
Hope you all give him a good kicking today.
Bessie xx
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